An archive of sorts?

11.15 Attempting to draw a single transformer using reference images and convinced that everyone who eventually breaks past that stage gets cracked at drawing them I thought prowl would be easy to draw he is not
11.15 Hot sauce + honey mustard… College brain is coming back. 11.15 "do you think we're friends in every universe?" transformers one has ruined me. 11.15 Why am I pointing and going "thundercracker!!" whenever I thought I vaguely saw blue wings in the movie 11.15 Peppa Pig is owned by Hasbro???
11.15 Can Jem and the Holograms be a thing again, I think the holographic computer could literally just be like Teletraan 1. I want Soundwave to be in a battle of the bands situation. 11.15 Megatron gently lifting up the Lincoln statue so he can sit there is probably the funniest thing I’ve seen in days. He keeps getting countered by Grimlock. 11.15 The transformers livestream moved onto season 2, and Atlantis is real and there are fish people. Megatron is aiming to take over DC.
11:14 No one appreciates a good holiday downtime period anymore, I’ve already seen Christmas decorations up.
11.14 Seals gotta be one of the animals of all time, what do they need to be so round for like i keep getting videos of them in my recommend and there’s not a single thought in their minds and they’ll be curled up like 🍤 shrimp. Shrimp check. My back’s only been getting worse, I can’t imagine what it’ll be like in my 40s. I really need to stretch more often.
11.14 For my next year revolution, I’m going to finish at least 1 Zelda game. Probably through NSO. I’ve been a Nintendo console person for years and have never finished a Zelda…? Well, I’ve played them a bit, stopped, never picked them up again. It’s the same energy of me saying I’ve never played COD or GTA which is true.
11.14 Does it feel like I doth protest too much on mine scroll? 📜 ‘Twas the vision of the scribe that afflicted me! Read it and weep! There’s a small part of my brain that breaks out into medieval speech. I blame my brain for getting hooked onto medieval dramas at the same time as I did FF14.
11.14 “Limitations breed innovation,” I say, and dig out my Nintendo switch that was getting dusty so I can use it to play YouTube city pop playlists. That’s the console’s biggest contribution currently. That and the NSO games. It’s kind of nuts I have like a later generation console and only like 3 switch games all of which I feel were mid so the thing is basically just a glorified virtual console to me. My main concern is what happens when the servers eventually shut down and the subscription expires, everything I’ve touched will be gone. It would be really funny if Nintendo Music was added to the Switch but “that’s what Smash bros music player is for”: words said by Sakurai during a direct.
11.13 "Wanna try this brazilian yogurt candy I bought?" There are new sentences invented every day.
11.12 Prishe I remember from that time my friend mained her in Dissadia alongside FF1 WOL she’s in FF14 now for the latest raids
11.12 Also another thing I’m not articulate on/ awake enough to explain but does it feel like some people substituted like religion for being really into politics and media consumption as a stance? People have always worshipped brands but I feel like there was definitely a paradigm shift during the pandemic time of social medias becoming echo chambers where people got extremely particular about how medias and fandoms are “supposed” to be and like the revival of the grifter type jumping franchise to franchise to spew garbage about some made up nonsense because it didn’t fit what they wanted (which is usually just some generic male guy, white). It was always a 50-50 shot of fandoms being all over the place though and it’s probably just my memory duping me into thinking that things have gotten weirder.
11.12 I’m probably nowhere near articulate enough to say this but I feel personally that during the pandemic time and the time frames of Ukraine and Gaza being attacked that I completely lost faith which makes it kind of like paradoxical about how religion is yet another argumentative topic hot button.
If god is real, why does he let people do horrible things with zero repercussion and the rest of us have to feel powerless because of it Since I have less social media I have less of a good way to help out with spreading information to help out outside of doing daily clicks. I can’t do anything myself so I might as well find ways I can help outside of the daily clicks.
11.12 If I had another tag I’d probably put down cohost as the thing. 11.12 It feels like every CW show is the epitome of infinite typewriters on drama for high schoolers. Smoking on the jingle jangle.
11.12 Gossip Girl is one of the shows. She would’ve loved TikTok.
11.11 Signed up for nice news so I’m not just getting like, bad news every day.
11.10 Despair.png 11.10 Theres things I should be doing or I could be doing but I’m just sitting here listening to music. Sometimes I talk with people and I always end up holding my tongue with “wait, life doesn’t feel like insanely difficult to motivate yourself to do anything? How is that like…?”
11.10 That post show finished feeling where you’re like “idk what to watch”
11.9 Forcing myself to not be stuck in my room by watching the rest of korra. Made a sauce that was a mix of pickle juice, honey mustard, kewpie mayo, and sriracha. It took a lot of balancing to make sure it was like a sauce and not just pickle juice.
11.9 Isn’t it fascinating that your brain can move like 20 miles per hour but your body has input lag so it leads to the most “ugh” feeling possible That’s sleep deprivation for ya.
11.9 There’s a psychological tangle in my brain that I can’t quite explain. Something to do with the values and measures of things that are immeasurable.
11.8 My Twitter is gone but I’ve been feeling absolutely miserable.
11.8 Sometimes I think about what new artists I could add to my influence map and then I see art and go “not like that one” so I know what I want to draw, I just don’t know how to. I feel like if I could figure out what I want to do I’d do it already.
When’s the last time I drew for fun instead of feeling stressed…?
11.7 My twitter backup was ready. It took a while to download. It’s almost 8 GB and. When it finished, I deleted my account. I needed to do it anyways because the policies kept getting worse and worse everytime I logged on. It wasn’t a very happy place. I’m gonna miss some users (A bunch of artists, streamers, some FF14 players), but I was never one to actually communicate with anyone which just makes it awkward. It was the same with tumblr where I almost had people I communicated with (mostly FF14 ask games) but I cut myself off there too. I was on tumblr for a decade from teenager to adult. I have… seen things.
11.7 Some animals have poisonous colors that wade off potential threats but also repulse animals of the same species around them. I felt the same about blue checkmarks.

11.6 It’s gonna be a long 4 years. Stay safe out there.


11.5 I’m nervous as hell about the election and I’ve been nervous about it all day. Like honest to god I’ve been trying my best to not think about it but this is like the sword of Damocles. I don’t want to do anything because I’ll forever associate it with today if things go badly which is only making my nerves worse and my fear spike. I've been avoiding all social media aside from updating my neocities pages.



