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Forgot to work on the damn website because I got sucked into watching Korra, finishing up another bit of Pokespe, and finishing battle tendency and I did not look once at my laptop even though I had neocities open.

I was editing like a fiend on Notepad ++ because I was looking at it after I downloaded it and being like "doesn't this look exactly like the HTML program I used once in college and it was one to one. Chalk another one up to booboo the fool moments. This page is going to still be a default template mess but at least all the text will be off my computer.

June Journal

I can’t keep up with weekly releases due to my IRL schedule and it doesn’t help every time I watched dungeon Meshi I just got incredibly hungry because I was the type to skip breakfast and the show was like “look at all this incredible food they’re eating!” Don’t skip eating while watching dungeon Meshi. I need to watch only a few episodes like a slow burn. Working on season 1 a few episodes at a time. The story is about a DND party and a guy who really wants to eat monsters for energy so he can traverse the dungeon so they can save his sister who was eaten by a dragon. He’s joined by a thief halfling, an elf girl who reasonably does not want to eat random ass monsters, and Senshi. They kind of initally hated laios's ass and he has serious foot in mouth syndrome where everyone goes "this guy has a weird thing about monsters and we don't know what it is". Senshi is like the mentor to Laios’s raw unbridled fixation onto the monsters but he's also as bad behavoir wise because why did he let himself be a hostage to make bread. Unfortunately I have no cooking skills whatsoever and have become a lethal chef in part due to the college experience making me make unhinged meals. Zero domestic skills whatsoever.

Also watched and completed the battle tendency arc of Jojo. You don't truly think about how weird the show is because everyone speaks and behaves in a weird way and It's kind of like madlibs because I never know what is going to happen next. I witnessed a crazy horse race and the next episode had the robot cyborg ww2 german supersoldier show up and then the 50 year old that looked like a 30 year old was actually Jojo's mom because the scissor vampire who rescued the dog from a car crash used her as a hostage. I enjoyed watching it but i think i liked part 1 more because of dio being a weirdo. I just saw a guy turn a murder squirrel into a flower into a butterfly and he was the ultimate lifeform. Like shadow.

Then came season 1 of Korra which I thought was okay, nothing too crazy to write about aside from asami, I like her. The love triangle thing is goofy though. Then I got onto season 2 and like did the budget increase or did they get new animators because every spirit fight has felt incredibly stylistically different. Korra’s narrator guy being a radio type is pretty interesting…. But the tournament stuff is kinda dumb. Why is the avatar a pro sports bender or something. She should be adventuring in the city. Obviously different from my tweets because I was like “she should be like the equivalent of hearing that Goku has joined your random ass tournament”

People online will attempt to tell you that naruto was about subtle ninjas and hard work and talent and what not and they are wrong. Naruto is about a guy who likes ramen. It’s reductive, but people are too busy looking at a single character (Rock Lee) and deciding that he’s the one that should be the main lead and trying really hard to bend the show around that.

It’s the same thing with MHA being like “can a quirk less person be a hero?” And the answer is no, but the premise is interesting enough to cause people to ask that instead. (I used to be insufferable about this show and be like “why are they publicizing teenagers with super powers fighting each other and making money off it” as if that’s not a basic shonen trope.) I could harp on about how I thought the show could’ve been more interesting if they went with the power vaccum thing caused by all for one and made up more villains like overhaul instead of going with the league of villains super revival but I honestly checked out once Midorya got like 7 quirks or something. They’re still all 1st years in the war arc BTW, it’s like the RWBY thing all over again. Obviously bakugo is the favorite but he reminded me too much of IRL people and Endavour sure is there, I guess. I should be more mad about him being a bad parent according to the fandom but he seems to be trying to mend the relationship he broke with his kids which is more I can say for my parents.

I hate the online landscape because everyone has 30 billion levels of brainrot including me and it’s only going to get horrifically worse the longer this AI shot goes on because source checking and bait identification are apparently skills that are not checked. Everyone’s gonna have so many back and shoulder problems in the future because of how the phone is dominating everything. I hate how much people are completely absorbed and reliant into the shorts and the ability to pay attention for more than a few minutes has been completely lost to me. Everyone alienates me solely because I'm the only person who outright refuses to be on tiktok, what's app, or facebook because I witnessed what it did to you! They lack in whimsy and childlike questioning of the world around them. The third public space no longer exists and being online always runs the chance of someone deciding to stomp on you. I was in a discord once and realized it was basically crab bucket mentality where we all said it was okay that we didn’t get anything done but we just complained about not working. Honestly I wasted my college years gaming. I should’ve gone to clubs. Being off tumblr and moving onto PF is like my equivalent of frolicking in a flower field and picking apples and looking at the sunset while also simultaneously moving onto twitter and expecting at any given moment some kind of rock is going to be lobbed in my direction. What I’m saying is I really wish Nitter instances weren’t dead.

The type of person I unfortunately have to be around is the type that makes me not want to ever have kids in fear that I might turn out like them where their purpose for having kids wasn’t to love them but to relentlessly harass them and badger them and treat them like toys and servants and constant emotional sponges and then get mad whenever anyone questions their authority and pretends they’re a saint who can do no wrong and just was born with rotten spoiled selfish children who are immature and need constant reprimanding because that was their mission from God. I think that just because you have a higher position of seniority doesn’t mean shit if you don’t respect anything especially when you say you’ll never respect any boundaries set up and constantly decide to override whatever anyone else is doing for what you want at that very moment. You’re going to be one of those people who makes workers lives hell to wherever you show up. They’re an entitled traditionalist with a stick up their ass where it's their way or no way, I’m the idiot who always has to be corrected, and the third person is the third person who I don't want to mention because it's not their fault they're stuck in this situation. There’s a cycle of hostility where I’m always stuck mediating for everyone but the moment I have emotional issues I’m hysterical. Honestly, if I really started saying what I thought of everyone then even the therapist I have would probably tell me to chill. I don’t like being in this living area, I don’t have a way to leave, and I don’t have anyone to talk to who’ll actually take my full position. I hate these stupid ass psychological questions where I always get the answer wrong and get blamed because of the inability to ever explain or answer a question properly It cannot be that hard to just SAY the details instead of being this vague man. Can't stand it.

June 26th I don't think anyone's really going to look through every single journal entry/log I have between my dead tumblr and living Pillowfort so I'mma condense a bit, okay? I'm still working up on cleaning up other pieces of the site like all the pokemon stuff. By internet I am stretching out that one GB for its life no matter what and it's driving me crazy knowing that pokemon reigon headcanon map is taking up a good percentage

I'll put it down to just like... goals that are still relevant.

If I really posted everything... the journal entries would be nothing but me in this constant mess of a relationship with a person who I can never get social cues with because they’re convinced they can do no wrong and every single time I say something that doesn’t align with their worldview I get chewed out, which isn’t fun, so I’m just gonna talk about the stuff I liked about the day. But honestly, I can't stand that person... Even complying doesn’t work 100% because even if I was a perfect obedient robot they’d still find some minor detail to freak out over. Sorry not everyone likes waking up at the asscrack of day, I’m not a morning person and I don’t need to wake up at 8:30 just so I can get yelled at earlier in the day. Literally nothing was more of a perception check than me complaining about my motivation issues seeing people be like “yeah that sounds like executive dysfunction” instead of just calling me lazy

I saw a YouTube video about the amount of trees in Mario kart Wii and saw a music video from the artist TOOBOE. It was quite an interesting experience because it was a dual screen MV about a girl who imagined what her life would’ve been if she wasn’t sold off to the circus. So obviously not something that can be recommended…

Sonic superstars is truly one of the sonic soundtracks because there are such beautiful tracks there and then you get jumpscared by sonic 4 synths Press factory slander is too easy, I need nack’s theme to be destroyed.

Tomodachi life is so funny because independently of my input Fire and Gold have become best friends and a friendship I’d never expect was that between Ketsuban Red and Pixiv Red. I guess the two guys who were replaced would be buddies. Miku and Leaf are also besties. A year after downloading it, I uninstalled Winamp

Winamp was fun when I actually had songs to play but I went right back to using youtube and VLC player now if i could customize VLC that'd rule

How does one categorize a journal anyways if they're trying to condense it? I made this to attempt to have everything in kind of like a normalized space but I feel like I spread out too far... lol. What did I even do in June that wasn't just brainless job hunting... lol.... uh. THE WEBSITE I'm ON? Oh yeah true...

truly weirdo energy is taking every single collage you've made in order to make THE SUPER collage Pillowfort has themed days which would be nice if I ever had anything in my life to break up monotony outside of other people

I want these entries to not just be endless scrolling and complaints so I have them split by these arbritary categories

Why do I only have 2023 onwards I wasn't much of a journal keeper, I mean I have older ones but it's not really anything like the focus I put out in 2023.

Naruto filler is like job hunting because you think you’re gonna look find jobs (Sasuke) but instead you get distracted by trying to find a beetle (fix your resume) I like how some people probably did go "well, this character got some development in this arc" and it's filler. Bud they got nothing. Well filler is different in bleach because the major antagonist is Aizen and he left to another dimension so they could have the bounts but they need to connect .

Maybe I'll extend this to July 4th but by internet I am stretching out that one GB for its life no matter what and it's driving me crazy knowing that pokemon reigon headcanon map is taking up a good percentage I learned that you can edit with Notepad++ so now I'm going to be even more annoying by writing without logging in which was limiting me to randomly jumping in the middle in the night to go in because a 9 to 10 job hunt/ online class studies is killing me lol. I keep the bar of expectations in my life very low so that I can be pleasantly surprised when something good happens.

Listened to: SATELLITE LOVERS - SONS OF 1973 (Full Album, 1996) Mittens House and Disco Mix

New Friday Update: FGO Somehow Returns

If you got past part 1 you’d legitimately get an incredible story vs “but I like seeing the spinny gacha though” and that’s to my detriment because I get too busy looking at spinny gacha instead of using my actual units

You know what? I’ll be F2P all the way through Limited summons. I want to see how far I can go without impulsively summoning.

Friend banners on the menu though. My freebie 4 star is Valkyrie and she's kinda neat looking but I'm not sure if I should use my special ascension on her just because she's my only big number so far

F2P BTW rules: No SQ Summons (Tickets are fine) Friend Point Summons primarily Reliance on events the 4 Star freebie is A Okay to Use Clear Out the extra quests on the map I really don't need any fancy guys because there's plenty of people I can friend request who do have special fancy guys (totally not mad about my gacha luck)

So saber's (the saber) stance changes depending on card drawing or not so she really got that animation money put onto her. I'll probably finish singularity F and start chipping away at quests since I happened to join during the anniversary. Okay as I'm editing I might need to make like yearly journals instead of just a single one because editing this the longer I go on is going to probably suck major grass.

2024 Media (Jan-June)

Anyways, Pokemon Ironmon has been pretty weird, what I sincerely need to do is just play the game like a speedrunner and go fast, that’s the way I got the first run of Leafgreen done and I haven’t really had that momentum for any other game I’ve played because doing ironmon means if I make a single mistake I don’t actually get to fully explore the game… so ironically, ironmon might be dead again? Depends on how it goes with the Gen 1 games, that’s my new focus. The XY chronicles is a year long project so it’s okay if I don’t do it all now.

YouTube has been recommending some pretty good artists to me like Yoshitaka Mihara but that’s mostly because I’ve gotten back into listening to Xref Xpec remixes. Last time in December I watched olive the other reindeer by myself because no one else had any interest in it. Along with that, this January I finished Ninjago. Well, the first part, not dragons rising. It certainly had varying quality by the end of it, my favorite one was probably everything before Crystallized, that one kinda fell flat. I’ve continued Death Note and I’ve hit the Yotsuba arc. It’d be kinda funny if the note kept getting passed around like a hot potato but I know that’s not how it works so I’m just waiting for the pieces of the dominos that have been set up by this business to completely fall apart. I’ve also continued Baki’s second season but I’m starting to guess that the plot as a whole is about the futility of trying to be the strongest, because otherwise it’s like, why exactly are they fighting this caveman. For clout? It makes no sense, but it’s engaging regardless. Played some of Yoshi’s Island, one of my favorite SNES Platformers that I would never in my life try to 100%. I already did dreamland 3 100% on the 20th anniversary wii release and 64, not doing those two again because some of those puzzles were OBTUSE. I’ve been playing that one bit by bit on my switch online when I recall I have a switch online. Being a PC gamer pretty much made me have buyer’s remorse for that thing, even my 3DS has been used more often this year (mostly to play pokemon X and miitopia.) speaking of pokemon…

Pokemon TV is shutting down so i was going to watch a bunch of the short stuff they put there only to lose interest from watching generations and all of the player characters from what I’ve seen so far were just the boy characters. I watched Origins as well, so now I know that Charizard propoganda has been there since the beginning. Mega evolution being there is quite funny in hindsight since it got cut. I’ll probably continue to watch everything from TV before March since the only worthwhile things are the shorts even though I know they’re all probably on YouTube or something. I also redownloaded pokemon cafe and I’ve gotten into masters ex, which I know is a terrible decision because I’m wired to hate Gacha. It’s also made me realize that I barely care about any human character in pokemon outside of a select few because they’ll be like “look, its the gym leader from this generation or this player character in a cool costume!” And I’ll be like “who gives a shit. Can I summon Red or another Blue (guy) yet?” Never in my life did I think that people had like, actual genuine interest in the human beings because there’s a world of magical creatures that can shoot laser beams. finished watching Pokemon coincierge as well. It was so cute! A glimpse into a slice of life Pokemon vacation. I do wish it was more than 4 episodes, once I got into it and the ending theme played out I was hooked.

I’m not much of a moviegoer and I barely go to see movies in theatre. That being said, after watching the original mean girls, I went to see the musical one in an actual IRL movie theatre. Regina was kind of the only worthwhile part of the musical that I’d likely listen to in a Spotify playlist, the other songs were forgettable at best and the lead actress couldn’t sing. I also watched how to train your dragon. It was good, I’ll probably add the extended cartoon to my watchlist. Game wise I’ve mostly just been playing spark the electric jester. I kind of played through a ton of demos before getting the game for the steam winter sales so I breezed through the first chunk of levels. I’m the only person who would note the dialogue changes because of how much of the old demos I played. Now I’m in the mid game and getting completely beat up because I’ve got no clue what I’m doing or where the good abilities are at.

Spark the electric jester (Main game cleared): It’s very easy to feel completely lost during the later half of spark as the stages get more loop like and I lose my one ability I use to cheese the game. You’re never taught about the dash parry until Fark campaign. In the end, I feel like I had a better time with the one bugged run where I just had edgy for no reason but that’s on me Spark Mods (To Continue): Choco and float both have different movesets from spark which is a nice touch to make them all feel like different characters in the mods
Undertale (Started): Everyone and their grandmother have already psychoanalyzed the shit out of undertale so I’m just here to get better at playing deltarune. I have nothing new to add to it since I’ve seen a bunch of streamers play it and whatnot. You’re supposed to understand the quirked up monsters but then I realize my RPG addled brain is like “why waste time with bullets when I can just get a big number to attack” and I realize a pokemon trainer would probably grind the underground to dust without a second thought and that’s not what I’m going for because doing no mercy is tedious and there’s a lot of ways to accidentally end the route
Slay the Princess (To Continue): My friend recommended this so I’ve been very happy to say that I have no clue what’s going on but I like defying the narrator to have increasingly weirder routes. And there’s probably a lot of those, so I’ll keep playing this but actually listen to the voice cues because my brain goes very quickly to click prompts so I might miss something.
Genshin Lantern Rite: Cut for space. One day I’ll probably just go “nah” and delete the game since I’m always on the fence with this one. And it takes up so much space… (lol.)
Fire emblem Awakening (Started): So I did not realize that they kinda just throw you into everything incredibly quick with the premonition.so far I play footsies in fire emblem and let Fredrick shoot his shot. I got to the smash cutscene in game and then immediately realized that I’m not good at fire emblem and I have no idea how to use low level units. Is there a grinding thing I can do or am I just screwed.