11.5
I finally started adding in images to the last point and remembered the Sonic runners collab.

11.5
I’m just that guy from adventure time who’s like “I have an approximate knowledge of things”
11.4 Doing dishes sucks sometimes so today I was like “I’m just gonna play ff14 raid themes” and see if that makes me get them done faster and uh, yeah, it was a lot more effective because I was like “the scions of the seventh dawn would really want me to get them done” which is certainly something to think about.
11.4
Extended transformers comics multiverse with multiple characters having vastly different personalities between mediums and cartoons with various levels of seriousness and radical redesigns
Every day the sonic Megaman transformers circle theory gets bigger
11.4
Streaming services suck because it’ll be months before I remember oh yeah I have bumble and then the shows that were there got moved to mumble but hey I could always be on like bubi or moomoo and maybe there will be a free show that I can watch and at this point instead of just having cable we’ve got some services where we keep forgetting passwords and Roku installed even though we had Fire installed and it’s at that point I go to look up “watch cartoon online free” because they basically just reinvented cable and there are a thousand shows on services that are licensed but nothing to watch and like I could watch a show with the brand new super dub but what if I want to watch an earlier dub or god forbid a subbed version of a show that gets radically changed because of music licensing like, no service has dic or cloverway or Rai or 4kids dubs for shows, it’s all the redubs and on one hand it’s better that they have more accurate dubs but on the other I feel like it’s a bit annoying that most things if they aren’t like load bearing historical things absolutely no higher up cares so entertainment stuff always gets shafted unless it’s live action and nothing will be preserved unless it’s illegally distributed or like released from a vault where the company happened to still have the thing. This rant is because one of the shows I specifically had on my list to watch got removed and like who knows where it went, maybe another service, maybe into the media abyss, maybe I should’ve bought a dvd, but why are my only options these days either a convoluted jump from service to service or illegal. This is the same thing I have with old video games in mind too because a lot of companies (actually, no, this is largely a Nintendo thing) are like “why do you want old game? Play new one?” Dude if I want to play anything it's ugh. AGH.
Like if you don’t want people to pirate things then they have to be 1. Easily accessible or 2. Eventually affordable and like I haven’t played a new AAA game in years because I kinda fell into the indie game rabbit hole and I have no comment on that but I do have a certain dislike for the whole “we made a mini console but only some games are on there” and in general I hate the trickle down thing that’s done with games to make them long. Just bring back virtual console.

11.4
My personal issue with self identification and self diagnosis for myself is the underlying paranoia that I could be wrong and misdiagnosing myself because I’ve got so many things actively hindering me in terms of things that actively bother myself and my brain and people around me who are largely abrasive of how I feel about my routine or my feelings and my autonomy and personal space and bubble so like, what do I do if it turns out I am not a thing and it was just me being traumatized to the point it just made me have the same overlapping symptoms. I don’t want to invalidate other people by being like “oh, I have that too” or “oh, I think I have it” because for years people would just lie about the things they said they had as a way to get away with things and like I do not want to categorize myself and jump the gun and then be called a liar and faker.
To be honest, this has been a thing in the back of my mind since that occurrence a while ago where multiple extended relatives took me aside and went “yeah we think you are not neurotypical and have been displaying it for years even with our limited interactions” and like, okay, how do I process that. Where do I even begin with that.
11.4
Putting myself in the proverbial shame corner of “how many things did I actually say I was a fan of where I just finished up the experience through a YouTube LPer and never did it myself”
Rate of completed things to dropped things is ABYSMAL.
11.3
It feels like when I write things down for myself and this micro journal and my IRL journal it’s like I’m trying to convince a child and the child is my brain that’s become so conflict avoidant around one person who refuses to change and aggressively attacks verbally and (previously physically) to get their way which only makes me worse because I internalize which leads to a cycle of me being a doormat. I’m not this expressive IRL.
11.3
Reading an article and realizing that my writing burnout pretty much started in uhh… like, the end of May, which means it’s been 3+ months of me not being able to make long term paragraphs, but the art burnout also started around the same time, which I’m suspecting is not normal. Like this isn’t normal burnout, this is like misery burnout which has been going on since graduation.
11.3
Robot artwork is great, but so is my sanity, and I haven’t posted any art on that site in like almost a year and I feel like I’m just silently logging in and too afraid to actually say anything I want because of how hostile I feel the site is. And I should’ve deleted it a long time ago because every time I login I’m reminded of how much the world sucks and there’s nothing I can do to change anything because of how other people in power make bad decisions.
I’m probably not moving to blue sky either. I’m heavily considering that if any site (DW, PF, or Neocities) vanished I straight up wouldn’t have any more online presence.
11.3
THEY SHUT DOWN THE TUMBLR SEXYMAN WIKI
11.3
Powerscaling is stupid but hilarious when you put a cartoon character against a strong guy because twitter will unite to calculate how fast Sportacus can completely own Homelander
11.3
Current thoughts: the reason for a lack of “what if” fanfic in large media things is because they do exist, they’re called “what if” and “theory” videos on YouTube
I’m going to @myself right now, I am not getting back into video editing, I made joke posts for fun on a whim and I had a job for making videos and never again at this point and time the best way for me is to just lock myself in my room (the time chamber) with a blank piece of paper and eventually I will get bored enough that the words will be on the paper or I’ll start talking to myself to generate the ideas
11.3
YouTube keeps recommending me videos of sports racer cars. Like formula 1.
11.3
I feel like the media log and like the site in general were kind of lying dormant in my mind and I just passively existed until something in my brain snapped and I was like “oh rats, I’m a human being and I need proof of my existence beyond IRL so I don’t go nuts” and that was like. Literally this year. They weren’t kidding when they said your brain develops in its 20s.

11.2
There’s a whole bag of Halloween candy that didn’t get outside so now I’m here eyeing it akin to like a snake with a bird’s nest
11.2
Sometimes its a double edged thing to watch old cartoons because you go ooh, old art techniques and somewhat funny jokes that still hold up and then they’ll casually drop the racism
11.2
Sometimes I end up lying down in bed for hours on end and my brain is screaming at me to do things and the other part of me is like “mmm no” and it’s really frustrating because I have to DO things but the moment I have time to myself i just completely crash and self sabotage.
11.2
Transformers rules because I’ll see a guy in fanart or a comic panel and go “who’s that guy” and then it turns out they have a laser samurai robot and I’ll be like “sick.”
11.1
Really funny that I went “how am I gonna get images of refs for my OCs” when I still have a perfectly working game I can screenshot them with like the fool
11.1
I have two flavors of character enjoyment and one is “ohhh the little scrimble the little blorbini…” and the other one is “trap that guy in a maze right now.” Sometimes it’s both at the same time.
11.1 It’s always funny seeing Bumblebee because I’ll be like “aww little guy” but then I remember the g1 casting sheet labeled him as 19 years old. That is a college student who would be in a frat.
10.31 Bit weird doing the usual of handing out candy and some of the kids are dead silent. Not even a trick or treat.
10.31 Trying to find any kind of vaguely Halloweenish hat to wear which didn’t happen but I did find a jester hat I’ve never seen before in my life. Assigned jester by household.
10.31
Elaborating on my stupid pokemon trainer thing with Victor being a cartoon character. He would wear a nightcap. He would smell a pie and start floating in the air.

10.31 The most terrifying thing of all. Deadlines. Which I definitely won’t hit.
10.30 Nintendo Music. There’s a good chance that Nintendo Phone might be real too. Is SilvaGunner still ongoing? The meme outlasted the actual channel. 10.30 Anyone else notice that YouTube apparently doesn’t show the time left til you can skip an ad. I’m annoyed by that so much.
10.30 I’m still playing through my baby blue no evolutions first stages only run I kinda wish more eviolites were available because playing games with not fully evolved Pokémon is an extreme handicap The only games that don’t have that issue were spin-offs (rangers, mystery dungeon, rumble maybe?) but you were still encouraged to evolve or use better stat pokemon
10.30 Anyone out there haunted by flash games that don’t work anymore Digipet by everything girl I want one of those things because I just remembered he existed
10.30 Every single ff14 artist I was following at some point was also into transformers What does this mean The Megaman artists too The allure of big robot
10.29 So I’ll make a microblog archive page once 2024 ends. It’ll look exactly like the main page, but maybe I will add in a different image. Like a bumper or something.
10.28 I goofed up and when I deleted the feed thing it deleted my entire thing so no one knows shrine October is up yet until I fix the links another day. Lmao.
10.28 In pokemon it’s a coin flip to whether you care more about the pokemon or the people and the balance is straight up not happening for me. I think I’m dropping masters.
10.28
Actually looking at SA2 and STH and the glow up art style evolution is actually insane maybe sonic humans should’ve been Pixar the whole time

In my mind I always thought sonic characters would pair up pretty well with anime as well since SEGA used to have a lot of anime esque RPGs. In 2D only though, like, Elise doesn’t work because she’s too anime esque, she’s too far in the other direction. Something like Puyo Puyo characters are more aligned with my vision.

Remembers Segagaga existed Oh they already did that here look at Astal
Outside of making random appearances on Archie Sonic covers has Sega ever like. Done anything with that guy. I mean, the same could be said for Ristar and Clockwork Knight. SEGA’s library is kind of less known to me for current games but for the most part in house I think it’s like. Yakuza. Puyo. Virtua fighter if they remember it exists. Sonic. I think they have Atlus money and Miku is there. They kind of publish and fund more nowadays as a third party.
Here look. This game managed to make me feel something about Alex Kidd’s mascot replacement thing and then I went “they remembered” when he was teased for Worlds Unite.

Tbh Worlds Unite from Archie was also this but that story makes me fume because they FUMBLED in all directions, the maverick sky patrol fight was LAME, the setup was literally in the middle of the ongoing crisis for Sonic when it couldn’t have had worse timing, some OC that everyone in both fandoms hated got the last blow on Sigma

How are you gonna combine all of that and make MID

10.28
You ever think about how a lot of the villains in pokemon games basically don’t go to jail?
I think it’s kind of mildly bizzare how they basically casually had terrorists pop up like nearly every 3 years timeline wise at least until gen 7 where they were like “no the real enemy is the systems that allow for the youths to be disenfranchised and also the process of grief”
I mean, I can’t really imagine a pokemon game where they send the villain to real jail, because like, they’d just use their pokemon to break out.
10.28
Suspicious emails near you that you don’t remember signing up for? Yeah, welcome to job hunting. 10.27
Listening to disco while coding because I’m the type of person who easily falls for YouTube thumbnails of an album
10.27
I’m currently thinking the funniest thing a social media could do is outside of having a post cap like tumblr does is making it so that people can only post like. Every 30 minutes. You’d have to really think about what you’d want to say. You can also only watch 1 video unless it’s over that amount.
Imagine if every site had discord slow mode. We could achieve peace.
10.27
Oh yeah, I never did follow up on the eye chart/ hair color thing for the counterparts. I only did Red.
10.27
The fun part of joining a large long running franchise late is that you basically have years of stuff to look at Unfun part: I was tempted to buy figurines knowing I have no money and would have no ability to assemble them Worse part: There was a limited time plushie that was Japan Exclusive and therefore the imports would be insane to get the thing Here take this image instead
10.26
The thing that makes starscream funny as hell to me is judging by context of other episodes and other canons if he locked in he’d get things done but if he gets his wings scratched he bails immediately
10.26
this show sucks sometimes they’ll show me some guy and be like “you know this guy” no I don’t that’s some background character
10.26
So MapleStory Fest has new global exclusive features and they even got a exclusive sprite animation that wasn’t something that was flash animated or tweened or a facsimile like new leaf saga was years ago for it but like, the amount of global stuff that has 1. Existed and 2. Been removed because it got buggy and outdated is a coin flip so idk on that one chief GMS has been like the spaghetti code game for years
10.26
I opened up a can of salmon today. I thought it would be shredded like tuna but nope, it really was just a whole salmon minus the head.
10.26
I saw a clip of like, one of the new 3D transformers shows and I saw a chin goatee and I immediately went “I need a razor stat” petition to shave off that ugly thing
10.26
I was using my tablet in my bed and the plug pulled… I strained it… :(
10.25
I’ve never watched a studio ghibli movie outside of Ponyo so everytime I see something that people call the “ghibli aesthetic” or like those very obviously generated images it’s getting to the point that I’m actively like. Thrown off by actual artwork of it.
10.25
I think another problem of me being wary of interaction now is that what if I meet a new person that were like old groups I dealt with and then they’re on a level that I can’t match up to and the vibes are weird
To be honest, I could also just be the weird one, it’s not like I’m not weird, have you seen my opinions, some of them are godawful.
10.25
Pinterest is as usual my roulette. My poison of choice.
10.25
Wanting to break out of art hiatus, making an influence map, influence map is almost 1 to 1 with artists I already have in my inspiration gallery, I need to find more artists to inspire me like, yesterday.
10.25 Hell is trying to research artists and slop results clogging up what’s real or not.
10.24 I think my shrines are also doubling as toyboxes.
10.24 Gifcities being down since the internet archive attack is making it very hard for me to find older gifs, so I have to look through the MOMG. I wish there was a slightly better way to do this than door hopping. To be fair, I was also doing this exact same thing years ago when this was just an FF14 site.
10.23 I don't like webps very much which makes it slightly more difficult to get images for shrines when they're all "oops, webp."
10.23 It’s not even Christmas yet and my brain is torturing me by looping songs.
10.23
I’m glad they keep making more poketoons and like the pokemon are doing their own thing where they’re chilling and being like weird beings instead of like mascots That chansey was bouncing and being all micschevious and dubious like a fae instead of just like how in the anime it’s always like… there. Truly the embodiment of being a critter. The pocket monster. Like some pokemon are natural and some are supernatural and this chansey was definitely more supernatural.
Like if it wasn’t pokemon I could see this being like it’s own story. You can show this to a person who hasn’t played pokemon and they could get it. The art style kind of reminds me of precure a bit. For the human OCs at least.
10.22
Stumbled onto an old Pokemon fan site on the internet archive and it’s kind of weird seeing the fanart like, accurately reflect the change in art style right up to XY.
10.22
Why do I stack up days for the blog I only post the microblog when I update other pages too I don’t want to be on activity page just with the blog.
10.22 Clams are so weird. Why do they even have tongues. It’s their foot.
10.22 YouTube cooks will be out there wrapping up Scottish eggs within multiple meats just because they can Excessive. Looks tasty though.
10.22 You know, I literally have like, a mini computer in my hands I could be using for research and knowledge and instead I’m just using it to watch street food videos and listen to Japanese fusion jazz. Fascinating world.
10.22 What’s worse than being terrible to watch Being mid
10.22 People were NOT lying when they said hell is living with your parent(s) in your 20s
10.21 The constant monkey paw of “What if a niche thing you liked got super popular and it got super annoying and the new audience completely misread the source material” leading to a billion YouTube arguments forever