Death Note (2nd half, Yotsuba Arc): They’re too busy doing this detective nonsense when they literally could’ve caught them immediately with Misa’s evidence. Everyone acting in their own interest during the yotsuba arc was pretty interesting because Misa had some independence despite the fact that she’s clearly in the wrong show. Only thing is I think the new intro’s a downgrade. It’s kinda crazy how Light and L did all that stuff and then Light immediately went back to killing. All according to Keikaku. If L spotted the watch then it would’ve been over entirely. I’m on the final stretch with L’s successors now.

Sonic Prime (3rd Season, complete): Did I talk about finishing sonic prime or did it skip by because it was kinda nothing but fight scenes and I didn’t care much. Nine is a compelling character but I do not understand how the dimensional stuff works and I don't think the show wants me to either.

Baki Hanma (2nd Season, complete): to think baki would end with yujiro cooking his son invisible food after the insanity of the caveman thing. yujiro hanma would just flex his muscles really hard to break glass and that would work he’s like the embodiment of total masculine toxicicity except this entire show has never had a moment of awareness except with the caveman and the big scientist guy being like “this entire thing is stupid”. these are the most grotesque men i’ve ever seen this entire premise is stupid and yet it is so compelling because the entire show is solely about a bunch of overpowered weirdoes screwing around. the plot twist that this has always been the cycle of violence with yujiro’s dad and baki’s grandfather makes it kinda crazy huh. this show is baffling because everything in or out of context still make no damn sense. sea king retsu became a boxing champion because the caveman cannibal ate his leg like what…?

Pluto: I finally started watching Pluto after having it on my list for so long. It’s an interesting take on the greatest robot arc from the OG, seeing everyone drawn in more realistic art styles was a bit jarring. This shows all sorts of crazy with the murder mystery and the evil robot and the war and the racism but that was all in the original too. Reinterpretation and pulling from the source material really works.
Wakfu (To Continue):W akfu was on here at one point and I got to the part where it turns out the main character is a dragon and the dragon mentor fought a time lord and it was an entire anime battle animated in flash and it made me go “wow.”
Rabbids (Why am I watching this): Rabbids Invasion is apparently something I’m putting time into watching even though its brainless. I’m kind of endeared to only some Rabbids who manage to experience remorse instead of being shitheads.
Miscellaneous: Infinite Craft just reminds me of little alchemy. RPGmaker XP was free so I got it, too bad I have no knowledge on how to code anything and it all evaporated after school.
TPP 10th anniversary: How in the world has it been 10 years. They did gens past crystal? There was way more extensive lore to it? What the heck. I’m old.I’m in there too. We’re just ants on a keyboard attempting to beat Pokémon

Pokémon Section: Pokemon gets a seperate update but I’ll have three posts for it depending on how the rest of the month goes. My current progress on the XY chronicles has grinded to a total halt as I’ve found myself easily distracted by wanting to reread all of special, playing crystal clear instead of X, and being too invested in finishing death note instead of continuing to watch the anime since I finished up the Pokémon TV project already. You need to collect that shit on different services like it’s the goddamn chaos emeralds to have a chance of watching all the seasons now. So it was probably better in the past before all the streaming services started taking pieces of the pokemon pie which makes it a bit annoying that there’s no official subs after all these years either, right. If all of the pokemon series is a distrubution nightmare it’s kinda crazy that 20 years in they refuse to acknowledge other language options. Eventually I caved and grabbed the docs for crystal clear since that seems? to be my focus right now.

Madame Web: Watching madame web the same way I did with morbius and I'm convinced Sony is attempting to make some kind of shitpost off brand Spider-Man cinematic universe. The main villain is like “I need to kill these teenage girls before they become a problem” and is stopped by a single adult who has no superpowers minus the power to run him over. I think this is the opposite of marvel having people be hyped over it for years, it has like, anti hype. The Morb Effect. I was texting my friend live commentary and at one point said “This feels like a CW pilot”

Death Note Completed: I finished it after a few months in between after the Yotsuba arc and compiled my notes in a coherent summary. Good boy light with the evil eyes is so dissonant. Death note is a pretty crazy show. Is the main character in conflict over needing to kill his sister? Is it because things have been so out of control? And the answer is, Light has no clue what to do in this situation where his family is in a vulnerable position but so is his entire plan and that’s an interesting angle, right? I wonder what his dad would do about it all.Then they uh. Launched the death note through a missile and I thought “what is this show doing.” Obviously having the death note in the hands of that one guy doesn’t seem like the best idea, but I guess there’s not much that can be done now. Why exactly was all this notebook swapping with this new shinigami thing again…It’s a little weird Dude light’s dad is dying and his first reaction is “you should’ve killed him” and was it because he lost the gamble with the shinigami eyes. Death note is good because it’s at a time where Light watches his dad die I’m like “was it genuine? Did he mean it?” And its that complexity that makes it good. Light’s sure in metaphorical hell at the moment. Kira’s making a dystopian internet hell. Did they all just forget Misa was Kira at one point in the show. The TV special guy has become consumed by the drive to get huge ratings. Matsuda is flaky and some people would be flaky in this situation. Light’s lost the plot. His sister is broken, his father dead, but he’s too invested. And now I think I get why the second theme song is so messy, because light’s a whole mess. The stair symbolism was him walking to be at the top of the world but he can’t do that. He’s going to hell. He’s gonna die. I just wish Misa wouldn’t die but chances are she probably will since she’s only loyal to Light. Note. I don’t know what happens minus the fact that Light and L were dead, I came to the show knowing that. Conslusion Notes: I was incredibly distracted by the English VA for light because I had watched a show where the VA was the same voice so I just associated Light with that guy instead (It was Lan from the NT Warrior dub). Misa deserves to be in a better show because Light hates women. Mikami kind of feels like the writer had no clue where to go with the story so he just made up a new guy to handle the plot. The notebook swapping thing is contrived. Light’s not a good person but he likely would’ve just been a regular guy if not for the notebook allowing him to work with his worst most judgmental vices but people online saying it’s the fault of the notebook is stupid, he’d basically do the same thing if he had a gun and then he’d try to hide the gun. I think I liked the Yotsuba arc more but I liked Near for finally being like “okay fine let’s just get this over with”. Light’s not a tragic figure at all, he just decided to be judge jury and executioner where the judicial system was supposed to work, like did he actually make sure the people he was killing weren’t just accused or framed for crimes. I’m thinking too much about this. Matsuda being the one to shoot Light is a pretty good moment for him since he was the one who had like the most “normal” perspective out of the task force. His ass is not going to heaven.

Pluto (Completed): covered this last time, now I finished it. it was good. I kinda liked the parts with the detective more than with Atom but that’s because I’m a fan of detective stories. I think it’s a pretty poignant show about how paranoia leads to tragedy and war.
Steven Universe (Continuing): Steven universe is a show about horrible memories. Im not a fan of the beach town people episodes either. Remember that episode of gravity falls where dipper has a paper copy of himself that horribly died.It’s kinda crazy how this show had years of lying to Steven and Greg about Rose and her character development went in reverse. How many do you think they had trapped in there before Lapis got out.
Tour de undertale: The ruins is so weird compared to the rest of the game. Eating vegetoid doesn’t count as a kill Monster overworld encounters. I ate the vegetables and worried I ruined the run but turns out it’s fine to eat those fellas. His name is sans undertale’s monster. Sometimes you have to use the check button. Undertale features insecure teenagers. Sometimes you have to beat them up as well to steal their hats. But not too much. Ignore them too. The insistence on calling it a dusty tutu and the narrator saying it’s real armor are… concerning.I’m not posting about alphys because I stoped reading her texts as she went on and she reminds me of me which means that girl needs serious help.
Dungeon Meshi (NEW): I've been watching dungeon meshi in the dub. idk when i stopped reading meshi but i remember that senshi is a great man and the food makes me hungry. dungeon meshi is a very fun dnd story because they're hungry and cooking monsters. i like the narrator too this is a good story, simple, full of whimsy bump of chicken is there (makes it automatically good) and its also a finished story too and maybe we'll get to see the entire thing play out i'll keep up with the releases as they come out or maybe watch 2 episodes per day instead of in one sitting. But I'm not calling it delicious in dungeon .
Continuing: Possibly naruto. I haven't started the runaway sasuke arc yet. Eventually I'll end up hitting filler hell, so that'll be something I do while grinding out pokemon. The most fun i had with Naruto was watching it with my parent who never watched Naruto but did buy me a Naruto sweater out of association like a parent trying to connect to their kid’s hobbies I started watching Naruto and they popped in when itachi first showed up. Really, majority of February was just progress in Pokemon X. I think I’m at the 4th gym now, then the announcement for Legends ZA came out. If I keep progressing well I can get to Y soon and start my Y nuzlocke.

I just finished watching the Netflix live action avatar on my TV that makes it look way too high quality. I’m too used to the big block TV used for years but it was replaced with idk… an oled tv? You’ll have to forgive me, I have no clue what these terms mean. I've been all over the place since the news about Toriyama. I don't think I've been hit this hard by a famous person's death since Takahashi. There's so much that's owed to Toriyama in so many different genres. I wouldn't be an artist or writer if not for being influenced by DBZ like so many others. Dr. Slump too, like, he was everywhere. Half my favorite franchises wouldn't exist if not for Dragon Quest. God, even Chrono Trigger... insane. So I ended up sticking with Big Green and then hopped to watching some of the movies in the Funimation/Ocean dub. I'm not sure if this helped or not. There was other stuff that was earlier too but I feel like this is too much text for something that's just about me watching shows, huh.

HTTYD

No clue if I mentioned this one or not in the last rounds but it pretty much cemented that I should watch things by myself instead of other people if they’re going to refuse to watch the movie and instead get mad at made up versions of the main characters. Ruined my enjoyment. So naturally, I'll just watch things alone like I usually did. They tended to get pissy when that happened but like, they're totally incorrigible.

Rabbids Show (Continued)

I needed a completely brainless show to not think and the Rabbids worked on my brain in a way I can only describe as whatever kids go through when they watch cocomelon marathons. Sorry. That’s my only point of reference. I look up from using it as background noise and they’re fighting aliens, turned into zombies, or causing acts of domestic crime. Somehow I like these human characters when normally they’d be the bane of a mascot driven show. I think it’s because they don’t show up that often.

Avatar the Last Airbender Live Action (Completed)

My friend told me to not watch this but I decided to anyways because sometimes I need to listen to my impulses or I start being more weird in different ways like cooking things with hot dog water. Live action shows never seem to capture the correct amount of whimsy, the lighting is whack, but hey, one piece wasn’t that bad so maybe this one could be like. Good? Those were my initial thoughts going into this. Eventually though I realized I had a lot more enjoyment by pretending that this was like, an HD remaster of one of my dad's old movies instead of trying to compare it with the main cartoon. They’re writing this like they know they’re not getting a second season even though this has only covered season 1.

Spring means I get pinged with many promotional emails and normally zero way to buy them, but for the last few years I've gotten way smarter with birthday/Christmas presents for the purpose of using them all in one go on video games. I don't think I did ever reposted the steam winter sales roundup of stuff I bought, huh. I think I bought way more with the spring sales just on principle. I basically only ask for gift cards for presents these days so I don't have to actually figure out what will be approved of by my family or not as a reasonable and safe purchase. The Winter Sale was uh, the two rayman games, undertale, slay the princess, spark 1, sonic mania and SA2. Sometime in between I got the murder of sonic and RPG Maker XP when it was being given away for free. Also forces and generations but they're not loaded in yet because I don't have room. Uh. I kinda went all out during the spring sales in terms of games. I got the orange box that has half life and portal 1, GMOD, cookie clicker (which I've already succumbed to number brainrot), Celeste (because I sure as hell am not using the epic games store anytime soon), hat in time, henry stickmin, stardew valley, sonic adventure DX and Terraria. Then to top it off, I was gonna buy disco elysium, but then I remembered the controversy, so I ended up buying minecraft instead since I already got terraria. I don't understand why I need a microsoft account if I'm just playing Java, but alright. It kept my demo world, which is pretty neat. I have no clue what I'm doing here. Maybe I'll just wander around. I really shouldn't keep adding more games to play though to my already growing list, so I need to finish undertale and the spark mod experience before picking up anything new(er.)

I can’t think of anything I did notable in April outside of watching season 1 of JJK and moving my writing notes from obsidian to standard notes. I uh… played animal crossing new leaf a bit and enjoyed it more than Horizons, but I think I just didn’t like horizons to begin with. I’m never good with games that give me no end goal and too much freedom because then I end up making a mess. There was pokemon but like, I’m always doing that. I also watched some Bakugan…..? I think I mentioned watching all of sandland as it came out? Maybe? I liked watching it. Damn, I’ve really got nothing to talk about this month. All of April (March too) got upturned by IRL stuff that wasn’t accounted for like how it would pretty much upturn everything else in my life but too late to complain about that now I guess... In May, my final project is due, and then I graduate. I’m not happy about it. It feels like I wasted my time at college switching degrees and everyone expects me to be into a job and have a plan for the future when all I get is reject letters. I wish I had done more but things went out of my control during the first few semesters because of the pandemic and then I spent my final semester at home. What a bummer. JKK season 1 I’m watching this for the first time when all I had were the memes and I still have no clue what’s going on, but the fight scenes are cool looking. Knowing what happens in season 2 makes season 1 feel like a story where you, the viewer, know of the impending doom that the characters do not and that they were losers from the very start. Honestly, it’s a world where the main guy is in the wrong genre where if it were any other show a miracle would happen to make things get better and idk, but uh, no, this is a world of evil/ Zero progress on any other show, I kind of just watched JJK and would’ve continued just that but my service only had season 1 up.

On the Pokémon side, I did find a watching order for XY, that’s good. I still have Pokémon TV downloaded and for some bizarre reason it still worked after the shutdown. Because of my tablet refusing to acknowledge this blatant necromancy, I rewatched the Pokémon origins OVA. Going at it from a perspective of +10 years later and not as a part of a retrospective on Pokémon TV makes me wish that they had done more with it and continued later games because now it’s just another thing in the kanto pile. I do like how endearing the red of this one is, he’s just a really excitable clumsy guy with a sense of justice and what not. The fourth episode is still the most hype one battle wise. I still stand by that Green of this world didn’t deserve to be flattened and basically hospitalized while watching his dream crumble in front of his eyes. It’s a good nostalgia trip of basically everyone’s first Pokémon playthrough where they overleveled their starter (like hell I’m calling it first partner) and used it to solo the game.

TTG to the movies. I’m not sure why this show still exists tbh. The Flintstones. I didn’t pay attention to this at all. I’m not a movie person and mostly use it as background noise. My attention span has been shot for years. On average maybe I’ll watch like, one movie in theatres for the entire year.

Gaming (The 3DS Special) I’m more excited over a new bridge in new leaf than new horizons‘s improvements. I guess having all that freedom didn’t really matter to me. I’m postponing the nuzlocke until I either A. Beat the X postgame B. Beat Yokai Watch 2 C. Finish Fire Emblem Awakening, which I dropped like a rock. I want to give it a few months because it is my first official nuzlocke… heh. I still have all my other games too… but that’s a future problem.

May Crazy how May started off with me immediately knocking out a bunch of stuff and then it kept rolling until a screeching halt. I doubt I’m going to magically get anything done in between today and June 1st so I’m posting it now.

Completed season 1 of bakugan done

Basically as a standalone it’s okay, it’s not really anything special outside of the select episodes where the characters are tested and the whole Alice subplot It’s quintiessential Saturday morning cartoon you put on while you do something else because they kinda just do whatever during battles Wakfu Season 1

Wakfu is a show made in flash that’s uses MMO terms because it used to be one and just expects you to know things and I was just thrown into it It’s made on flash and is really well made like I wasn’t expecting some of the fight scenes and it gets better as it goes season 1 finale locked in FR English dub is so so but I like it; reminds me of the NG sounding voices anyways Tristepinne was a real one It’s very clearly anime inspired and wears it’s influence on its sleeve The main villain commits centuries of atrocities to go back in time only for it to fail and only give him the episodes run time which is insane

Fanmade (pokemon Starter Squad) Starter Squad is a relic of the past but I had no clue what I was expecting during any part so the later half took me out Made clearly during brawl time with the models, episodes get longer and length and more complex in plot

Tokyo Mew Mew (Ole, 2020 Return) I was supposed to read regular Tokyo Mew Mew a La mode but instead binged through Ole, which is a story about boys instead. Yes, the main character is a cat boy. The main girl is the knowledgeable one about the endangered animals. The boys don’t really have uniforms like the girls did with their costumes. They’re all weirdos. This is one of those ones where you have to turn off your brain to get through it. The main girl being active word wise but passive power wise kind of causes an imbalance where it’s like… why are all these guys after her exactly again…? The first few volumes hit some of the generic shoujo romance beats including the stuff that makes me go “why include that”. Then it gets real weird later on. I kind of wish it didn’t go in that direction, it felt uncomfortable. At least one character said it was sexual harassment at that point and I was like “yeah that’s what I’ve been saying, these villains suck!” Quite frankly it was one of the readings I’ve done this year. Tokyo Mew Mew 2020 Return This one was more of like a compilation of short stories that kind of just incorporated berry into the team as if she’d always been there rather than my memories of a La Mode so it was… nice, I suppose.

Madness Combat in Real time I literally was enraptured by this series developing in real time with better fight scenes every time, also the story going with the villain being like “I forgot about the dead clown” leading to the characters going to hell was certainly a choice.

On going

Bakugan Season 2 I started season 2 but didn’t really care much at the start outside of the one guy who is in this one pokemon fangame i meant to get to but didn’t yet Season 2 really does not want to give the main cast their dues, did the writers fire the only woman they had or something because like why is Alice not here smoking the aliens she can teleport Ninjago dragons rising has that Netflix money I’m assuming it assumes that you haven’t watched the rest of the show but I already watched through a bunch of the earlier seasons (and posted it too.) When are they gonna start streaming monkie kid

Pokemon Related Content

I played through Yellow Legacy which was fun. I did it on my tablet instead of my usual computer. I also played through cubic crystal since Delta came out. I forgot how much Zubat SUCK in early game when you’re on mt.moon and all the SuperSonics hit and you hit yourself everytime Goddamn bat. I have no idea how to start the looker quest in X and I think it’s hit low priority at the moment.
Haikyuu Season 1 Local shonen/mahou shoujo watcher watches sports anime and is pleasantly surprised to see that somehow all of the power level stuff translates over to “how hard can this guy hit a volleyball” incredibly easily I like it because it is a nice change of pace and it is funnily mundane. I have no idea why all these people online keep calling the grey haired guy a war criminal and I’m afraid to find out.

Tomodachi Life: I dumped a bunch of my Pokémon fic characters into Tomodachi life where I also had a bunch of joke characters because the old save wiped. There's like 6 Reds. Miku is there. I forgot how funny this can be if it’s full of mii OCs Other

To fill out the FFXIV MMO shaped hole in my life I’ve been playing mobile MMOs. I think the genshin gachafication of video games needs to be thoroughly studied because why is this game locking behind weapons. The only thing it should be used for is cosmetics like Maplestory used to do years ago.

At this point I completely cut out the IRL postings. Goes from Janurary to May.

Emotions A leap year is pretty interesting, right? What exactly did happen in between the last log and this one? Well, I had a wisdom tooth surgery. It was miserable. I could’ve timed that better but they said it would be better for me to do it at a time when I still could instead of waiting later. It got so bad that I remembered the twitter password in a week of haze where I cried, got yelled at for taking medicine, and kicked someone in the face apparently??? I am trying out new art apps like ibis paint. I feel like it’s a lot better than sketches but my art style is still so so. I used to have fun drawing and now it feels awful for no reason. I still have that goal of learning a new thing per week and this week after the whole chart was made my designated thing was learning how to sprite rip pokemon rom hacks which I did so by using Hex maniac advance. But that kinda hit a wall when I was trying to figure out where people placed their mugshots (examples being blazing emerald and adventures red) and also sometimes overworld sprites don’t display properly Normally I don’t mention the stuff I listen to but the genre seems to be a lot of rap on my Spotify now due to the whole artist beefing thing that covered my timeline This is probably better than the BTS phase I had for a while or the fact my last Spotify wrapped was just bossa nova and sleep podcasts I am a very strange person when it comes to algorithm content probably. That missing book series I read as a child was riverside kids by Johanna Hurwitz that I was thinking about from my childhood that I finally found online and with the help of librarians. Babymouse has sequels?

Posts from 2021 were me in my toxic college era complaining about nintendo and pokemon DLC practices and smash roster predictions.
Highlight Quotes: a lightbulb just went off in my head about the dumbest thing possible: Pokémon is the Sonic of nintendo. moving on to my next subject: "why the animal crossing community is more wildly violent then you'd ever expect (the sanrio effect)"
I'm not posting any of that shit.

2023 Wants/Goals List

I’m still working on both creative stuff, but I have zero drive to have a consistent schedule because most of the time I get interrupted to do things I don’t want to do. I never get enough free time to justify not just sitting on my phone all day and my self defeating attitude defaults to “just play games on your phone because no one IRL takes you seriously.” Which continues the loop. weekly goals 400 words a day, and maybe at least 2 drawings in a different style Read a chapter of something through Serial Reader Actually go to more events rather than sleeping through them Go to bed at a normal time, less coffee and less naps Finish at least one thing per month?

Job hunting so I don’t get a bunch of fuss about not being helpful Possible art scans? (As long as I don’t have my phone’s shadow in them all…) Possibly have a larger to do list post so I can have them all somewhere to cross out instead of having them all separately. (Try the pinned.)

Try waking up with my alarm on time (which I moved to the other side of the room to try to wake myself up, only to get out of bed still and turn it off and go back to sleep.) try the pomodoro study method again? Even if it has failed me every other time I have no other choices… I made a block schedule to try and manage better but I still end up sleeping at absurd times… at the very least, I studied at the library and got two assignments done. I do better outside of my room but I keep staying there… i completely screwed up with article readings because I had quizzes for stuff I barely skimmed over. Fun. My suitemate’s room is so much cleaner compared to mine… I’m jealous. Mine always looks like a tornado hit it every day. I think room inspection is still a thing. Trying to draw a horse like the ones I keep posting here and I keep showing people IRL and they keep being rendered speechless by how bad it is which only makes me nervous laugh The solution would be “stop drawing horses” but I refuse. I will get better. I don’t even need to know but now its a matter of pride and making sure these horses don’t look like shit.

The purpose of the log: Figure out what’s working in my life and how I can fix it. Or it’s mostly figuring out what works and what doesn’t work. Like, does the pomodoro method work or not? Is it like, I have to force myself on a timer but then end up overworking? Does marathon work for me or not? And it constantly fluctuates between working and not working. Stupid. Point 2: deleting certain things creates concentration gaps from where I’d do said thing, but now it’s been wall staring more than ever before. Oops. Point 3: weaning myself off tumblr so I can be productive for what should be my final finals only for things to still be somehow not working. I’d take failing a thousand finals over writing 3 essays, please and thank you. I guess bi weekly check ins are a thing and queue fill ins for a certain time period. Point 4: As much as I don’t want to work ever, that sure doesn’t get work done, in fact, it somehow creates the paradox of me not enjoying not working and eventually shutting down activities of not working and then growing dread of the deadline. Advanced procrastination. Point 5: I think writing down a to do list and outline of what I wanted to do helped, but when my phone died the list was gone! Pointless.

I’m really out here spending hours wading through nothing but Pokémon rom hacks and screenshotting all the moments I find entertaining or valuable to remember but I have yet to play anything else in my library. It’s all just fire red and emerald and Ruby edits It’s been to the point I’ve played so much pokemon that I’m dedicating an entire post to Just Pokemon. (The origins of Pokelog!) I had folded that onto the collage as well, but I could go more in depth… I want to try watching more IRL shows with real actor and what not. Possibly shorter shows as well with less length, dunno. I had to do summer reading books for school and I not sure if that’s a North American/ states exclusive but I’m thinking maybe if I Try reading a chapter of a book that’s not a fic per day and taking notes that I can trick myself into reading regularly again I’ve had serial reader set up for so long and it notifies me but i simply don’t do it. Half assing a task is better than doing nothing at all especially when my existential dread debuffer comes in. Better to fail something than to not do it at all. I finally actually posted something on the dust gathering writing blog where I will continue to post and try not to think about what I’ve posted because if I think too hard about things I’ve posted I will implode due to secondhand younger self cringe posting.

To be honest, there’s like a mission objective in my mind and all it says right now is “good luck.” It really is easier said than done when someone says “don’t worry about it” of course I’m gonna worry… eeesh.

I’ve been told I’m aimless alongside having no goals (I can’t think of anything in particular I’m striving for) and I really have nothing to do that I’d want to show other people in my real life. Also I wrote this after waking up at 2 am and staying up for 4 extra hours because everything here has been so chaotic I wasn’t able to get anything else done in broad daylight. I guess I’m going back to being an insomniac. I never did set up themed days like I said I would, huh. Pokemon on Mondays I think is still a shoe in. I’ll come up with the rest later. My current rotation I want to commit to is a bit simple. Show (2 episodes), game (up to a set point), maybe a book or fic writing, drawing, avoiding YouTube like the plague because of its ad blocker, and I guess I also have homework. Whoops. Maybe I can do it today instead of just continually adding images to my writing posts and causing tumblr’s dashboard to crash.

Reigonlocked research: I want to play through post ARR in a region locked scenario where outside of the MSQ scenarios the characters are only allowed to level in one area for their classes and stuff. Yeah, this was inspired by RathGames and his many many XIV video challenges. That would require me to actually get everyone past ARR though. My brain is just saying “Fall guys.” i realized i have a bad habit of saying im gonna do something and then i dont, i need more accountability in my life but the only one that can do that is literally me. This is terrible. the pomodoro timer is the only thing that works for me, so if only I’d actually like, use it. Unfortunately my brain goes “Wait a minute, this shits boring.” that’s how I realized I dont do things I dont want to do.

5 Year Plan Update: This was year 1, right? Uhhh. Well. Out of the things I did, I didn’t graduate, but I did keep learning how to draw, and I did learn how to cook a bit more, but that doesn’t matter since I have to cook under other people’s rules, and I stopped using so much social media only to just watch more shows instead. As for exercising, best I got was like, doing 50 jumping jacks some days sometimes. Something I did do that I didn’t have on the plan was that I stupid proofed my phone, got rid of everything that was “fun” on it aside from shows and radio apps, but I’m not the type to play stuff out loud, so it’s really just something I can use to make calls and send out email and not much else. Minus the file clog, but I’ll work on that. I think this part of the blog will retire. Maybe I’ll keep the collages, but I’ll go back to a physical journal.

2024 Wants/Goals

I don’t have a To do anymore. There’s not really much I want to do personally for myself right now.

I’ve rebacked up my files since I rearranged my entire games library but now I’m off to back up my tumblr blogs again. (if you note, my art inspiration blog has gotten a lot of pokemon posts in the queue because I’m pokemon brained right now.) I’m a very simple person and my hobbies are very simple as well. If tumblr ever imploded I’d likely just move off the internet or something. (In light of what’s been happening I can only say “Yikes” to this comment.) The awakening starting romp was fun but also proves my point about my lack of dedication to finishing games before starting new ones I’m almost done with some shows from my 2023 list and I want to try watching shows as they air weekly again.

The real learning thing of the summer though is learning both french and spanish because it would be nice (this is a lie, it’s just so I can play untranslated fangames.) Unfortunately as much as I like to say “these are the things I want to do” majority of them are difficult because of the overbearing people I have to live with which makes it hard to be motivated. I think media logs are pretty weird, right? Why do people all over post about the stuff they watched through and played and what not like it’s a completionist log or something? Like, I’m not going to mention everything I did because that feels a bit goofy. I know I have other things to do but listing them all out is a little strange. Sorry, just had to get that thought out of my mind. I’m attempting to reroute my life to be more goal oriented instead of this wishy washy era of me being constantly shuffled around after graduation. Might cut off my social media stuff again since that was probably making me feel worse. I tried using the pomodoro method to do some cleaning and it made me so tired I almost passed out. Definitely a symptom of the constant overstimulation.

I’ll keep posting maybe on Cohost and Pf because that’s where I post fics and stuff but I need to cut Twitter out of my life again. I wish there was a better spot for artists though.

I had multiple topsters charts but I'm too lazy to download all the images so I just typed out everything instead. Lol. It is up to you, the reader, to figure out what I'm doing with every single paragraph.

Kirby Dreamland 3, Cave Story, Live A Live, Sonic Advance 3, Yoshi's Island, Kirby Dream Collection, Cave Story, Smash 3DS, Pokemon FRLG, Dragalia Lost, FFXIV, Freedom Planet, Mario 64, Mario and Luigi Bowser Inside Story, Legendary Starfy, Pokemon Emerald Rogue, SRB2Kart, Alter Ego, Smash 3DS, Pokemon Blue Rescue Team, Miitopia, Maplestory (level 250 era), Deltarune, Alter Ego, Animal Crossing City Folk, Mario Kart Wii

FreeTEMPO, LOONA, EVE, Buzy, Clazziquai Project, Psyqui, Daoko, Maroon 5, BTS, Junko Ohashi, Miki Matsubura, One OK ROCK, Anri, Flow, Sonic CD, Crush 40, Windows 96, Nelward, Bump of Chicken, Jeff and Casey Lee Williams, UNISON SQUARE GARDEN, Jamrioquai, Bo En, Mayayoshi Soken

Sailor Moon, Gurren Lagaan, Romantic Killer, Angel Beats, Madoka Magica, Maid Sama, Yugioh GX, Kirby of the Stars, Gravity Falls, Avatar the Last Airbender, Code Lyoko, PPGZ, W.i.t.c.h, Winx Club, Digimon Adventure 1+2, Baki Hanma, P4 the animation, Fresh Precure

Percy Jackson, Calvin and Hobbes, Illiad, Kingdom Hearts, ChocoMimi, Pokemon Special, Spirit Circle, Megaman Gigamix, Fate Strange Fake, Zelda Four Swords Manga, Dragon Ball Z, Sonic Universe, Cucumber Quest, Girl's Last Tour, Bone, Great Gatsby, Diary of a Wimpy Kid, Hunger Games

Pokemon 3, Spiderman into the Spiderverse, The Bad Guys, Pinochio, Ponyo, Pokemon 1, Digimon Tamers Runaway Locomon, Madoka Rebellion, Spiderman 2, Matilda, Wreck it Ralph, Despicable Me, Sonic OVA, Monsters Inc, Starwars, Despicable Me, Monty Python Holy Grail, Shrek, Princess Bride, Spongebob Movie (1), Christmas Story, Home Alone, Holes, DBZ fusion reborn, Dead Poets Society, Rugrats Movie

Definite recency bias here since I mostly went with influential stuff from childhood instead of enjoyed and new things.

Summaries of Media Logs: TOTYs

I knew I had this thing but I could never find it in a reasonable way because I had no tagging system for it on tumblr which was a really stupid idea TBH TOTY stands for Thing of the Year.