10.21 There’s a scene where starscream starts talking and megatron’s hand starts balling into a fist like dude chill
Chip is dodging the acid rain somehow
10.21 The art of jumping.
10.21 You know you’re completely cooked when you can start recognizing the recolors as their own individual characters by name
That’s blue starscream his name is Thundercracker and purple starscream his name is Skywarp and sometimes the artists accidentally recolor them in scenes where it’s supposed to be regular starscream
10.21 I don’t want a job centered on making phone calls, my phone can barely survive as is with the deprecated battery lol
10.21 Fanartists will have interpretations of Sonic where it more or less is like “Sonic is some chaotic force of nature that does everything on a whim and people are terrified of him because of how he’s unexplainable to science and prophecy alike and what if he just stops being nice one day” and also “Sonic is just some guy that showed up” and sometimes they’re the same fanartist. Like I don’t think about sonic very often but he does have an interesting morality thing in the black knight where the final boss is like “I’m gonna make this world last forever so no one can suffer” and Sonic just goes “that’s nice, I’ll play the role of the villain, die.”
10.21
You ever try to think and then there’s like 20 different noises in the background and instead of concentrating on your thing the only thing you hear is someone else’s thing 10.21 TPC is going on the hunt now so that one guy on Twitter who’s been showing everything is probably not going to make it out alive
10.21 Being in my room job hunting day in and day out does not give me the will to be in this world for long Why don’t you listen to some hourly animal crossing music and maybe you’ll calm down
10.21 Pokemon Z was actually real and not just hypothetical like people surmised from the Zygarde content getting moved over I dont think there’s been a generation more screwed over pre switch than XY, jeez The HGSS to BW gap lore wise is 8 years hypothetically but Pokémon timeline canon is literally just whatever at this point It works on comic book time and at any given time the writers can just pull it back for a remake Least it’s not the animation where everyone is literally trapped in the same year because Ash stopped aging and time never actively passed
10.21 Sometimes having basic taste is ok because it means I don’t have a glup since I’ve got my focus on a main guy and I will never be in the pits because I have a popular guy who will constantly be a guy Thank you popular guy
10.21 Yeah like a few months ago I would’ve been like “woah guys wow look at this!” And now I’m chill AF so I’m like “oh, interesting.”
10.21 Teraleak’s got masters content now They’ve even got concept art turnarounds This is the time where I go “man I wish my pokemon cohost wasn’t already dead” because I’d be covering the hell out of this stuff there
10.21 Load bearing catbox.
10.21 Pink noise.
10.20 I’m kind of good on wanting to participate in fandom type of stuff anymore because I have the worst luck and tended to end up in spaces where everyone is loud and insufferable and prickish and consistently entitled in the sense of “the thing SUCKS they should do it MY way” and their way is so far removed from the actual source material it’s almost comical like they wandered in from the mirror dimension of the thing sucking and they were never satisfied with the thing but spent too much time on the thing to not be into the thing anymore
The minute I get bored of a thing though I drop it like a hot rock and it’ll take years before I even remember I was into a thing. me: Hmm, this thing is no longer bringing joy, adios.
10.20
The age old MMO communication by jumping skill
It’s weird seeing the old assets and new ones together tbh Like henesys and maple island were changed for years Lith harbor has been the same for 20 years now
10.20
So instead of checking out artale again since it’s the biggest most popular one and therefore full all the time I checked out maple hero It’s giving uh Bootleg mobile flash game vibes
When the assets don’t properly load in you’re trapped in the black void and you have to wait before the assets load in and actually keep in your input Black void could easily just be a jumpscare though if anyone wants to try making a MapleStory spooky time or whatever
Wow, the same amount of input lag as regular MapleStory Great I can’t tell if the jank is on my end or the game 10.20
Giving me the ability to dress up anytime I want is leading to me switching up my fit every time
You don’t think of how many new MapleStory assets are just like overdesigned and so clashing with the old art style til they’re all lined up like this
Which creator added in the white lady I’m saying that like I didn’t already seen an amongus. 10.20
Maybe I should get into watching sports or something as a hobby. Sometimes birds show up on the field. The refs sometimes start roasting the players.
10.20
Sonic team really said “let’s give the fans what they want and let them collab fanart wise too” like this is the turnaround after years of the meta era I think they got Korone as a costume in frontiers too
10.20
I like how sonic shadow gens basically recontextualized the entirety of sonic gens because meanwhile while Sonic’s going on a cool anniversary adventure of meeting his past self and going on adventures in this celebration of all the things he’s done shadow is facing the sins of his creator and going to hell and fighting demons and then he just shows up at the end of the time eater fight like he didn’t relive 20 thousand traumas just like OG Shadow the Hedgehog
I’m glad Sonic Team finally went “wait, shadow is literally the coolest thing ever, we made a guy called the ultimate lifeform, why did we stuff him into the don’t use closet, he’s sick as hell”
It’s kinda jarring hearing some of the bosses that haven’t been used in years with new VAs but it makes sense SEGA wouldn’t just use the old guys since they’re union or retired or dead. Doesn’t apply to the JP dub since they tend to just keep the same guys in for seniority’s sake unless they die or get into a BIG scandal.
10.20 “Live and Learn, Sonic!” “You must advance, sonic!”
10.20
… they already leaked shadow gens The technology does go crazy though, a model of human characters that isn’t limited by the Dreamcast or 06 I think the last time we saw humans full time was unleashed and they were distinctly more cartoony/pixar-ish for a lack of better words
Remember the whole “sonic is in two worlds thing” Fundamentally breaks apart shadow’s story because the whole point was the human military causing problems for this alien DNA hybrid hedgehog
10.20
How do those food guys record their stuff anyways, with a real camera or a phone one? Nah, phone one would probably be like, blurry and hard to properly get. Not a bulky camera then…
10.20
You ever wonder why whenever Japanese is written down in a 4kids production it gets scrubbed to be blank or in English? Well, 4kids would give their footage to international companies so it could be dubbed into their languages. This process would continue until 4kids got like, vaporized for yugioh crimes by Konami and turned into solely a yugioh dubbing company (4k media.) there are definitely some details I’m getting wrong though.
10.20 Watching through the trials of shredder and it’s really fascinating how 4kids which was known for it’s notorious localization practices of basically removing everything violent and weapons wise were just allowed to do everything they wanted crimes wise with shredder in 2003 TMNT. Guess that’s what happens when it’s an in house production. 10.20
Last time I was in any maple community they were extremely disgruntled by the rigged stats thing so I don’t really want to be back anytime soon. What an interesting bunch, a lot of them didn’t even enjoy what they were doing but sunk cost dictated they keep playing.
10.20
I doubt maple pservers will even be slightly affected by worlds recreations but I just wanna know if this will change any long term discussions of “we want old thing back” and then when they get redirected to worlds (artale, lands) they’ll go “no not that one!”
10.20 Egg salad burger… with pickles and onion…
10.19 There are so many devices in the world made for hamburger
10.19 I miss college food trucks so bad I miss my dorm I miss not feeling like I’m going nuts being stuck in a single house I miss the car free place I lived in I hate living next to a spot that goes immediately into traffic GRAHHHHHH
10.19 For street food videos, I guess they ask permission b4 recording.
10.19
Returning to all my old habits now from the pandemic in the world’s worst emotional “lalala” moment as I take impromptu naps and watch street food videos as if I haven’t had a lack of hunger for months on end I was doing so good too and now it’s like all my progress of “taking off the internet” got set back to 0 because of my lame emotions.
10.19 So I’ve finally checked out Artale Basically the OSMS everyone and their grandma craved for years The first boss The dice roll
Stop giving me 10 Luk Guess I’m gonna be a mage
I walked through OSMS already wearing cash clothes and this is what it’s like to be a henehoe I guess before they forced old MapleStory fits onto me This is NOT fashion story, I’ve been playing for a few hours and already feels like I’m back to my old ways
I can’t even emote F4 its over 10.19
I’ve been spending more time in the shop customizing my maple land avatar than playing any game
The more I look in the shop the more I’m convinced nexon just copy pasted from maplesim The user made ones all have Korean memes there too and I wish I could understand it because I’m sure it’s funny as hell
so basically nexon made their own Roblox? It feels way floatier and I’m like 50% guessing it’s based off the MapleStory mobile engine
First game I’m at: an idle rpg…?
10.19
MapleStory worlds came out and I was tempted by my sins (mushroom game) Nexon has a game launcher for some reason I never really had a main, but I guess I’ll be the straight laced paladin.
Hellshake Yano.
10.19 Found the name of that bear thing He’s called jokebear I’ve never felt more relatable to this thing in my life 10.19
Kinda fascinating that emotions are like proportional to how much your will to live fluctuates or not depending on how close other people are to you The proximity scale

10.18
Adding in some images so it isn't just blank. Too bad it's busted the thumbnail.
10.18
How in the world is the teraleak even going to be categorized or saved without TPCi blowing up everyone involved. I feel like that’s harder to ignore than the gigaleak…
10.18
This week’s been a freaking fever dream for online stuff. Offline has been the exact damn same thing as usual with my lack of a job and lack of a will to wake up at 7 am to do the boring ass grind. I feel like a lot of issues stem from my living residence not feeling like I’m particularly like welcome or safe within it so my coping mechanism has been “pretending like I’m not dealing with it” and it’s not working.
10.18
I saw a Pinterest recipe for air fried egg toast so naturally I was like “sure, whatever, egg toast.” I was immediately suspicious of the end result since it was perfectly toasted and sure enough, inside was runny. I get violently ill whenever I eat runny eggs these days so I flipped that thing over to cook longer.
It was pretty good though once I flipped it over. The second one I was pushed into making for someone else despite my wariness of cooking it again immediately exploded though which is pretty much what I was worried would’ve happened with the first one.
Breakfast is such a contentious thing.
10.17 Fall feels agonizingly long, summer never lasts long enough.
10.17 Got so bored I rearranged every single screenshot on my phone by source.
10.17 Not moving to blue sky. Honestly, my major thought of “I’m gonna live in the internet woods and randomly pop up” is sounding more like reality by the day.
10.17 My cohost export was delivered to me so I can technically make the site look slightly more manageable posts wise…? It’s all JSON files, never mind. Eesh. And JPEGs… okay, so maybe I’ll stick with the format page I currently have. In total, I had around like, 650 posts. Mostly on my pokemon side page which overtook the main. Guess that’s it.
10.17
I can keep the site map as is, just adjust it to not have all the stuff around on it anymore. I guess.

10.17
As a person who knew someone who was really into one direction, seeing that news kinda hit. Dang.
10.16
Esto es el fin, El Grande Padre. Leave Red Shaggy to me, Gohan.
Cell Dorado… It’s been 7 years since that came out…
10.16
Jiren is a funny DB character because like the whole thing about the tournament of power was that it was about the fate of the multiverse and the ultimate final boss for Super and DBZ ever was a gray alien 👽 guy who also had El Hermano. DB cultural popularity is unmatched, the way the TOP was actually live-streamed and Toei was like “don’t do that” and multiple places still did that anyways. I hope that Gohan Calvo is the next DBSZ mod. Duracell.
10.16
Feel’s like there’s a lot of songs that end up being like “the song used for animatics and various memes” that basically end up on nearly every single OC page anyways. Anyways, what a full album's worth. Not even a single song, just the whole album at this point. Maybe the mashups too.
10.16
Is it wrong for me to basically just go “well, with the power of imagination and this baseball bat, you too can defeat the horrors” for my horror based story concept where it more or less is the monsters have to rely on inherent fear but if someone’s from the wrong genre or god forbid sets up their house like it’s home alone then they’re totally cooked. “If I hit it hard enough until it stops moving then I win” clown logic.
10.16
Gamefreak’s MS paint esque stand ins for pokemon placeholder sprites are great. I love the guy who was just a little bean with a sprout during gen 2.
10.16
🧍‍♂️ So hoenn was supposed to be before RGBY timeline wise. Seriously, what the heck is the Pokémon timeline because once you get to ORAS the timeline snaps in half because of mega evolutions and multiverses. Maybe they’re all just in a vacuum or something.
10.16
I rarely talked about pokemon spinoffs here but one of those things that refuses to leave my mind is gates of infinity which pretty much exists as the one game that is considered “okay” but I’ve heard out of context spoilers for.

10.5
Why do I keep journal entries and the diary if they cover such uncomfortable topics and I just sound bizarre sometimes…?
Well, I want “proof of existence”. I have suspected that I’ve had large memory gaps because of the uncomfortable topics, and I don’t have anywhere I’ve ever like chronicled my memories aside from my childhood journals. Aside from that, I kept the log from when I was on tumblr and like, it made no sense to cut the habit out of my life. It’s not that different from when I would check out other people’s blog spots where sure, they’d talk about their topic of choice, but they’d also mention IRL things too. I want to see myself grow through my entries where sure, I have problems, but like, I’d like to remember that there’s plenty of other things I’ve gotten past too.
10.4
Big fan of how pomni has like sad eyes always but before the new episode I need to finish murder drones first.
10.4
I was getting kind of annoyed with someone because they were like all over the place and I channeled like the energy of an elementary teacher and said “okay it’s calm down time now” and literally we did nothing for a few minutes and somehow that led to peace.

10.4
I wonder how many shrines are gonna be dedicated to stuff that like. Isn’t even accessible anymore. Funniest one is probably gonna be the webcomic one. Currently uploading like the finished ones and starting to note I'm almost at like the 40% mark of MB so I really need to like reduce the number of images that are probably not being used, i.e, everything on the cohost page I'm procrasinating. As it turns out, the jukebox embedding feature doesn't work on neocities so I'm just gonna have to get rid of that feature at a later point.
10.3
In the world of fanart drawing you either get really good at drawing robots or drawing animals. I’m kind of more on like a far more cartoon side and I used to draw like mega man classic characters because like, they did lean more cartoony initially. I have no clue how I’d be able to draw any transformer currently. It’s gonna be a long haul.
10.2
Doing the icon sorting thing and like the art evolution is fascinating to look at in real time because most of the art for icons I had for pokemon adventure/special was mostly before like the hiatus digital art switch and since Ruby doesn't have white hair and it's black most of my brain is registering new Ruby as looking like Blake instead of Ruby. Because of sameface. I'm glad for mass renaming so I can just go "name" and then it goes "name (1)" instead of me having to manually rename them (I still have to do that because I have to remove the parentheses)
10.2
I redownloaded everything off my webcore tumblr again for recreational purposes to see if I could add stuff to the site. I’ve never been much of an RP-er on tumblr as much as I was in the ask blog era of things (I used to have one for my ff14 group and maybe I’ll do something with that info, maybe not.)
10.2
I feel like a lot of newer shows these days being shortened in episode and season length and mostly made so that every episode needs to be watched to fulfill some kind of “lore” does ultimately make it more difficult for TV airings especially if it’s a cartoon where a lot of episodes need to be watched beforehand because of an overarching plot. Normally big plot stuff in my days were 2 parters. Now it’s more or less like stuff is scattered everywhere for the sake of rewatch value. I think it’s neat, but I could also do with more shows that are just antics on the daily that you can watch in like any order.
10.2
I saw an episode on the livestream of like starscream like resurrecting his old friend/ coworker from ann iceberg and then his coworker immediately left for the autobots. I know he was fuming, it was kind of sad though.
10.2