Thing of the Year 2022: Live Action

Movies: Spider-Man (Raimi Trilogy) (It’s spider man, hero to the people, massive meme! I wish Spider man 4 was real, the third had way too much going on. It was like 2 movies in one.) - Amazing Spider Man Duo. Just gonna post my twitter opinions here. Amazing Spider Man (1 + 2) I liked the first movie. Felt the second was a bit scattered. Too bad the sinister six movie never came out, because the second movie’s ending was just dedicated to that. - Scream (The Reboot) (Watched in a group scene, the antagonists were redditors and most of what I recall was everyone saying increasingly stupid ideas like Scream (that’s not his name) getting the World (the stand.) - Monster House ( The house is a very imaginative concept but I still can’t get over the climax being “kid you need to blow up my wife with my tnt collection”) - Goosebumps (The one with Jack Black and an imaginary daughter and all his books coming to life? The most I recall is the nerdy sidekick beating up a werewolf.) - Charlie Brown Cartoon Specials (Snoopy.) - Tick Tick Boom (Watched with a friend. Sort of inspiring as to all of the uh… well. It’s like an autobiography and not of this one playwright guy and I’m struggling to recall it outside of the music lines.) - Ophelia (This one was based on hamlet, the girl in the lake. Nice dresses. ((I think Daisy Ridley played Ophelia. I don’t know why I recall this… oh!)) - Star Wars (A New Hope, Empire Strikes Back) (What happened was that I was supposed to watch the prequels in the meantime as a sort of time thing between that and the return of the Jedi and I simply could not get through episode 1. I’ll try again next year, but I still enjoyed the first 2 due to all of the stuff they inspired.)

Live Shows: - The King’s Affection (Watched this one with my parent. Lot of intrigue and drama set up in this storyline of twin has to impersonate the other one without anyone knowing that he’s dead because he was the prince and killed and then she starts falling in love and… oops. That’s a whole synopsis.) - Reign (Struggling to figure out if it was this year or last year. This probably reignited my interest into watching medieval dramas again— but ones with like magic and political intrigue and what not.) - Spamton Sweepstakes (I watched this live. I’ve never been more baffled in my life.)

Thing of the Year 2022: Anime/Cartoons Sonic Prime (I enjoyed it, minus the multitude of flashbacks to things I had seen the episode beforehand because I was binging it.) I’ll have a more thorough post based on my bullet point notes but not at the moment. Romantic Killer (Immensely interesting premise of evil wizard traps girl in romcom which she defeats with the power of friendship, but wow, episode 9-12 is such a rapid psychological mood changer that I sort of go “that was too rapid” towards the antagonist at the end. Original review: this one was a psychological horror disguised as a rom com with an evil wizard taking this girl’s beloved objects and then episodes 11-12 happen and the show goes back to pretending it was a romcom. as long as you don’t think about those things for too long then its a good romcom. Naruto, Season 2 rock lee beating gaara’s ass was peak. neji’s argument is basically blown out of the water because the show’s not that deep, guy was just malding (I could be hilariously wrong in the end) . naruto looked at a guy killing someone else and was like “he’s just like me FR”. These guys being like 12 and engaging in bloodsports to become graduates is completely wild. Sakura was basically a nonentity in the second half of the tournament arc but the whole shonen stand there with the eyes cut in and make commentary is also a standard. Then the Akatsuki came and its like, these guys are cool as hell but there’s a few other plots involving the original sanin and Naruto basically learns the Kamehameha. These ninja aren’t sneaky at all. -The daily life of the immortal king- I watched this with zero expectations in mind and the best I could initially come up with was “store brand Saiki K” until the tournament arc in which I was invested in the main character experiencing emotions until the show decides to introduce time travel and I sat there wondering if I missed an episode or something. Nope. The show decided to stop the development. - Angel Beats (Interesting story, good music, immediately rushed by getting only like 12 episodes. The emotional climax was supposed to be sad, but I was more confused than anything. I probably would’ve appreciated it more as a teenager.) Like, I think the only two I recall are Otonashi (for his focus episode), Kaede (the angel) and everyone else sort of just exist? Pui Pui Molcar (I’ll be honest I only watch for the hamster noises at this point and seeing the silly little cars.) Tekken Bloodlines- Out of the three or four tekken adaptions we’ve gotten this one is “better” when it comes to adapting a game if you don’t question why Leroy has replaced Eddy and also ignore the triangle art style. I wish for a tekken 4 adaption because I feel like if there’s a second season that’ll be it. The Hollow (The kids were trapped in a video game but then it turns out they weren’t and then the show ends with them technically still trapped. Or something.) Kingdom Hearts Pilot— I would’ve loved to see this thing be a full cartoon, I love seeing scrapped concepts and lost media pop up! Not sure if this last one really counts…

Thing of the Year 2022: Video Games This is where I’d put Pokémon, which I played a lot of! I did beat Leafgreen, but I think I posted about it already… on twitter. Pokemon Leaf Green Decided to change things from the standard and did a gift only run, which was pretty enjoyable. Have a newfound appreciation for some Gen 1 Pokemon I had previously ignored. This still holds up. Lapras has been bumped up to a pokemon I appreciate! Ikachan! Cave Story A few Kirby games here, which I covered in a seperate post. I guess I need to repost that too, huh. FFXIV, which has definitely shot up to being one of my mainstay video games of all time. Freedom Planet- Carol Campaign I haven’t bought 2, but I still enjoyed playing the hell out of 1 even if my brain keeps going like “hey look at all the plot stuff and beta stuff that got cut and never made it in, oooooh” Stupid brain. It’s a fun game, I shouldn’t complain… Even if I haven’t updated so I can keep a playable Torque.

Fangame section: A lotta Pokémon here, one lone Kirby game! My favorite fangames are the ones that are just sort of unhinged. Like, where else would I be without megaman battle network 7, which is a pokemon reskin, or the pokemon orange islands game which accidentally gave me two overpowered sentrets but then the demo was never completed? I’ll post screenshots. I miss my weird green sentrets. A lot of them I still have the bad habit of starting and unfinishing. Highlights: Pokewilds Technically not completed but I have been spending an absurd amount of time on it because it’s something I never knew I wanted until I had it. Open world crafting exploration with pokemon is a dream. Sick as hell! Pokemon Emerald Rogue This one was the one I dropped Pokewilds for because I never considered a random generated pokemon game until now that wasn’t just randomizing pokemon and I gotta say, it’s pretty good! Kind of sucks when your team gets wiped in one go but im pretty sure that’s because I’ve just been playing the EX version. Pokemon Unbound Been playing this one as well off and on again, it’s got a pretty decent setup all things involved and I’m slightly invested in this plot which is seeming to be good for a Pokemon game. Most of my poke fangame experience is between “this is batshit insane, why did it get cancelled”, and “wait it’s over already” and also between “this is a lot of EV/IV stuff” and then some “these fakemon look lame AF” but the last one is rendered moot by how some real pokemon look now. image Thing of the Year 2022: No Longer Current Events so how about that Twitter exodus? It’s been such a weird turn around for tumblr considering that they’re the originator of the big ban and now it’s all back. Huh. Even the bots! Booo! Also I basically split all my interests only for the tinier blogs to just funnel into “things I was too shy to reblog from the main tag of a thing I liked on my main but can now do so on a sideblog no one will actually look at.” The scrapbook (this blog) got removed (from my main directory) solely because I felt like the main page would be too cluttered. It’s just a lot of scattered thoughts. I wrote two fics last year! That’s an exponential of 2 more than ever before! Well. There was the original works, but I sort of shot those. I could talk about them as concepts to be made for… is that a thing? A concept book? Like Nasu’s notes series? I got my neocities page for the part timers finished! (Minus mobile capabilities.) I’ll probably be using their stories and FF14 as a vehicle to write up plots that might’ve been original stories but I like writing fanfiction because I get to play in someone else’s sandbox. I’ll probably be posting a bonus Geocities Gallery of stuff I found during the neocities excursion. Goals: Exercise more next year, I turned into a major slug Actually write outside of one shots— or maybe just make everything a one shot and work my way up Figure out how to hack weeds off animal crossing wild world Other Category: Books? Aside from Mirror Visitor and Dracul Daily, it was mostly school related books. I did start the odyssey and never finished it… Food? Red Bean Paste Pastries from the Local Bubble tea shop. That’s all I can think of. I’ve completely lost appetite regarding breakfast foods due to my budget for the school semester, so now I just don’t eat breakfast anymore. The worst had to be that smashburger salad with the blue cheese. Yikes. Drawings? I could probably scan some drawings to post here, I have a lot of binders full of tiny scribbles but I should probably go with more recent and not completely ruined with a pen stuff… That’s it.

Thing of the Year 2022: The Continued Category - I have a bad habit of starting and not finishing things. The “most likely to be continued”: - Final Fantasy 4 - Naruto - Fate Grand Order: I hope to play this at a better pace this time around versus getting burned out in London and deleting. This time I have no excuse since I’ll be able to read what’s happening on my iPad. I finally got it fixed! - Earthbound -Pokemon Infinite Dungeon generator, Blue Rescue Team, and Team Worsties Team Worsties is a sort of challenge run I’m doing where I’m basically going through the motions of an absolutely terrible player who only uses items they get in a dungeon, no money, no friend areas outside of the tutorial ones, and only doing missions that are required. I’m having a terrible time, it’s great!

The thing I dropped like a rock and should continue category: - Final Fantasies (1, 3, 4, 6) - I have a bad habit of starting and not finishing things. - Mega man games (Funny story, I got to the end of 1 and then stopped at the fire pillar things. Mega Man fan who is bad at playing the games.) - Live a Live (original fan translation I started playing in celebration of the remake) - Star Wars (I’m probably the only person I know who’s never watched it all) - Bleach Bleach Season 1-4 I watched this up until Netflix took it off and thought it was pretty good up until the Bount Arc started , which made me think “this is a filler arc, isn’t it”, so I’ll probably need to finish this one by reading the manga. (Twitter review) I never did do that. And I should, considering that the Final Arc is out! - Donbrothers (I keep saying that every Wednesday I should watch it but also piecing it all through social media is entertaining to me.) - Persona Games - Sonic games - Fire Emblem Games

The things I’m debating continuing category: -Cookie Run Ovenbreak: feels like the neglected middle child where a bunch of dumb ideas continue to water down the thing I liked. The last thing I seriously enjoyed was the anniversary that introduced the sugar glass cookie. - Glitter Force: mostly doing out of extreme curiousity to see how badly they butchered smile Precure in the dub - Maplestory (I don’t think I’ve played GMS in a very long time. Mostly because I just get bored with it easily. Everything early game is handed to you and the plot’s mangled. That’s why I hopped to FF14.)

Things I forgot I watched category: - The Sound of Magic (based off a web toon? Magic? Musicals? Totally forgot.)

Thing of the Year 2022 Award And now, the Thing of the Year award goes to… Angel Beats! Yeah, despite my gripes with the ending I couldn’t help but feel like this was a good show regardless. There was a good soundtrack and storyline backing the show, but there just wasn’t enough time to develop everyone outside of the Rebel Against God club (even though I barely know any of the cast's names in spite of that).... Second place would be romantic killer. Third is a tie up between Naruto and FF14 because those two were the most done things throughout 2022. Well, happy new year. Good night.

Thing of the Year (2023 Edition)

I only count things I’ve completed entirely to fit into this thing of the year, which was not something I had last time. I’m also only considering going more in depth for some this time around instead of single sentence summaries of all. Depends on how I feel more towards the end of the year. Nothing past December either because recency bias would mess with the results, but I’ll have a latecomers section just in case something new shows up. I had it in an image this time around but that's clearly not here.

Counting only complete/ never ending things might’ve worked against me this year. Cartoons/Anime Category: I’m having a heavy debate here. It would be Scott pilgrim, but that literally just came out, so it shouldn’t win. In fact, it really should be in the latecomers category. But simultaneously, I do not want to give it to Ben 10 either because my enjoyment was lost in later seasons out of fatigue. So it’s in this state of “I didn’t finish enough cartoons or anime to have a good one for this category. ” I don’t have a books or manga category because I don’t read books consistently enough to finish them and I speedrun manga without thinking, which I really should do.

Movies/Live Action: Out of all things, based on old/new, wouldn’t the best thing be the one piece live action for being so different from the rest? From an objective standpoint, I did enjoy it the most, and it inspired me to go back into watching the original one piece, so it won from a marketing standpoint. But also, it had that tumblr campaign with buggy, so I don’t want it to earn anything. In terms of movies that aren’t live action, the miraculous ladybug movie might win(?) because it managed to capture the craziness of the actual show except for the fact that it actually managed to wrap up the plot instead of making things convoluted like the original show. Also, making it a musical was jarring but funny because of the way I watched it with my sibling and both of us had wildly different reactions. But across the spiderverse was right there, so it should be there, but I kinda want something with rewatchability and the end of the movie gave me a headache, and comparing it to the first has the first be more rewatchable in terms of not needing to worry about a meta plot.

Video Games: I did not complete much this year for video games at all. GaiaOnline would win, but that’s just because I didn’t have many exciting things going on outside for video games because of class, which makes it difficult to get established with a new game that expects a lot of things versus the MMOs/Gachas which mostly require me to login and do one task. Though, for the most part, I’ve been ignoring a lot of main stories in games this year to just relax, because getting invested into a video game heavily during such a tumultuous time of academia would not be a good idea! But GaiaOnline… Yeah, this one’s weird to me too. I haven’t even been talking on the forums, which is the main appeal, I’ve just been using it like a dress up simulator. For some reason, buying clothes from the marketplace and learning lakekindred has brought me enjoyment while I multitask on other things. The power of cute clothes won over my heart since I deleted hello sweet days off my phone I suppose.

Pokemon: Pokemon is in it’s own category as per usual but since I only said I’d do complete games… I had to refer back to the Pokelog I said I’d only update with cleared parties instead of every single game. If I had to give an award here, it would be to the concept of the Ironmon idea, which isn’t new, but it allowed me to comb through a lot more Pokemon games when I had the motivation to play them. I think Crystal Advance Redux would win this category, but I didn’t finish it, so I’ll put it in the other category (out of three, I have complete items, continuation, and latecomers.)

Results: Do any of these things deserve to be called thing of the year? Uhhh. Well. No. Considering the last one was angel beats, which had a profound effect on me even though it was cut relatively short. Nothing much came here since I was so busy with other things I didn’t get to fully enjoy a lot of media like others did. Maybe next year.

Extra (Latecomers) This has gotta be the funniest lineup of random things I did all within a few days of each other.

Unicorn Academy What if there was a magical unicorn horse academy full of quirky people. “This is sort of out of my age range but I’ll watch it anyways.” I said. “This is kind of like RWBY,” says the person who watched a lot of RWBY. “It’s like my little pony.” I thought since the horses have magic powers. “I should rewatch winx club.” "The house elf thing kind of sucks", I think in hindsight. I hated the cliffhangers on literally every episode. The main villain is literally an evil elf woman and the entire time I was like I understand villain enjoyers now I think, I wanted to see more of her hamming up the scenery and she was barely in the show because they turned into a statue. Lame.

Captain Lazerhawk: How did this thing get greenlit. It’s incredible. Like someone decided to make smash bros but while snorting something after speedrunning through cyberpunk , like, I’m just in awe of how wild the premise is and what they do with most of the characters. They kind of did Jade dirty by killing her so early. More or less I did end up watching it because I was like “was that YouTube recommending a shitpost or did rayman really do all that crazy shit” and then I watched and it was like when a person watches a show for one thing and ends up invested in the overall plot anyways, it was good regardless of the fact I don’t know what Ubisoft franchise Lazerhawk is from.

Pui Pui Molcar Season 2 (Driving School) I loved season 1 since it’s literally just guinea pigs/hamsters on wheels. It’s adorable. And very chaotic. This one had more of a focus on driving school since the molcars accidentally destroyed the city but I think I like season 1 more since that one had less focus and just went all over the place.

September to December (2023)

Food I did get the wawa pizza to share but it was bad and sucked and shouldn’t have been $14. I got a big thing of iced tea instead of water and I already know the health consequences will be dire but variety’s the spice of life and my breakfasts were boring AF (I say this and then immediately a few days later I’m starting to try a big exercise routine. Hmm.) Not even a media moment but I ate a burger with cream cheese on it and everyone around me was like “cream cheese???” And it was actually somewhat good tasting. It was like a bagel.