Being on Pinterest is a fascinating experience because the algorithm is a roulette of reminding me that in the sea of foul AI images incredible memes exist and also simultaneously activating my almonds about things I forgot, like that Rafe guy from the middle school book who pulled off like devious pranks. Does anyone remember the plot twist about like, I’m probably misremembering it, but like the guy who was his silent bro the whole time was an imaginary friend based off Rafe’s dead twin and his brain was in denial the whole time? That’s kind of nuts to just throw in as a plot element.
10.2
They got three of that little robot dude now.
10.2
When your primary audience is marketing a kid’s show for selling toys to boys, usually there’s a principle of having like a single girl who is like maybe an implied love interest for a protagonist or like sidelined to doing some sort of non fighting thing, like Madoka from beyblade metal fusion who was the tech girl versus the fighting girl, there was a fighting girl but she got impaled and got traumatized to the point she never bladed again. What then normally happens is the audience and fandom ignoring the girl. I don’t know what’s going on with transformers and I’ve only watched the gen 1 show for like an hour with the 6 hour long supercut and then moved to the livestream but I feel like there’s going to be like. Some mystical pink transformer. I think I saw her in fanart once.
10.2
I am learning many things about the world, such as the term genwunners originating from transformers.
10.2
How many times am I going to utilize the phrase ship of Theseus? Note to self: find more boats for Greek allegorical comparisons. Or just use the word paradox
10.2
Thinking about Video Essays again. Ultimately though a lot of people also end up listening to other people’s filtered down video essay opinions and for every essay that is at length someone will go “can I get a tl;dr” because like. You need to retain the attention span of the viewer.
Everything really does come down to memes again. The ones that spread the most are the most palatable version for appealing to peoples tastes. History, arts, philosophy, politics, they live and die by the meme. The personalities of characters become malleable and reduced down to their most marketable and easy one note traits in order to fulfill the meme quota of putting an impact font caption under them. Then again you also end up with people like me who make things needlessly complex in a philosophical sort of analytic way when the real answer was usually “the developers got rid of that thing because they thought it sucked and they wanted more money. lol.”
10.2
A lot of interpersonal conflict seems to be that living with people who constantly want things to go their way on their time and their schedule and a person (me) who is largely vibes only and go with the flow leads to a lot of irate feelings because ultimately I feel like everything being done is a large time waster and the incessant need to domineer and steer and micromanage everyone’s lives around them leads to more resistance. Suggestions would work more than attempting force. Can I say that in a useful way? Not exactly.
10.2
I only knew dreamwave from their Megaman comic when I was into reading Megaman comics, but they also have transformers comics too… I feel like October forcibly became transformers month.
10.2
Starting off with gen 1 since it’s on the official YouTube That noise transformers make is like super cool it’s like “wah eh ooh ooh” I just saw megatron turn into a gun
I like how transformers lore is like do people ever question how aliens literally existed to the point that they looked like trucks and vehicles that could be found on earth or were people in the movies just like “huh, that’s pretty weird that robot looks like a Mercedes .” Anyways. I mean it’s in the intro, they’re robots in disguise. More than meets the eye. Clearly something happens to make them look like that.
That one robot decepticon just sounds like he’s got a discord voice mod, this is great actually. I missed watching a show with this amount of like cartoon cheese. The humans in this show really saw the deceptions pull up and immediately started throwing stuff at them and megatron just threw a pipe at them.
10.2
Continuing to look at clips of starscream. Why does he do the things he does. He makes like crow noises in different languages. He’s wearing stilettos in a different iteration, he’s got the heels as his rocket things even in g1. He’s got SpongeBob’s VA in one of them. He folds his wings like a little bug. I said I was gonna watch code lyoko. But now I’m watching transformers. This is probably like the fastest a singular character has forcibly dragged me into something I would’ve never paid attention to otherwise. I think the only exposure I’ve had to transformers was like, maybe a Micheal bay movie. Idk. lol.
10.2
Got into footage of transformers devastation and alright I was not familiar with your game these robot trucks are way more complicated than I thought Optimus is pulling off crazy air combos It’s kind of really juxtaposed with like these robots are on an epic clash for the universe and world but simultaneously they can also turn into cars. This is great.
10.2
Today on scary October, I find out about a ghost cow that was literally just an actual cow Funny as hell actually the residents of this town in NJ were like “there’s a scary thing there” and it’s just an underfed cow you guys have the devil chilling there Weird New Jersey the magazine is like the ultimate thing that makes a person go “zoinks, Scoob, let’s not go to jersey!”

10.2, restless bedtime procrasionation period
I’ve begun watching clips of G1 transformers and starscream is rewiring my brain why does he sound like that 10.2
I gotta stop looking at YouTube video thumbnails before going to sleep because my front page will be “SCARY GAME JUMPSCARE from a thing you forgot you watched” and I’ll go eek! And then I won’t sleep. It sucks to be semi into horror but also afraid of the horrors, I could never watch a scary movie my scared ass would not sleep! 10.2
Animal crossing has those emote icons… I could use that for my new journal…

10.1
I still don’t have the older ones in proper chronological order for September but WHAT DID THEY DO TO THE EDITOR EUGH. I don't like it. Why is it higlighting my lines now. Why is every apostrophe in a BOX.
10.1
My current new impulsive project for the month is making shrines for things that I am in or not in or things that lie dormant in me like a sleeper until they are called to the forefront of my mind again.
Which leads to the difficulties of mostly using templates for the site: When you find one that would fit perfectly for the latest project but oops, it’s not responsive. Responsiveness and flex boxing are way beyond me at this point. I should really learn though. And maybe fix up some parts like the Eorzea page, I used the sad girl template for the tribute but something went terribly wrong with it.
10.1
Changing up my site for the fall with the power of gathering like a ton of images off the animal crossing wiki. The current thought is “what if I made the homepage seasonal, let me get a nice bg to use, oh, animal crossing wallpapers might work really well for tiles.” Who knows, maybe I’ll make one for the winter and spring too! It hasn’t been added in yet, mostly what I’m doing is bookmarking them for my computer usage. The BG page is gonna be big again. I should really work on my cohost tribute first but I think I’m slacking of on it since it’s such a large amount of stuff I’m gonna have to parse through and spoiler and unspoiler and whatnot.
10.1
I feel like maybe as the year ends I’ll move journal entry stuff back to the other page and just make the new one a truly “new” one. Does that make sense? Probably not.
10.1
I’ve decided to head back to amayaicons and get more pokemon adventures icons, namely that of the RSE cast since that’s as far as the tumblr user went. There’s not any other icons for later gens after unless I start making custom icons which uh… nope. Maybe I should start getting more RP icons to use that aren’t just pokemon? I do have Es from Alter Ego for the writer’s journal…
Well, what other franchise and fandom largely defines like…me? Uhhh… Kirby. Does Kirby have an effective RP group? No. The pokemon icons stay.
10.1
I think a funny thing about me is that I’ve actually been watching the rabbids show and enjoying the antics of those screaming proto minions. It’s been a year since I’ve been checking out Rayman related things like the games and shows, isn’t that weird to think about. I’ve been meaning to get back into Wakfu as well, so this might turn into like, French Fall. Wait, code lyoko is also French. Guess I’m doing French now.