Media

Mostly star rail (I posted about that), finishing Emerald’s trash run (I also posted about that), and doing my best to not be tempted into ruining my entire schedule thing by racing through ARR since I learned the speed run takes 20 hours. (Which I would obviously break down, I’m not that foolish,) I should’ve properly paced that, but I didn’t, which is going to lead to a very interesting experience if today was any indication when I have to inevitably tank and heal for the last chunk of MSQ since I don’t have other jobs for those alts since I barely play them, just take photos with them. As for the Pokémon thing I’m considering after this latest one I move onto the DS ones since I want to do more long running games for the fall to switch pace. The only consistent thing will likely stay with XIV (thus, ending the whole latale-flyff-RuneScape-MapleStory M rotation I had going on.) ToramOnline is really the only new thing I’ve added aside from briefly continuing my bakugan venture. It’s so wild that I learned in later seasons that they straight up get rid of two of the major supporting cast characters while the others are reduced to cameos. I haven’t gotten there yet, just to the point where the gang is sent to the doom dimension. XIV: I was told that it would’ve taken me like 3 hours to beat ARR on everyone but per character per day thats like 6 hours… i can’t do that kind of stuff anymore. One piece LA: Tbh im probably fully spoiling myself when i actually watch the anime parts but I don’t like the way Nami’s arc was handled in the live action but I dont know enough about her as a character in the anime to properly have thoughts on her. Also the lighting was really dark in some scenes and I couldn’t see anything (I wish movies and shows would stop doing that so often.) Madoka was taken off Netflix so I just watched a YouTube version that I found of rebellion in prep for the new movie. I haven’t watched the Gacha version. laTale M came out. It’s not good! Why do all the work to make a mobile MMO version of the game just to make it an automover? Makes no sense.

read through the entirety of Pokémon festival of champions again and it’s still peak of Pokémon fan related content reading. Pokemon Reboot certainly had some designs I didn’t see because I was too busy aiming for the nugget bridge exploit to get a dratini. Honestly that last chunk where I had to systematically hunt down every trainer was my fault which has inspired my new challenge run idea for randomizers I have, otherwise I’m just moving onto Gen 2. Which I’ve done so with Pokémon Crystal Advance (redux) I’ve never played the original crystal advance, so I have no merits to judge it. However, I’ve had some to say about it so far like… they sure did have a double battle with Falkner for the first gym. There’s a lot of generational distribution. I’m kinda more into an experience of vanilla johto instead of the perfected experience so after this I might go backwards to just plain crystal and gold and silver instead of something like… legacy. I spent way too much time on Star rail this week and the game only gave me light cones. I went from no rank to rank 26 and I think I fried my brain a bit. I do not like findie. Please tell me there’s an option to keep it quiet. It’s silly little beep beep beeps do nothing for me. Naruto has also fried my brain because In a way I’m in a matchup between my brain being shonens most braindead reader/ watcher versus “it could be deep” theory crafting for a 20+ year old franchise and my brain is actively picking apart pieces of the show I don’t like and wiping them out. I haven’t even gotten to Shippuden. Bakugan is one of those shows I am clearly not paying attention to fully. It’s a filler show I watch between death note despite the fact if I’d pay attention fully I’d finish death note already but that one’s more of a slow burn I like bakugan for nostalgia’s sake, which is why I’m only watching season 1 because the other seasons lack the characters I liked in season 1 rewatching rwby. Rooster teeth might’ve officially removed the seasons from their channel but reuploaded work faster than the devil. I slept through fanfest for 14 and didn’t miss much since I’m not posting DT stuff yet. I’m only interested in the collab stuff… Played more of Pokémon Crystal Advance Redux. This shit is hard as hell, even the magikarp have hands. I have to do teambuilding but also have to consider I can’t use more convenient Pokemon due to already using them for other halls of fame. And it’s only gonna get worse the more games I clear… I’ve yet to find a vanilla johto game remake but hey, shiny onix. I did not want an onix on my team. But since it’s shiny. I have to use it. My system in place is that I only play until I get a badge and then I stop. I hope onix can evolve without trading because I do not care about Onix in any way, shape, or form. I’m sorry onix enjoyers.

I’ve completed ARR on M’ari, meaning I’m at the halfway point for all of my characters. I think that ARR has some good areas but since I’m prioritizing clearing MSQ for the sake of it rather than taking my time that it’s reflecting poorly on me as I kind of… stop paying attention to yellow quests and stuff I was doing to have fun in the game. But I promised myself I’d complete all of them, so up next on the list is Sage. Who. Is falling a bit behind, somehow. My Warrior level didn’t get much exp in a while (and I haven’t tanked much duties, just DPS), but somehow I’ve managed to clear stuff. Doesn’t mean I’m a good tank. I completely forgot about the ARR ending part changes. On the one hand, better that they’re not janky. On the other hand, I kind of liked that jank. It was funny when sprouts were continuously believing that Westwind was immensely hard only for it to turn out to be easy as hell. The fall guys stuff dropped (well, its gotten patched in) and it’s so obnoxious that wraps back to being funny, im gonna learn how to be the best faller guy in XIV for the stupid shit. As a bonus, there’s some collages of progress for everyone. (It’s in a separate post.) In the meantime, I put a bit more effort into playing ToramOnline since it’s basically the only MMO that survived my no more mobile MMOs purge, because I like it. It’s charming, reminds me of MapleStory before I threw it into the gutter.

Death Note (10/37) I can’t believe madhouse made this 15 years ago and it’s still really nice looking. I watch it in intervals of 2 days. 2 days works out because then I gotta let it set in like “how’s light gonna get out of this situation?” Death note is very funny because light seriously would’ve been bagged multiple times but the people are fumbling. Just give him a fake name. Like, he’s only winning because the author is letting him, both FBI agents failed, but even the cameras were noted because of the Shinigami. Light wouldn’t have been bagged if he yerked off while looking at the mags or if he wrote fanfictin or something that’s not as obvious as freaking scorn mags. Come on. Write poetry or draw crazy shit or something, get some hobbies. He took a potato chip and he ate it, but why couldn’t he just have changed up his routine and studied at the library or something. I’ve gotten to the part where L meets him in real life, and I kind of like L. He’s a little oomfie core. I can’t believe the tennis episode literally happens immediately after L gets introduced. Honestly, it would be really funny if the show abruptly changed to Light going back to playing tennis. To win, one must attack. And that’s the kind of person Light is, he’s never on the defense, he always has to do something scheme wise. I didn’t know his dad had a heart attack that wasn’t death note related, that was kind of crazy. Then Misa showed up. Maybe. The tapes seem like a thing someone other than Light would do.

Baki Hanma (season 1) The prison escaping arc is certainly a way to go for season 1, along with Oliver and his wife and Baki being a little bit of an asshole, it was kind of a bit of a turn around from the first part of the series being like a boss rush. There’s kind of not much compelling to keep watching it because I dunno, I liked the structure of the other more, this one has a lot less chaos going on. Like the first half was better because it was Baki’s training arc with doing dumb shit like fighting grasshoppers and his dad breaking into the military too just to go swimming. Baki got his own devils face though, that was cool. I think Yujiro Hanma could defeat a T-Rex, is that when the pickle arc happens? Oh, it’s happening now. As in. The plot of season 2, judging by the new opening scenes.

Star Rail (Jarlio VI, equilibrium 1.): The romantic start period I think is over and it’s back to doing the same grinding that I did with genshin minus the fact that it’s more convenient to play this game in short bursts instead of needing to do that open exploring thing, I can’t do that, my brain cells will only get me to explore one area instead of doing it all. Anyways, uh, Topaz made me learn about the stock market but when I rolled for both fire units I ended up with Himeko. Very cool. I had started up the little prince and I had notes, but never continued it. Then I ended up with pride and prejudice in audiobook format and got pretty far, but then I somehow got bored of it so I just returned the book. So nothing really in terms of my note taking…. Guess I gotta be in the mood to read more. As for November, I could continue with the stuff I said I would do in October, or come up with new things. I ended up rewatching RWBY and I want to do so until the end of volume 3 or however much I can find without having to use the site, and Pokemon Horizons looks pretty good. Could also consider watching more movies instead of just leaving them stuck on my bucket list, but I gotta be in the mood… its different watching a show than a movie in some areas.

FFXIV * Fall Guys: Man. I wish it was easier to see your arrow with the about face mechanic I’ve thought was mine but turned out was someone else’s. I’ve had the term “Sisyphean task” in my head for days while attempting to get past the second stage. GaiaOnline: Look at this cat thing. I’ve been making an in game journal and all I’ve been doing is pointing out stuff that works or doesn’t but now im just gambling in the auction and bumping forever in the forums. Also, the ruffle stuff works, sort of? The answer to that question was “yes, the ruffle stuff only really works on desktop, otherwise it takes forever or just leaves a black screen on mobile. LaTale journal: I deleted M because I hate autobattlers. I went back to desktop on a single mission. It’s more of an attempt to funnel directly to learning if the NPC fashion items were ever directly changed after multiple company transfers and if mobs still drop fashion items, but one is of a different priority than the other. Do later towns sell fashion items that weren’t documented?The answer I leaned was a fat “no” and that’s why nothing past 2008 focuses on different clothes and then Iris said something pressed so my motivation to continue the game died. Oh well. Least the musics still good. Pokemon(?) :There’s only so much time I can spend dedicated to long term RPGs so my new strat is doing ironman’s. One run and if I die im done.

Steven’s Universe: After years of not watching Steven universe and seeing the fandom implode on itself I decided to start watching Steven universe for the anniversary I have two very simple rules in mind when engaging with certain types of media Don’t listen to the opinions of Youtubers Never argue over children’s cartoons I’m having fun, why did people hate this? It’s got all the anime Lo-fi aesthetic, powerful ladies, narrative lore stuff, does it get severely mid or something? I know I got wrapped up in the critic wave where everyone said it was bad so I thought it was bad but I’m going back to 1 now because I think the tumblr Steven media critics moved to some other children’s cartoon which likely has some nightmarish fandom the likes of which I’ve never seen before. I had a genshin section here but I'm cutting it out.

RWBY: Years ago, I said that RWBY was like an anime adaption of a JRPG where the story goes “cool school, blows up, time to collect macguffins and fight god” and that was like around volume 6 or so, which is when I decided to stop watching, mostly because the episodes moved to RT’s website. Now, I did manage to watch volume 9 as a stand-alone but the end result pretty much made me go “why did I like this show again?” Because it had been so long that I forgot. Starting off with the latest when I hadn’t seen at least two of them wasn’t the best idea, but rather than go back to them, I decided to reset and rewatch the entire show step by step. Not like I have anything better to do with my time.

Manga Moment! I have an issue where i read through books and manga based on recommendations and then proceed to have zero formative opinion on them because I see a cool thing and go “wow, cool thing!” And proceed to black out from the rest of the narrative and translations. I should stop doing that.

Pokewilds retake: i updated but I lost all my old saves… I got swept by a sudowoodo. Pokémon crafting is pretty good fun. The Ironmon thing is pretty funny because it’s either like I manage to get through a game easily or I get wiped to the first few battles. I’ve gotten a bit in of Gaia and Turquiose. Scott pilgrim takes off assumes you’ve watched at least one Scott pilgrim thing which makes it very hard to talk about it so I’ll say it’s a good “what if” exploration of the characters and nothing else. If anything I can say it’s like a new Amanaguchi album came with this animation* *people online debate if this is a cartoon or anime considering that it’s based on a Canadian comic but it’s made in a Japanese studio so… Scott the movie: I liked it, it was pretty funny seeing a life action version of everything. Even if the sound choices were very limited in what game noises they could use (they were pretty happy with the sonic ring sound…) wasn’t really great that they kinda shoved Scott’s development of not being an ass about the two timing into a single scene but the swerve with Nega Scott was also funny. I watched this after take off. Pitch perfect: My sibling loves this movie so I’ll check it out it’s about the acapella band or something… Tbh I can’t care for these movies about relationship college drama and they love it alongside mean girls and idgaf. It’s slightly more than that but School drama is boring to me. It’s second hand embarrassment I don’t like all. I listened to a lot of takeo onuki’s works this week. One of the city pop artists. It was good.

Retiring the manga section because it’s mostly just me speedrunning Isekai that get cut short because they’re web novel ads and I dont want to do that. the missing one was “our lives after the apocalypse.” It’s a combination of YouTube recs and that one marvel video, but I can’t get over how the stars were aligned for me to fixate on the show that literally just came out and instead I’m too busy getting absolutely beat in Rayman Redepmtion. Incredible. I also blame Captain Lazerhawk, even if that is an AU rayman. I’m kinda surprised that title character is barely in the tag. I sincerely need more podcasts outside of sleeping ones and video game news for games I don’t even play from companies I’ve never bought In terms of online games… The WiFi’s shit where i live again. I’m starting to suspect my break from part timers/ffxiv might be more permanent if the game keeps crashing like this/ i guess it’s a good thing I tried fall guys out now versus finding out it would be hot shit later.

There is probably a large subsection of people who have never seen the original dragon ball and that’s a shame. They don’t know about goku’s looney tunes nonsense with extreme violence and how bulma performed a hit and run and immediately shot him. It’s accurate to the intro where it’s their strange little journey. I mean I read the manga but it’s a lot different seeing it move. I heard Goku speak in the subs and I understood him immediately. He is my friend, he is a creature of whimsy, he was a monkey that could shoot laser beams. Forget power scaling, I want a rule of funny that kid goku would do some goofy bullshit to DBZ enemies. He’d kill cell with a can of raid and a fly swatter I’ve also been watching the big green dub of DBZ which holds an equal amount of absurdity but that’s because it’s infamous for being a bunch of French people speaking English in one take Enraptured by the language choices when speaking of dragon ball terms and how it is. It’s endearing to me. They speak so fast. That’s just how dubs were. The humor is still there. I should continue this into December, like that guy who does dragon ball December months. A very bad holiday: The OG bad guys I liked but this one was clearly children’s special for the holidays. Ninjago— the shorter episode seasons (11 minute runs) Maybe I should’ve started at the original but I was like whatever they’ll explain the plot Next thing I know Zane’s been trapped in a dimension and became an emperor and Cole’s fighting a yeti I’m watching it like what??? Huh??? The next season I watched had them in the gamer dimension and the one I’m currently watching has… the sky… world? I dont know.

Sep-Dec 2023

IRL Hypothetical Class schedule is made i still need to memorize my room code It turns out I don’t have enough binders so I need to find a good way to carry everything I helped a new student look for their classes and show them around campus, which was a nice thing for me because I completely forget the layout every time I come event though this is my last. unfortunately my permanent baby face came in with them thinking I was still a sophomore. Oh well, better than being called a teenager. I wish that all the sites I used to download books were still up but they aren’t which is a shame! I’m considering using the school dining website to pre-plan my meals to see if that will help me instead of going about without a plan why do people post these online anyways? Is it like an aesthetic thing? I feel like it’s sort of weird, but then again I grew up in the era of internet anonymity and this is basically like, when people would post their public info on blog spot. This is basically a blogspot space.

Back on campus means taking the student aesthetic stuff and actually applying it to activities which is easier said then done but I’d like to thank study social media for teaching me to at least attempt to romanticize it all because I’d otherwise be running like a headless chicken. I want to still try being outside of my room for the most part so I don’t get tempted by distractions… I had brought my switch, but then it turns out I can’t upload photos nor play classic games. For some reason, it requires online…? Why. When I had virtual console I just owned the game. Whatever. The best part of this week has been printing out the journal entries minus some visibility problems with collage text and videos, because documents can’t embed links that well.

How would I describe this week— nothing happened aside from the fact I finally finished my incredibly nice notion workspace and am now breaking it down to include my hobby workspaces and I need to find a third space to watch shows because my roommate also has no life but plays TikTok’s out loud and I have auditory issues because sometimes she speaks while I have big headphones on. The problem here is I’m too lazy to stay on campus despite my big boasting of how I’d change and be different but it’s hard to hang out on a campus when you have no friends to hang out with and just end up wandering and playing Pokémon go and the most you do is go to get poke stops. for the Notion thing, It’s kind of fun just messing around with premade templates and coming up with something that ends up being a new result…. Not that I can post it, since it has my IRL name. And tumblr doesn’t allow for that much HTML posting. Some people have a daily schedule of a thing they do for certain time. So I want to do the same for my notion calendar. Like maybe on mondays I play Pokémon and tuesdays I watch a show and have a lot of variety in the days. I’ll probably abandon it in a week since I have no sense of commitment but I do want to try habit building. Unproblematic weeks are rare and I’ll enjoy them for being relatively stress free, so naturally I decide to do something crazy just because of having no problems like uploading the entirety of the Sanrio happy days fashion catalogue because I wanted one reference and the wiki didn’t have it so I’m going turbo and uploading everything. It’s my blog and I’m going to post my sudden fixation on fashion. this too is a part of the kuso experience.

So I straight up know that the whole “motivational carrot on a stick” just blatantly does not work for me so I’m attempting to figure what I can do that works that isn’t just me going by vibes. Sometimes my brain doesn’t want to do a thing. Sometimes the only way I work is by going “okay, floor time” and sitting on the floor with my study device next to me and I don’t know why it works but it does. So I might be deploying floor time more often even if my roommate looks at me weird.

Can my sleep addled mind come up with something good to do? “Wake up early so you can watch shows.” Sure, I can go with that. Better than social media first thing I guess… “Wake up early blasting sonic vocal tracks.” No. “Wake up early doing jumping jacks.” Please. Mercy.

Wild how you can completely screw up your sleep schedule for multiple nights by staying up too late one time but I’m going to go pass out after I post this I think. The stupid 4 am morning routine thing worked where I played an episode of beyblade and that kept me distracted enough to get ready.

I do not dream of labour. This week has been kicking my ass but at least I got two plushies. I needed them so much. My class’s scope of what the professor wants is far above what anyone can actually do. Like where am I supposed to find someone to interview by Monday if the assignment was given on Friday. You underestimate the willingness of people around me to do things for me. Some people have an ego that reach to the heavens yet claim to be saints. Here are my other thoughts: streaming services should not have ads if you’re already paying for them, that’s stupid. Im borrowing them from a person and there’s never a good time to watch shows with this person and then they get mad when I watch things independently from them like. We never have a good schedule frame together. My problem is since there’s so much I can do with shows and games and movies they eventually cancel out and I end up either doing nothing at all or trying to juggle multiple shows which my brain can’t do! Very unproductive.

This was supposed to be my final academic victory lap but instead it’s turned into my flop era, so I’m making some slight adjustments and hoping I can turn this into at least a bunch of B’s. I still haven’t found a morning routine or worked on staying on my schedule in the slightest so those are my top priorities again. For some reason, my dream of becoming a good student with a healthy work fun life balance keeps crumbling as the scope of the work is larger than my brain is willing to go. Executive dysfunction sucks. But hey, at least I got my writing blog some entries (My priorities are skewed.) I really went “I’ll leave my switch at home” and proceeded to not do that despite the thing only being there for my animal crossing I wish I could care about AC in the slightest but I’m just like “whatever”. I think I’ve just outgrown my switch. The first step is going to bed early. The second step is getting a morning routine. Let’s return to the Pinterest girlies. Failed that.

Some days are better than others. In consideration of holidays, I’m pretty good for material wants, if I’m being entirely honest. I have a phone and tablet, games are too expensive nowadays, and I have plenty of books. My life could be better, but I really need to be satisfied with what I have in comparison to others. The larger issue comes in the part of personal relationships but… I’ve been working on reigning myself in regarding my writing. I’m working more on like, getting weekly one shots out and finishing up more of my old works than starting new ones, so who knows, maybe I’ll clean up the stuff I did have during my one NaNo time here and post that as smaller pieces. But at a far slower pace than being daily, that’s why I chose to sit out. Anyways it was a good idea but now I’m like “what was I working on again?” I need to sort through my notes again for inspiration. I can’t be a binge watcher because I gotta be in the mood to just sit down and watch something because otherwise my brain just hits a wall. I still have my shows in mind for what I do want to watch but I put it on my notion page. You have to say “I’m gonna make a change!” And then do something to actually do the change but unfortunately the only thing that effectively works for me is the pomodoro timer and only sometimes. I feel like class work is starting to become less prioritized as the months go by which isn’t really the best thing. Honestly my anxiety spikes hard at things i can’t crontrol well. And group projects are the bane of my existence, so I’m not sure why I thought having a slacker as a partner was a good idea when I know they’re a slacker

Money is such a hard thing to justify using… Overhearing this conversation with one of my relatives is the most bizarre anecdote I’ve sat in with you just knowing all these famous guys and they’re in art galleries and stuff and then occasionally they find one of your pieces?! Does that make the world big or small in comparison?

So that’s how the academic life ends. Not with a huge graduation but an unceremonious whimper to go home and finish through online. It’s surreal to say the least. Making a list of long tasks lets me pick out what I can do/am willing to do so my brain will do something instead of flopping like it’s usual. So, the pomodoro thing really works! Only took me like months to find out. I did a lot of things here, like documentaries, and a podcast, and a lot of graphic design, and a few websites, but the end result is a degree that isn’t really going to get me anything… If there’s anything I’ll miss most from campus minus my friends (the two of them), it’s gonna be the food (when I could afford to buy food). I’d rather face academic pressure than familial pressure, because at least professors encourage you to do better. Out of all the Zelda games, I’m really following the trend and just playing link’s awakening because other people are now. But thing of the year (which I’m posting after this) is going to be sparse because I only put down completed things, and I can’t exactly have fun and be playing video games when I’m supposed to be an adult… I’ll also update on my 5 year plan since winter break means my brain is going to do a hard reset on things I was actually supposed to do since it’ll likely be funneled towards placating other people.

Emotions: I think I’m over stuff that scared me as a kid but mostly because of oversaturation of the scary thing so now it’s just like “hey man. Sup.” I can’t stand the weather here, it’s too inconsistent… my feet are always freezing now. This could also be due to a lack of exercise. I have received multiple suggestions from professors on my final project which has been: What am I best at, what do I want to be better at, and what format should it be. To be honest, I’ve spent so long being told what to do for work that I have no idea what I should do when I have free reign since I told myself to not play games as often (which I’ve noticed concerningly for a lot of stuff in this brief… it’s only been a month since I started? Sheesh.) I was thinking of making a fake visual novel but someone suggested a Zine so I might make a few mock up pages and see how that goes after my work training because the paperwork went in but unfortunately it has to be full hours so I need to actually get up in the morning and not just sleep. Everyone has been lighting up this manga called kagura Bachi so I read the single chapter that’s out. ”aren’t bullet journals for like, academic purposes?” Im in an academy. I think this counts.

While I’m greatly annoyed at the bureaucracy (no final project until spring) and general evaluation of school (what do you mean I failed room inspection because of my laundry bag being on my bed), the roommate complaining session was incredible due to how much they managed to get away with in their room with rule breaking alongside with me getting free sushi. That expired. On the day I got it. I’m really attempting to find things to appreciate every day but it’s hard to get things to appreciate without spending money. I tried to get a donut with change and they pitied me for needing a nickel. I’ve started going back to just doing single games per month versus the mess I made for myself by starting and not finishing things. Reboot’s cleared but I got too lazy to make a single post for it so I’m putting it here.

I attempted setting up the library app for audiobooks and it worked and then my brain got bored so I’m gonna need to go look at another audiobook of the same book for my monthly rotation, it’s the principle of the matter of leaving it unfinished. I think being on campus and dealing with back and forth family drama is what gave me all sorts of mental issues to begin with. Or at the very least made them far more noticeable. I’m of the belief that people should be free from their oppressors. Free Palestine and Ukraine.

The Endless Summer (May to August 2023)

Media Myhouse.Wad: That doom MOD has been pretty funny to watch turn from a “ohhh spooky mystery” to “these guys are using the lawnmower mod to speedrun it” I finished Glitter Force (The Smile Season.) The juxtaposition of smile Precure episodes: - Joker has trapped the girls in the hell dimension - Lily wants to buy a gundam robot - These two episodes were back to back They basically cut like all of Sunny’s episodes and I feel like the show is like, good for an entry way point but my main problem (not even with the dub) is that like half these episodes could’ve been solved if the girls just fired their attack at the start of when the villains show up instead of waiting for the clown guy to do their gimmick. At the very least the dub voices were nice to listen to but when I started watching the dokidoki version I was immediately distracted by how Mana sounds like Jimmy Neutron (they have the Same VA) I’m starting to think the best way to watch a Precure season is to marathon the entire thing so that way you don’t have an entire year’s time frame to dislike the shows handling and efficiently not analyze much of it at all so that people aren’t inevitably disappointed by a children’s cartoon.

Rugrats season 1, where I have two singular thoughts in my head the entire time. : These babies have caused so much property damage because the parents are neglectful—brain cell A. Isn’t this supposed to be funny to be watching them do wanton chaos though— brain cell B I’ve been watching Death Note, the dub. Unfortunately netflix subs mean I don’t get Keikaku and dub only makes me think of Lan because of the battle network run I only know this show through meme osmosis. Chobits: I read the entire manga in a single night, and then i basically forgot it all. CLAMP is kind of weird with the amount of student teacher relationships they have and this one also has it. Like what I do recall is “why did they give robot people free will if it would just lead to those kinds of problems” and “why did they make a robot child’s power button THERE of all places” and the general feeling of witnessing a train wreck in real time kept me going. Understandably this is one of those things I can never recommend to anyone ever. Watched the entrietry of Gudetama, the show where an egg becomes the prime minister for a single episode. Salt Fat Acid Heat: I’ve only watched the salt and fat episode so far and I keep getting insanely jealous. I wish to eat pesto.

FFXIV is a dearly beloved video game to me and I truly hope to continue the MSQ which I will do eventually, but for now it’s holding most of my attention as a roguelike with the occasional strategy dip with whatever I’m doing with the squadrons All I do these days is login to craft or play POTD, Gold Saucer, and drag alts through ARR, rinsing and repeating. Some of those alts are having skill issues though because I have no idea why I kept utterly failing at stone vigil. I eventually got through it with WAR on duty support but I don’t think I’ll ever be allowed to play with people again. FGO making a comeback was the last thing id expect to happen this summer but I still had the damn old account from 2018 so its back to the gacha mines I tried playing Sonic 1 and 2. Emphasis on tried. “You know, green hill was pretty fun, let’s make no stage like that ever”— Sonic Team. The special stages are heinous and I’m straight up never getting the good ending on either one. I believe the reason they only ever reuse green hill is because that’s probably what majority of people saw. Sonic is supposed to be cool, the classic one, but I see his little animations and go like, oh, he’s kind of cute. Genshin returned for like a single moment and then faded back into the BG. Final Fantasy 1 returns, but I immediately screw around with party compositions instead of continuing my original party. The wizard gang will carry me far into the game, I believe. I beat two rounds of emerald with pixie mons so now the third run of emerald is obviously just a regular run with it. I’m considering having a checkmark dex or something to ensure that I actually utilize all Pokémon that are available to me, even if that mindset is stupid. Actually, that gives me an idea based on my IRL Pokémon games I still have….

Watched spiderverse (the new one) with my friend, and it’ll probably be my movie of the year since I barely watch movies. I do wish there weren’t so many effects like all the time though, it’s probably impossible to watch for anyone with sensory issues and even I had to close my eyes at one point of the movie. Unico, Volume 1. I didn’t find two, but I did watch the pilot. Is the underlying theme of these Tezuka mangas just that something bad/sad always happens to the protagonist? Same thing happened with the few Astro boy episodes I watched from like, most iterations minus the movie. TBH I forgot. The pilot movie I did watch was radically different from the actual manga chapters it was based on because like, the chapter with the cat and demon were seperate and there also wasnt a vampire demon thing so seeing it was more of a sharp turn from an adaptation to the directors just doing their own thing with it. The entirety of glitter force doki doki. Is Mana a Mary sue discussion has been beaten to the ground so I don’t care to even bring it up, but the GF version kinda highlights how her friendship with Regina kind of takes over the facets of her friendship(s) over the other girls (which isnt helped by how many episodes centered on the other girls got cut outside of the ace arc). Umineko Manga: this shit’s crazy! How is she doing all of this. I’m gonna read an episode per day like I was supposed to with death note, (and possibly check out the VN if I can.)

Ben 10: I only have memories of Kevin as a tall person who was fascinated with his car. Seeing small Kevin was bizarre. I liked 1 and 2 so far more than 3. Not as interested in Gwen centric episodes aside from like. The lucky girl ones. Because watching two kids consistently squabble is the low point vs Ben using his aliens to do petty shit Again I blame the nature of binge watching because I probably would’ve enjoyed season 3 and 4 had I not marathoned the entire show but I feel like the direction was slightly changed for season 3 and 4 to be like, more aliens! Or maybe an episodic show with not much continuity leads itself to being formulaic and I’m just not as engaged in the formula as with the first two. I am putting far too much stock into a Y7 Show.

Sonic Prime: I don’t remember my review for season 1, but season 2 was good in some spots and if something’s not memorable to me I flat out forget it. Highlights this season were shadow and the show’s take on metal Sonic. Will they (the shards) coexist or not is the great question season 3 has to answer because it’s like, do you erase the individuals to make them their originals again or do you erase the parts to make them whole? The funny thing is that this is the third media I’ve seen that has the trolley problem of “if these people are split into different parts is it worth it to erase the parts to make them the originals again” within the span of 2 years. The other two fandoms still argue over their media’s takes on it. The Sonic fandom tends to argue over many things so it’s kind of irrelevant.

Magi Season 1: I tend to sometimes have like a critical standpoint on things that are clearly not made with me (a black person) in mind but this show makes me overthink whenever I’m not watching it because I feel like if this was a more recent show that it would attract the type of insane discourse that makes me turn off my brain. For starters since the show takes influence from the Arabian nights this would stand to have like… anyone who isn’t white* (as in Japanese and not White as in Western) looking, but then it fails at that point by only having a handful be anything other than that aside from one of the season 1 villains who is also a banker stereotype. Plus there’s also the stereotype of having more heavy weighted people just be villains. Then there’s also the slave subplot which is also primary to the tertiary character but then when adding the above… , I have to consider the factor of “do I really want the only black person in this anime’s entire plot line to revolve around being a former slave” and my answer is “not really.” So whenever the show’s focus isn’t on the world building of the magic system or the bond between the two leads it’s kind of failing on a cultural viewpoint (yes it also has the stereotypical outfits). Ignoring that it’s mostly just a mid ... it's not a shonen because of how much the main character is a total perv. What's the category above shonen? Seinen.

Using my switch online subscription the only two things I’ve been doing are playing yoshis island and trying to decorate my animal crossing island. I also redownloaded pocket camp. There’s way more events going on there, it kind of feels like I just play new horizons to decorate it so weeds don’t grow there. I revisited wild world but DS games are made for slower seasons I feel (like fall and winter.) Everyone in advance having a way to cheese bosses aside from sonic has some pretty fun matchups.The Amy campaign being lengthened by me not knowing her full move set was kind of nuts, watching a YouTube video where I saw her use an attack I never used in my game made me lose it (I played her more like a puzzle game since her move set is so different from the other three.) Kirby squeak Squad: Kirby doesn’t need inventory management. But squeak squad is a decent game when you don’t have some YouTuber/influencer telling you the game is mid. It might be mid in my opinion as wells but at least I’m not bored. More Pokemon . Same old, same old. Nothing incredible to say so it’s whatever. So the way I vibe with Pokémon isn’t active, but passive, because I use it to multitask with my hands while doing other stuff, like watching shows. Going forward I’ll only post cleared Pokémon games instead of in progress ones (unless it’s an ended demo.)