10.1
It’s no longer just scary October, it’s shrine October, where I prove I am not a one trick horse and forcibly talk to you about sonic the hedgehog comics.
I’m listening to Charlie Brown’s pumpkin waltz. I don’t remember the last time I’ve genuinenly enjoyed a holiday except when it was on college campus. Last thanksgiving (2 years ago since I apparently deleted 2023 from my memory) I didn’t even get regular food with my other parent we went to Boston market and it sucked ass and we just got sushi instead. I feel like maybe a lot of holidays could be improved if we didn’t stick to the normal meals all the time.
10.1
Let’s give it up for October, where i inevitably go on a journey writing about idk like, tails doll or something getting shoved into a washing machine. because it's time for scary things. like the rumors page.
In order to ensure the site can properly be rated PG-13 I can only use the F word once. Crap is fine though apparently. But like which part of the site deserves to have it. The singular “f you…”

I posted this and I completely screwed up on the chronological order so instead of it being most recent to past it's past to most recent so the stuff from 9.30 is at the bottom and like. I am not fixing that right now, I'll do that later.
9.30
Working on my other cohost recreation page and losing it at how many images i have used, saving them, and then like im probably not gonna even use a good amount of them once i upload the page to neocities. Like the compressor isnt helping either, how did i end up having more MB dedicated to this than my own art gallery currently...
9.28
Party hasn’t even been that long and I’m already at that point where I wanna curl in a ball and go home. Great.
9.29
Visited a site on mobile and got banished to a mobile zone which, fair, a lot of sites aren’t designed for mobile, understandable.
Why is my site so mobile optimized aside from me breaking things? Well, I built it on really responsive and nice templates which were on the credits page, but my laptop is very old. It’s lasted me all through college, and it’s not really built for like… intensive kind of work anymore. So when I’m double checking stuff to make sure I don’t have any glaringly obvious errors, I use my mobile thing. And it would be kind of defeating the point if the site doesn’t have a good way for me to check on my mobile if I use it secondarily…
9.29
I’ve got plenty of shows on my list to watch, but, I’m thinking about watching code lyoko again. XANA was kind of a crazy menace.
9.29
I don’t think I was ever supposed to be able to look under ralt’s little hair thing during raids and see it’s eyes, looks like numbah 4 from kids next door

9.30
I’m not retiring the journal pages but now that I made the blog page there’s a clear difference between both pages, right…?
I’m thinking about doing this big manga reading challenge thing as my major timesink for the fall and playing through other games. The journals I’ve got will still be updating with things I find but usually everything was posted to cohost first and I’ve already wrote about how it’s gonna be weird when I go to post something on cohost and then I won’t be able to. I’m still keeping my journal post thing as more of like a long monthly report kind of thing like an overview, but since September was so scattered I probably won’t for this month in particular.
9.30
So in terms of like, finding a doctor it’s not just a care physician, it seems like the main goal is also finding a mental health one because…
Not a big fan of social interaction or weird noises and like when I said I projected my traits on the protag headcanon page and I’m rereading it I’m starting to suspect I’ve got things beyond what my therapist said I had.
The problem is like between the traits I was taught and the traits I already have from being in an environment that is normally hostile and it’s like, okay, what part of this is mental illness and what part of this was just me being borderline manipulated and emotionally harmed Since I’m getting denied on the end of “i was threatened if my grades were bad” I can’t evaluate that as a part of what I had.
You guys ever read Amelia Bedelia? I’ve tried to explain to that person that since I take things literally that I never do anything they imply I should do.
9.30
Politics were also a factor I think into the whole brain melting thing that I know a lot of people personally experienced where their relatives just lost the plot and the internet didn’t help either because people treat politics like a spectacle.
The memory gap of literally everything was probably just my brain trying to protect me from how insane everything got. Too bad I can’t really remember anything from any time frame whatsoever.
Seriously. Aside from things I write down I have no memory outside of select events.
9.30
Why did KazoWAR who hasn’t posted for 2 years drop a video for reviving a blissey with 65535 HP and why did i watch it all. DPP’s center theme is that good i guess.
9.30
Back on Pinterest Who is this French comic boy on my timeline.
9.30
How is small web September already over what was I doing where did September even go. Tomorrow’s October. Good grief. I really need to get it together. I don’t even know what the “together” is in my mind, but certainly it can’t be this. Like. Vaguely shrugging.

9.28
I need to start looking at more books for like self help stuff. I had an extended family convo and I’m reevaluating a lot of things RN. My feeling of being like, stifled and overwhelmed might have pointed in directions I’ve never really expected in life. For mine, anyways. I’m in this kind of awkward period of “uhhhh. Hmm.”
9.28
I grew up in the era where there was a lot of social stigma against mental health and most things I knew about it were like, if you were different, that’s bad. Add in the foreign perspective of “if my kid is bad then I’m bad” and basically I was taught to apply every social situation and life application as life or death as in “if I do bad I will get a bad grade in friend points and I will be yelled at so I need to be good enough to pass so I will not be yelled at and gain good social points.” So learning that practically everyone in my extended family thinks I was not passing is certainly an position to learn.
before i left home, i found flash drives with a bunch of junk on them. maybe theres more notes i had from like old phones and stuff and more dreams and fic stuff. i dont think i want to see my middle school writing but ill probably find it.

9.27
Rainy weather. It’s super humid. Not in the hurricane area though right now so it’s just rain. Went to a thrift store and it was super huge! I’ve never been to one that big. There was a stuffed temmie plush I was gonna get but when I looked the neck was ripped. I bought a book from a series called the mortal instruments because I was in the book section and only saw the back description. Very noisy, a bunch of kids . Something stunk the whole time.
I saw some cute starter pokemon plushies at the gas store station but they were all $20… they were super small so I was like “my bad” when I asked. Crazy how big the gap was compared to the thrift store literally down the street. Kind funny that were two dollar stores like right next to each other. What’s the point of that.
Babies will start off as babies and then before your very eyes they’ll be like teenagers on their phones and the passage of time will make you go “weren’t you like 5 last time.” Crazy work.
I ended up redownloading cookie run ovenbreak and kingdom. i don't think anything from my old account saved in kingdom so there goes my limited time BTS and disney units. it's probably a fresh slate for it.

9.27
Road trip car ride portion took so long it’s already the next day 9.27
The cars got stuck in front of the cars so now the whole place had to be waiting for the cars to be fixed It’s when you get up to leave to do something else is when the traffic starts moving again. I’ve been typing everything out with an HTML editor app on my tablet. It’s nice, but I wish it didn’t shove a premium ad into my face every time I open it. If the page looks awful when I upload it though I literally did it right before I went to sleep and I'll fix it when I come back home. bye.

9.26.24
Since my site creation date is august 4th, I wondered if there was any like, prominent character who existed who shared the same birthdate as the site. I’ve got Cure heart. Sure. I guess.
I think the part that would get me excommunicated from the precure community minus the fact I haven’t watched a precure since Mahou tsukai is that since I recently watched both glitter forces I straight up do not remember what Mana sounds like in the subs, she’s been erased by the English VA. Who pretty much only registers in my mind as Jimmy neutron. You know how people get like damage stacked whenever they remember that like English brawl Lucas’s voice was also rogue the bat and bubsy’s VA at one point.
Crossover fighters are kind of funny conceptually because like the nick one has a competitive scene and same with the warner bros one I think but since CN was shoved into that merger we’re probably not getting a CN fighting game again
What about MUGEN. Mugen’s pretty good with making fighters for everything though. I still vaguely remember frequenting sprite fight exhibitions during classes and like when YouTube recommended me various showcases and being like “well, if it’s a KOF or melty blood edit it might win, but if it’s a DBZ edit it might lose.” “Never bet on DBZ.” 50-50 chance. If it’s a little sprite of a guy the hitbox might be stupid small.