Playing: I just beat Kirby squeak squad yesterday so I think outside of the canvas curse and other spin-offs I’ve completed all of the pre 3D 2D mainline Kirby games. It’s decent when you don’t have people online in your ear complaining it’s mid. It’s reputation might just be “the one where Kirby goes crazy over a cake” but man if I was going to have a delicious snack and someone stole it I’d be mad too. Outside of that I’ve been working on SMRPG and the SNES Yoshi’s island. Casually I’ve been playing animal crossing and one of those Sanrio mobile games (but not the new one.)

Watching: I was supposed to be sticking to watching just shorter shows like Sonic Boom and watching movies instead of getting heavily invested in anything but then somehow I’ve found myself watching the Astro Boy 2003 dub. I wanted to watch the subs but I don’t want to pay a subscription but I also don’t want to watch it in a poor quality. If I watch around 3-6 episodes I can probably get it finished before vacation ends. Sonic Boom was started in August… 100 episodes? Some jokes are actually funny. Teeniepig is basically just precure and I have no idea how I ended up watching it Shorter time per episode= more episodes. I wish streaming services had a shuffle episode button. Like a large majority of Astro boys dubbed episodes within two days. That’s the fixation man, since I couldn’t even get through Death Note even with me watching it once a day I dropped it in 2 episodes The final episode is completely butchered, no going around that, but for the most over it’s serviceable unless you’re particularly nitpicky like with Atlas but like, the whole point of that was parental neglect even if the dub made him a robot instead of a human it still counts because his treatment was still the same It’s a beautiful show, which is why I ended up using so much of it for the screenshot parts

Mech Cadets was on Netflix and I watched the entire 10 episode course in two days because I have zero control when it comes to watching where it either drags our or I watch it all in one go. Every time I see a mecha show based in the West I end up going “Is this gonna try to reference Eva?” But that’s because I have zero referential ability. Mech cadets is quite a generic name though, they couldn’t have given it like a cool subtitle like Mech Cadets Ride Out with some exclamation points. (EDIT: the full name in the comic is Mech Cadet Yu, which works far better.) Kind of funny how my instinct whenever I see an bike in a western production is that I think the Akira bike slide is going to happen next (Wasn’t expecting the old men fight though,) I can probably retire the video section since I have the photos to show off the music I listen to with the full name in case YouTube pulls a fast one and deletes it and I’ll outright forget what it was. I like how I was like “I’m not getting invested into anything in the tail end of summer so I won’t be distracted when I need to study” and now I’m watching Baki the grappler because I saw the obama scene Sonic OVA: That was a very cool 2 episode movie with neat scenes and fight scenes. I like how knuckles has a hat. La Tale: Let’s gooo, time to waste my entire life on a new MMO that doesn’t have all the insane stuff behind it. But I need to be careful lest I turn into a beast of nature like my MapleStory days. It’s so funny how badly I slide off gacha games and like things people consider being good or not. Everyone is out here with their new games and meanwhile I got back into playing like, a Pokémon Emerald Bad Pokemon only run where I immediately busted out the rare candies since I quite frankly do not have the time or patience to actually grind out them. I think it’s justifiable when other hard mode games do have them.

May to August 2023 IRL Log

Summer is hot, and unpacking and cleaning are the bane of my existence. I have no idea if my laptop will survive and more importantly do i have the brain cells to pay attention to tutorials? For my new sorts of work. tried baking a few times! Then I was told baking is effortless and not hard work so it wasn’t real cooking so I stopped. I kept making smoothies but uh… I kinda got sick of them. Problematic, since I’ve still got ingredients I need to use before expiration. I have a very tense relationship with food. It’s not helped by other people, but sometimes I wish I was able to enjoy eating food the way I used to. That’s probably why I end up looking at so much food videos and food art.

The front half of July was literally nothing outside of me being frustrated by minor inconviniences with a lot of added stress from outside factors. Like, random drop offs by people all in the house. My nephew visiting, but they don’t really do much aside from sitting on their device and playing Roblox. Visited a wedding! That was quite lovely, even if the only highlight was the lobster bisque. Continuous ability to make videos with my program of choice, but I sincerely wonder how this will effect my portfolio since my degree is nonexistent. Unfortunately life likes to throw curveballs. Like a person close to me who was recovering from something fell down and now they have to recover for something else. The dynamic of the residence keeps changing. Also the invasive bugs are back in season so I need to stay vigilant. With old academic stuff that isn’t relevant anymore with notes and what not I guess the best thing to do is toss them? Feels like a waste of paper but then again I’m not gonna be like, oh, let’s look at my old notes for school and stuff— I don’t even keep old essays from school saved. I wonder if that’s just a failure of preservation or the education system. Some people really have weirdly pressed jokes. If I continue this topic though I will be very mad about it for that person’s sake but they wouldn’t want me to be mad so I won’t. Too much getting piled on top of me it feels. A weekend trip I don’t want to go to but have to, a school report on my work, my work itself, my art…. So the best way I work is by breaking things down into steps or just forcing myself to do things but that doesn’t seem like a very healthy or constructive way of getting shit done if I’m pulling teeth the entire time. Might my lack of motivation be due to a pile up of unaddressed tension? Yeah, most likely.

Emotions
How do you converse with someone who won’t listen to you over and over…? How is it that even with all my work finished I still feel nervous that I’ll fail classes…? The public system stinks. Also waking up at 7 am is to me anathema. Devilish. Absolutely a torture method. Immensely hard for me to focus on a single thing at once these days unless it’s a video game or something and even then I find myself thinking of more than one thing to do… I found an assignment pad so I’ve been using that. I’ve gotten some games on my phone that aren’t gacha and don’t require constant Wi-Fi. ‘Twas a simpler time. These days when I don’t sleep feel longer and longer and more ridiculous by the day. Finding this Zinnia format has essentially reversed all progress going forward because it’s opened a Pandora’s box of kuso (shit) decorating Me praying Every night to destroy the AI industry. I’m the biggest hater. Everyone in my direct family is AI pilled. Pissing me off that everyone is going like “oh just use AI to work and write and draw”when that’s not why I do those things!! Leave my hobbies alone! SOMEONE LEFT A BEAN BAG OPEN AND BUGS GOT IN IT AND I WAS FIGHTING THEM FOR DAYS WITHOUT KNOWING THE ORIGIN Baking is harder than cooking because you can’t uncook an egg and you still have to wash everything I wish I wasn’t being so pressured to finish work earlier and earlier, because that’s not how my head works with my work. This thing takes way longer than 2 hours because my concentration takes longer than 2 hours to get a work ethic, and trying to get anything done in the morning is a death knell for me
so uh. I kind of can’t stand parties or large crowds and everyone is really hellbent on making me go to both parties and large crowded events on my free days so naturally I have to just suck it up and go do what they want and uproot my life just to please them lest we get the SpongeBob image. Goddamn, dishes suck! I forgot how bad it was. The cycle literally relies on me doing the dishes but I don’t want to so I have no energy because I have no food because I don’t want to cook because I don’t want to do the dishes but either way I have to do the dishes. Anyways I finally got past my anxieties and ordered groceries only to then forget the bread so I had to walk over to a convenience store to get the bread. I’m not dead, so it worked! Having a nice stress free life seems to not be in my life currently. I have a family and friend group full of extroverts that like dragging me around places while my half assed excuses do not deter them in the slightest. So… airplanes, vacation, sun time! I did say I wasn’t going but then I got like, the avengers called on me. I have no idea if my groceries will survive me being gone for a week.

Projects
Practicing for 15 minutes daily I feel has been causing a steady improvement in my work ability By complete accident, I ended up on a totally unreliable art website. This was a terrible decision. I’ll be rectifying for this mistake by actually reblogging from proper sources because that website is an entirely different beast. Everywhere I post I feel like slightly more confident in not just having an animal crossing style but I just get called cute… I wonder if my definition is skewed? My cute might just be different from theirs. I asked and yep. It’s cartoony, which is apparently conflated with cute? I learn a new art thing every day. Nothing made here recently aside from FF14 art parties … the digital collages, I guess? The thing is since I really live under a rock when it comes to interests and fandoms I don’t know who anyone is outside of a few WOLs I’ve seen on tumblr. I have no idea who I’m truly drawing at these events. I have so many references saved but I’ve never truly studied, so my next objective for August is trying to take an art class/ self made practice session.

Something I’ve genuinely noticed about myself this year is that I have absolutely no abilities to complete things outside of “get it done as much as possible until fatigued” or “put it off as long as possible until it has to be rushed”, which generally sums up my attitude towards schoolwork as well.

Anyways, I’m here to talk about kirby.

Last time I mentioned kirby was on a twitter post where I mentioned playing Kirby’s dreamland DX edition, which adds color to it. I didn’t cover extra mode and I think the next game I moved onto was nightmare in dreamland versus playing just plain old adventure, but this is what I sparsely wrote because of character limit: “ I’ve only ever played Spring Breeze through Super Star and Ultra so going back to the original wasn’t too bad minus the one boss rush. I didn’t know the SHMUPs started this early in the series.” The next few games I played love doing (mini) boss rushes. In particular, I’ve played Nightmare in Dreamland, a bit of the NES kirby’s adventure, Super Star Ultra’s campaigns minus Meta Knightmare, and the Kirby Fangame Invaders from the Dark.

Overall: On the one hand, playing all of them back to back in such a way probably ruined the experience more than I think because my playstyle is so responsive to being able to just smack whatever’s in my way and deal with invincibility frames. That’s what playing mostly super star and ultra does to a person and I guess Star Allies (eh) is to blame as well. I got spoiled.

On the other hand, I think Kirby’s better when it’s not some immensely long puzzle solving grand adventure and is broke into bite size pieces like super star and amazing mirror do. Too bad there’s no games in the series exactly like those two. Nightmare in Dreamland (A bit of adventure as well): I’m not entirely sure what happened here, because either my memories are tricking me or the NES experience is what I remember outside of the game looking a bit… strange? All I had thinking was “why is butter building purple, why does getting hit once take your ability if enemies can swarm you so much, I’m not getting 100 percent.” It’s a bit disappointing to me because outside of a few levels I think the game looks and sounds nice. I moved onto adventure before stopping at around Grape Garden because I think visually adventure is more appealing but going back and having the exact same enemy rush problem where some puzzles require escorting an ability from a different level and dealing with screen lag on top of that made me move on.

Kirby Super Star Ultra Main Campaigns + Extra Modes Minus Meta Knightmare.: I’ve seen these backgrounds in sprite comics all the time. Honestly jarring. Since most of my kirby experience comes from amazing mirror as my first one and the 20th anniversary collection as the second, playing some of the remake games is definitely a new experience for me. I’m honestly a fan of Super Star because of the multiple campaigns and wish more Kirby games would aim for campaigns like the ones in Revenge of Meta Knight and Great Cave Offensive outside of just adding in a new playable character scenario. The closest so far are the timed campaigns in Star Allies, but I haven’t played forgotten land yet so I could be proven entirely wrong by it! Revenge of the king is like some mix between harder spring breeze and the hard mode of the original dreamland, which I didn’t play but I did try to see if it was visually similar. Not exactly since castle lololo never returned, but hey, Kabula’s back!!

Invaders from the Dark (Almost Completed): Anyways, what about that “almost?” I make it a point to try clearing main games as much as possible and going for 100 percent only if I really like something. For invaders of the dark, it’s something I wanted to complete because it’s the only platformer Kirby fangame out there that’s relatively completed and not just a mini game reskin or incomplete, but that final boss. Very uh. Out of place in difficulty. Honestly, Pandora from the last ice level was the same way with the ice attacks that chase Kirby and are indestructible. but my problem with Medeor or whatever is that the game throws you between the shmup and the final boss with no way to practice the 11th hour superpower. In this case I should probably just get good but I really don’t want to. It’s like, in theory, I should probably beat it but simultaneously I looked up the credits on youtube and the ending is done in a gamemaker bubble and the credits are in comic sans so I think it’s okay for me to say I’m not inclined to finish it anytime soon.

Conclusion: The games that try to emulate super star emulate the gameplay and not the actual game which was a bunch of mini games. In that way, super star and ultra still remain unique. But I’d rather play super star than ultra because I played the original first on the 20th anniversary collection and I’m the sound is off to me personally. It seems like in the case of Kirby, hardness comes with being a tiny bit annoying. I can’t count the amount of times I’ve lost an ability due to a bunch of Bronto Burt’s flying on screen at once where it’s a buy one get two deal where they all come at once. That was universal between all games, but I can’t stand it when adventure/nightmare did it because most puzzles required getting hammer or fire from one side of the room to another but I can’t exactly do that if I can’t keep the ability on me for more than one nanosecond. It’s my reaction time versus the enemies precision to snipe me from the room. And don’t get me started on the mini boss brigade that haunted me through nightmare in dreamland and amazing mirror and I’m glad none of them made it to 3D!! I never want to see Phan Phan, the fire lion, or that one dog ever again.

Old Media Log (Jan-April 2023)
Attempting to get to level 130 in Maplestory M through burning was like “wow this sucks.” Sia Astelle finally came out, she’s good. I learned that there’s actually voice acting in the game but I never hear it because I only have auto battle on. I did not get the last BTS cookie in kingdom and quite frankly I’m sick of the event and cookie run kingdom micromanagement but that’s likely burnout from BTS. I still haven’t progressed in FGO and it’s just the France saga. At the very least I haven’t deleted but I currently have no motivation to do it on my phone. The big Ipad though… I should likely transfer. Worsties update: So I beat Zapdos. Only took me learning attract and a lot of stat reducers between tail whip and attract (like my previous Eevee run. Also did the fugitives arc. Will likely cover later. Now I’m going to be stuck on Groudon like my first prediction!

Watched a Low budget movie involving two kings and a question of morality between picking a friend or king when the king killed the rightful heir but obviously the protag picked the king because there wouldn’t be a movie otherwise. Wizard battles with PowerPoint transitions. A movie I missed last year outside of the unfinished Disney movie marathon was Pompo the Cinephile, which is pretty much the epitome of the statement that art is suffering and making extensive cuts but my main takeaway is that a movie needs to be 90 minutes long because I’m terrible at retaining information. A movie watched with the extended family was National Security, which was. I don’t recall much of it outside of it being a buddy cop movie and the antagonist being killed in a looney tunes styled execution where he gets launched off a rock. Lots of explosions. Immediately dated by the usage of video camera, otherwise it would’ve been on phones. Purging all genshin related info from my mind as soon as I saw a glimpse of it online or anyone talking about it IRL has left me clueless as to who anyone actually is or their importance or anything else because I had zero interest. This Diluc guy is cute. Apparently a 5 star. But I know nothing else. Genshin is kind of. Overwhelming? There’s a lot of stuff to do. I’m running around clueless getting the aetheryte teleport thingies while also doing quests and upgrades. It’s probably going to be my next big time sink like how I was with FF14 for a year. Food fantasy. Switched to the JP version INSTEAD of the English version, and I definitely had a better time because the English version is definitely stilted. Not even every character has a dub anymore so some characters have no lines in English. Minor, but concerning: what’s more concerning is that some blurbs don’t show up in English either: the game is probably slowly dying.

The phantom menace. I’ll probably post more in depth about Star Wars (the first six) and then the sequel trilogy later but right now it’s sitting with the classic being the top because I’ve bounced off the phantom menace twice now because this really could’ve been cut. A lot of line reads were stilted and it sort of leaves a weird first impression of the big guy anakin being a child. My watch order was literally 4-5-1-2-3-6 in order to get it out of the way and I can see why they put it like that. Watching TOP progging and its good but also I keep thinking about how genuinely unhinged DSU’s prog era was (Among Us twitter saying who their favorite ward member was, Zephirin pogchamps, peepoArrive, the sheer audacity of the time travel timeline being the worse one, watching multiple DRKs being chased around, twitch chat hive brain screaming “SAVE HIM”, me having Finals during that time period and having 5 different streams open to see if anyone managed to get progress over the other, PlayStation memes, I AM NAMED KYLE). One of the leading groups is someone wearing a Sasuke wig. I have no idea what the shadowbringers ultimate could be. Hades? Warrior of Light? Maybe both? There’s also the buff cap problem they’ve been having which is kind of incredible. Solely dodging everything ahead.

Remember when I was like, oh TOP Progging hasn’t been as insane as DSU, it got insane again because of mods involving the camera. I have nothing against mods but I’m obviously playing vanilla and my opinion doesn’t matter. That’s to say, I have no opinion on the matter. Do I think they’re bad? No. Do I think sometimes they’re used badly? I guess. I do wish I had the ability to backup games, nothings made me feel bad for buying afterwards and not contributing as spark the electric jester, which I couldn’t buy either. Hmm. They made the way bags open in POTD a lot faster. That’s good for future runs. Too bad I still can’t get past 20 on a normal day… but on the other hand I got a red panda!

FGO is one of those games I’m definitely going to watch versus actually play because whoooof. I cannot get myself through it. I could if I had enough incentive outside of cool units but I always impulse summon and get nothing. It’s definitely one of those things i hear about secondhand through looking at forum posts because those are a lot more entertaining. I was playing a nuzlocke mode of Emerald for one of my story concepts but it unceremoniously died at Flannnery and the only survivor was Azumarill, which died to a random battle, so I’m just going back to playing regular Pokémon. I started watching Astro Boy based on a recommend IRL and I had zero knowledge going in aside from what IRL person said which I forgot and also stuff from Megaman, but its pretty jarring to hear such a cheery opening and then the next thing is the boy that Astro is based on dying in a car crash. Then the next episode is Frankenstein. What a fascinating time capsule. a single episode of a show on Netflix which I’ve been considering not using since they have that dumb house policy. Going to check out Tubi more. FFXIV has me needing to multi class for a single job quest but I’m too lazy to do so at the moment. One day I’m gonna end up with an Omnicrafter by sheer accident.

I watched glitter force’s first season (smile precure’s power rangers esque dub on netflix.) I will be posting screenshots of that in full because it was. a lot. My gurren lagaan rewatch got cut since netflix keeps pulling off shows I was still watching!

Watched: The Bad Guys (Dreamworks): I’d like to thank spiderman into the spiderverse for allowing animators to flex in movies forever now, also whoever at dreamworks keeps making wolf characters the way they do, plot was based on a book or something and the morals i think were like, be a good person genuinely instead of being performative, like that little hamster man. Dropped: God Troubles Me (Bilibili). …show kind of peaked at the 12th episode which was the finale of the 1st season, but some of the “humor” turned me off… (re: fat jokes), then season 2 was boring enough to make me drop it (this also might’ve been sleep deprivation.) Pokemon Emerald: There’s a section where I’m like… hmm. IGN might’ve been memed on for this one but they were kind of right to say there’s too much water. Why’s there a whole section with only like, one town that’s insignificant outside of floating on logs. It was at this point in emerald I was like “shit where am I going” so I just uh. Went with a guide. Route 123 to jagged pass… the back to back magma aqua stuff was grating, but rayquaza is so cool it makes me forgive it. speaking of forgiveness in video games. in between intermims when I get sick of pokemon (which considering I saw my playthrough’s team and realized there was no way I’d get to the elite 4 without grinding (I’ve been using music playlists to allievate the boredom), I play Kirby’s adventure. Even though it sort of has the same problems I had with nightmare in dreamland (fast ability stars and like zero time to react to grab it, enemy placement that’s absurd, minibosses… I don’t like), I forgive it because I think by NES standards it’s good in the music and art style. Nightmare in Dreamland just has something on it I don’t like (or it could just be rose tinted glasses.) In terms of FFXIV, there was the little lady’s day event which I did on one character and then basically lost interest in. Why is there an event centered on a dance that isn’t even loopable? This is like, the second event this year I feel like was… lowering my expectations.

Sailor Moon Crystal (in the dubs): every time i think of this show I think of watching the debut but it’s been years, so it’s time for me to move on and actually watch it since I don’t have crunchyroll or Hulu to watch the original. It’s good looking on Netflix since they have the blu ray version and I’ve never gotten to season 2 so… shrugging. Maybe it’ll get better. It’s a more forward manga adaption but sometimes i wish that Sailor V got an adaption instead. I watched the entire production of sailor moon crystal and it was like. “okay.” I’d probably rather watch the original 200 episode course because after a while I just started listening to the audio of it like it was a drama CD. The netflix thing used the blu ray updated versions so seeing this thing manifest on my screen brought back bad memories. The artstyle changed a bit for season 3 and the season 4 movie onwards. Yes precure and Maho Girls are getting a new season! Yay! Cure mofurun has apparently been banned from being used outside of the movie, which sort of blows.

Started off with RWBY volume 9, got to the cliffhanger with old man Jaune and it’s looking like it’ll be a good volume! I’ll likely watch the rest of it afterwards. I’m still wondering what happened to Neo though, she kind of just showed up in a single episode and then left. the Bulk of this week was me watching the mega man NT warrior marathon, the dubbed one, with the twitch chat.

Capcom releasing an official dub version of the battle network show on their YouTube and then apparently putting in the Japanese subs because they lost one of the episodes (the first one!) is incredible

I'm in April now, Cool.
(Previous post watch referred to RWBY.) Somehow everything did manage to get wrapped up in a single episode, but did they have to keep the haircut the same way…? I liked the ponytail better. Playing animal crossing and forcing my switch to render millions of renders of corn so i can have the ugliest farm known to man so I can efficiently sell them by the daily for easy bells? Cool. Trying to remember to water gyroids by the daily? Uncool. I beat Pokemon Emerald but… I broke the rules. I did something I shouldn’t have done. I beat the elite four being carried by a level 70 rayquaza that replaced my camerupt because I was too lazy to properly train up the rest of my pokemon. It was real easy too, like once I caught it the final chunk of the game might as well have just been a speedrun. Disappointing? A bit. Guess I should try grinding a bit more for the next time I play emerald. This was the final roster since I was originally playing a nuzlocke (the only survivor was the Azumarill of the original run after everyone wiped to Flannery) and then just continued after the run ended. I swapped out my starter for Celebi. I made a piccrew of the protagonist too a while back (the story was that he thought the Celebi was a weird budew.)

Kind of interesting how anime as a whole is considered a single genre in the western/US sphere where people can be like, yeah, I’m watching Precure and using death note as a palette cleanser and people will just nod their heads like what

I miss dragalia lost. Now that I’ve effectively wiped my phone of internet usefulness (deleted Firefox for my finals) I use it less. Instead, if I want to do other stuff I have to do it on my iPad now because my laptop is fragile. It might implode if I have too many tabs open. I saw it flash a blue screen and feared. And the way I play FEH is downright stupid with me mostly shoving units into barracks like it’s the Pokédex or something I’ve been playing through emerald again but with a weird randomizer. Nothing more jarring than watching Pokémon be in the ocean and then use explosion and legendaries be commonplace catch rates and all. Now that i know what I’m doing though for Emerald’s plot I’m not as pissed off by the aqua magma fetchquest stuff, it’s not as bad once I recall what to do. I could always just consult *how long to beat* and see how far I get with that for non Pokémon RPGs but everything requires me investing time and for some odd reason it’s quite easy for me to not do that.

Jan-April 2023 Reading through these old notes make me sad because things haven't gotten any better. Looking through these posts I truly did spend most of my FF14 time either gambling or being in POTD. Lol.

Projects

I showed up at Micheal’s to buy art books, but instead all I bought was stickers. Here’s some artists of note I’ll be looking into for practicing considering how I can basically only draw stick figures at the moment… :Figure it out!, Christopher Hart, Pop manga drawing, Look into Bible journaling?, Angela Nguyen ,Yishan Ali, Ryuske Hanamato, Leonardo Pereznieto. My art...It’s nothing but circle hands and it’s been that way for years now. Oof. At the very least I had fun but it’s like… 11 binders of the same type of drawing. Since 2014. This year I’m definitely changing it up. I don’t want to mention the writing binders. It’s probably just bullet points all the way down. I’ve probably contributed to multiple trees of printer paper on my path of mediocrity. I don’t even know why I have this as a section. I don’t know how people stay consistent with their working either, most of what I do is either drawings in MS paint or my app equivalent and my writing is just bullet points of streams of thought. One time I did Nano. I never finished my works. Here’s a Haiku. Cold and raining swiftly Heat all over yet distant March weather is fickle

I’ve printed out some stories I have scattered around in notes for the sake of keeping my eyes from not melting off, because everything else is on the computer and my school motivation has reached an all time low. Also, either printing or taking notes of my own notes because yeah, seems like trying to work digitally isn’t working because it’s a lot easier to distract myself from work if i don’t have the work physically in front of me.

Emotions I was asked what my perfect life would be but I couldn’t come up with anything outside of me not being cringe fail at social interactions. The second thing was the family getting along more. Then my friend’s pets not all being tragically ill so they wouldn’t be in misery over them. Then I was told to use more of my imagination so I said maybe I could be taller and was knocked on the head for that. Where’s my working mode, has it just eroded the whole time? Where’s your motivation? No studying in the campus room. or at all, really. I have no motivation. yhe only thing I’ve been sincerely doing is either blogging or gaming and even if I removed those two factors I’m pretty sure I’d just sleep all day… I think my problem is that my brain constantly wants instant gratification at all times despite doing zero work constantly. My study methods have eroded because my philosophy in life has changed to weird things happen all the time, might as well make the best of my life instead of struggling with bad things but for me bad things are school. If there were three of me, two would be on the computer and phone, one would be asleep, and the fourth would have to actually do work and probably fall down a hole. How do I convinvce myself to work again? Bribes don’t work.

No force on earth will let me get out of bed early, but what about my studies…? Doing good with finding an attachment to every class but my science one, in which I am tortured by readings I haven’t done and quizzes for said readings. I’m going to talk to my professor after class. Like out of the classes. I have a hook to Greece, some of a hook to music by playing dumb, some of a hook to digital poetry because I get to nerd out, and some of a hook to the UI project because I get to vent about how much this infrastructure sucks but I have no hook to science aside from “I took a class like this before” and I do better in the lecture question position than by myself taking notes. So maybe if i go with summaries and breaking down work, but that doesn’t solve my quiz problem. I think I should look up stuff like studyblr to put on my reference blog to keep myself in check then.

my solution for my lack of homework motivation is by listening to audiobooks and video lectures. Same for the serial reader thing, because I’ve got zero interest in reading anymore. I’ve been collecting audiobooks through YouTube to listen to later. This month’s will be the one’s I’ve been meaning to read, Moby Dick and Dorian Grey. the key to life is moderation! I am not good at that. something something reading is killing me. I’m switching to audiobooks.

I managed to wake up multiple times early this week and did… nothing with it. Quite frankly, it seems like I’m the type made for doing night shift jobs. the key to life is moderation, which is why I keep scheduling, but routine gets thrown out the window, and I can’t multitask on phone calls, which is why I get so frazzled when I end up on 20 minute phone calls when there’s an immediate event afterwards because the concept of time disrespects me. My hands have been getting increasingly numb after staying in the cold. That’s… abnormal? My hands have always been cold but I’ve had to squeeze a few times to make sure I still had feeling in them. Man. I hate downloading apps that say they’re free but instead make me pay for a subscription. Don’t say it’s free then! I also hate apps that make me sign up for accounts. Stop that.

Is it really just faster to fold than to fix it up…? Actually, funny thing that happened was I was watching a stream… the streamer yelled at someone to go clean their room and then I also cleaned mine… why did I do that? Been getting a lot of death note in my recommends so I’ll probably pick up watching that as well. This is because of the free official uploads, but those are locked off my devices because they’re browser incompatible or something. Ugh! Wow. YouTube ads have really gone downhill. Every 10 minutes in a movie… is that really necessary? They’re not even good ones, just tiktok videos. Feel like most solutions to problems with seeing things i don’t like are just to block or filter out a thing, but then my impulsive brain goes and finds the unpleasant thing I don’t want to see either. That’s on me… Talking about horror movies. Or maybe I’m just into watching horror movies. I have two succulents now. I don’t know how to grow plants. I’m concerned for their lives. I don’t think I’ve been read that hard in years… someone said the reason why nothing I’ve been doing to fix myself to work is because I don’t want it to work. Hard work is hard. I completely forgot how grade schoolers are, my work involves them more and they’re aggressive as hell.

I can’t take naps anymore, I had that snuh mimimi thing going on and got a full nights rest instead of waking up to work 💀 It’s about attempting to figure out if there’s any way to solve issues in life that are manageable but that’s difficult when your brain is actively sabotaging itself Oh yeah, storage systems. I finally figured out what was eating my computer’s GB, I had this giant zip file in my downloads instead of deleting it back when Smackjeeves was shutting down That website might’ve been a small thing of internet cringe and sprite comics but it was my time! My era! It taught me the importance of nothing being permanent on the internet! I miss the kirby comics there by the daily! If I can’t find a motivation, a reason, then I have to make one with my own two hands.

Food

College taught me how to make slightly better ramen by putting in vegetables and a protein before hand so I’ve been getting more experimental. The other thing is bagels with salmon and chives with cream cheese. My one worry is getting too much sodium intake. (At least, that was what I would’ve eaten but…) But my extended family has been going out more often because everyone’s shown up… it’s a mess here. Avocado ramen is very creamy. I brought one from home and thought, oh, I’ll put in some avocado and then the entire thing became some kind of avocado flavored ramen. Scout cookies got bumped up to 6 dollars when they used to be 4. Inflation is insane. I ate pineapple pizza. I’m not sure why everyone hates on it so much, quite frankly I thought it was mid. Most food stuff here is highly processed junk, shitty Taco Bell and burgers included. And paying for the actual food on campus is a gamble to if the food is good or not… The one good thing here was the food trucks but my experience is forever tied to the asshole who raided the community fridge and ate both someone’s ice cream and my clearly foil wrapped sandwich with my name on it. Pissed off for eternity over that sandwich.

IRL

IRL family stuff still happening. [gripes go here.] it’s some sort of illogical loop. My school has already started sending out emails about work to do. And it’s a bunch of books that I have no way to find easily anymore… what a shame. I miss Z-library every day. Gripes continue. No one in this house listens to me. All of them have varying quirks that get on my nerves. Then again, I’m venting here and there’s obviously more nuance to the situation, but I’m not allowed to complain about people to said people who won’t reflect or change much, so it’s a moot* point. *I say moot all the time but I don’t even recall where I picked it up. adobe pdf reader tried to murder my computer and then i discovered every time i plug in my computer the antimalware kicks in and tries to throttle it. forced obsoleteness is real af. Family situation continues to be a situation. Airing out my dirty laundry online isn’t the best idea so I won’t say it all.

At this point my homework has become secondary and as long as I keep moving I won’t go into despair. Fight on! Those guys at the bookstore from last week said to watch an episode per day… I’ll aim for 2. I never cry, but the weekend I just sat in the bathroom and cried. Sunday was kind of insane is the understatement of the year. Finally cleaned the room and it only took me like 3 weeks. I’ve decided to get into making IRL collages alongside my normal video games ones here. To be honest, that’s just because I put a lot of stuff into baskets and boxes. I keep sleeping at from 2- 4 am and trying to sleep in more. Its tempting. Not working at all. But that’s a bad idea, so I won’t do it. My online friend hates spamton ever since I posted a photo of them but he’s going on the IRL poster. Considering how IRL issues have gone from “some what manageable but I don’t want to” to “completely unsolvable and might make people sad to know how I’m doing” I might cut out this section entirely.

Highlights/ Good things...? I saw a cat in a window!! I’ve been sleeping on the concept of smoothies, these things own!! I can change my cursors to be quote from cave story but I keep forgetting to do so! Cleaning went very well, though I have a case of too much stuff and too little thoughts. Involvement fair means I get up motivated solely by free stuff and I got many free things! A plus. Club opportunities! Fire emblem music lets me study! Good to know. If only it was earlier in the day instead of like… 11 PM. That would’ve helped. I wasn’t expecting the web core posts (back on my old tumblr) to gain any traction. That’s interesting. I ate a very nice sandwich. I bought like 3 books at the grocery store.