9.26.24
Sorting through my notes from cohost stuff from my Pokémon centric page before I get fully dragged on this family trip and it’s mad funny that I was so confused by the way Pokémon masters explained Riley’s aura thing as “vibes” but I mostly know aura from like “Chad aura memes” and then the explanation from Pokémon adventures is “guys it’s literally just the force.” I think masters was them trying to not make it as obvious. I might watch through Lucario and the mystery of Mew, it’s probably on an app I’ve got somewhere from when Pokémon TV got sundered. That list of apps where things went to like multiple things was still insane to look at though, collect my pokemon seasons type of thing.
Look I’m gonna be honest, if I can make a Pokémon trainer that is literally just Goku then I’m gonna go for it and justify it in universe. My brain already clearly broke from my rule when I decided lore accurate 100% Myosotis can cause the apocalypse because of female symbol Missingno. I think it’s a lot better to have self imposed limits and rule sets within a story solely so if looks cooler when characters find exploits to break the rules and their limitations with loopholes. that's to say, I basically don't even follow the ruls and notes I make for myself half the time.
9.26
I hope I don’t come off as truly too negative about Pokémon. It tends to sink in a lot of areas where I should give more praise but instead I talk about like creative visions and stifling and opinionated borderline whining sessions of things that have been set in stone for years like story decisions and feelings of stagnation by playing more edited projects and looking at older material and not having as much interest in the later things as much as I’m continuing to enjoy older content. But I don’t think I could have full devotion and adoration for something without pointing out some things that I’m petty or weird over. Like there’s no truly 100% perfect media, but having a critical eye over everything gets tiresome too. Its about having fun. It’s all about a balancing act. I’ll be sure to talk more about the things I like as well especially once the neocities side page recreation is completed.

9.26.24
FF14 was pretty good for like saving my life from becoming like an absolute jerk during pandemic time but the writing style and colloquialisms it’s inflicted on me is giving me such a hassle because like words like “prithee” and “mayhaps” and “milord” and “remiss” and “needs be” and “prudish” and “harlot” have slipped into multiple notes and multiple Shakespeare references because Urianger has become my ghostwriter. The thing is I also say Milord in real life now like in my vernacular. It would be fine if it was a medieval AU but this is supposed to be a modern person unless she retroactively becomes a LARPer
9.26
don't let me give characters last names because I'll go to names.org and ignore them and start coming up with some dumb things on the spot Probably never getting a name as cheesy as Myosotis Apocalypse which does pretty much sum her up as a character huh Goes between “the dumbest” or “maybe the coolest” name.

9.26.24
I feel like interviews are the most nerve wracking thing on earth and me admitting like "idk what job this is for i signed up for so many" probably flubbed it it wasn't even paid though so maybe it's for the best. 9.26
So like, when you feel like you’re about to throw up, is it normal to start like salivating or is that too much info/not normal

9.26.24
When you use youtube without logging in its a total roulette between content slop or the worst most hateful things you’ve ever seen because the algorithm is completely fried to just send things that are the total opposite of what you look at because it’s picking up a lot of things that are trending and getting a lot of views That one tweet that’s like “arguments are some guy getting mad at an imaginary person in their head” can apply to every single part of the internet. It’s kind of like the rent free guy where he’s basically just imagined the entire world as being like his world (tm). But it’s not your world or my world, because it’s actually Sonic’s world, and we’re living in it.
Retro engine sonic… Sonic’s more of an arcade kind of guy than Mario since 1 was built on scores but like, does anyone actually care about scores in video games these days? It’s all about like, completion and 100% or speedrunning or whatever.

9.26.24
Google searches have been tarnished for years Twitter gives me poison stacks Therefore only one place can possibly get me set inspiration. Back to the Pinterest mines. I’m a big fan of that white bear thing that’s always showing up on my feed yelling like. Same.
9.26
The fashion inspiration thing for leaf and blue initially came from Pinterest so I’m just returning to my age old drawing inspiration sources. Fire red is a dog but pixiv red is a cat. The Pinterest mines have once again enlightened me. I already said that in my own fantasy headcanon thing where I was like “one’s a werewolf, the other is a vampire.” I’ve seen some of these artists fanart on tumblr before and like that sucks but like imagine of the artists were also using Pinterest and uploading their own art there so no one can call them reposters reposting sucks, stop that.

9.26.24
It’s kinda crazy to me that this site was dormant for years as an FF14 styled RP description kind of thing because I didn’t want to use a cardd and then this year I was like “dang I need to do something with my free time aside from job hunting since I got screamed at and harassed while trying to learn blender because I had to start job hunting literally that day when I was told I would start in June but May 27th apparently counted as June” and the trajectory of my life swung in such a weird direction in the spring and has only been going downhill afterwards. If I had done the revamp any earlier there’s a good chance everything here could’ve been Sonic themed. There’s still a chance it could become sonic themed since now that I’ve finished pokemon special until the next marathon up next is me probably reading through sonic comics since it’s been years since I read Archie or watched X. I’ve still got forces on my computer and like I’m heavily tempted to make my one catgirl OC I saw from years ago into a real sonic character. (Note to self: Please finish classic games first even though you suck at getting chaos emeralds, DO not make your catgirl OC real.) thinking about my tastes though in terms of nostalgia those are definitely rose tinted in the form of “things seemed more fun when I was a kid because I didn’t have to worry about every single thing going wrong in my life because I could play them as soon as my homework was finished” and now it’s basically like I have to be doing the same thing I did in 4th grade where I’m up at 3 am playing games and constantly hiding the phone or switch under my pillow because I get yelled at for being lazy and unproductive playing in the day. When you see me coding on the site in the middle of the night, this is what I look like: i just wanted to say I'm probably never gonna be consistent on if I have date.year or not.

9.25
My background for the dream page (which I need to update eventually when I get another dream I don’t forget as soon as I wake up) is the fountain of dreams from Kirby. It was gonna be the NES version but I couldn’t get a good version if it off the Kirby wiki on time before the temporary image became the real one. Kirby nightmare in dreamland is a remake that even though it’s got better hardware I think it completely sucks in a bunch of minor ways that make me sound super nitpicky but like you know the invincibility candies you get in random levels, meta knight throws them to Kirby but he doesn’t in the remake and the art style is like way worse than the OG. They didn’t even make butter building yellow. Nightmare’s final boss battle background where you can’t even tell it’s on the moon.

9.25.24
Writing up my media log thing for September but I'm probably not finishing it before this trip thingy
im still watching and reading through Isekai and like you remember SAO? It’s kinda fascinating how like a ton of aspects of SAO were lifted for the Isekai genre like the gamification and menu things and people being sent to like medieval worlds and being normally overpowered but they didn’t take the consequence of “if you die in the game you’re just DEAD”. Or the only reason Kirito was like OP was like because he was a beta player who knew the ins and outs of the game (they called him a beater.) When the heck did I watch SAO Like, almost a decade ago I saw it in a bookstore once (the light novel) Season 2 sucked though lol
Do people still watch the OG? Probably, I feel like this might be another DBZA case where more people flocked to watching an “abridged” instead of the original I think it’s streaming somewhere, I liked Sinon enough to the point she was like my SRB2Kart main (secondary was Hero Chao) I haven’t played that game in years. Didn’t get into ring racers either. I think my kart skills evaporated once I got into FF14 (and now I’m sure once I get a better PC my FF14 skills will have evaporated too.) I might have to retire the FF14 characters and just make a new character tbh, I’m thinking it will have been that long. Alt hopping is not for me.

9.25.24 I haven't uploaded this one yet to neocities because it was by default windows 96 but I'm more of an XP user... Today I gotta figure out how to make Tahoma font show up?! I should know this, I've installed font families before... For every month I'll probably just put them under a spoiler bar when the month ends.

9.25.24
Gonna feel really bad when I end up like, relogging back into cohost after the read only date and being like... oh.... yeah...

9.25.24 Somewhere in Nevada
New madness combat came out. Nice.

9.25.24
I’m trying to do a bunch of juggling stuff offscreen and flash drive hunts again since I’m working on what I’m calling like the “writing winter” update. A lot of stuff is going to be fandom fics, probably pokemon. Or just ideas. Mostly ideas, I’m terrible with actually completing anything aside from a one shot. Call me one shot cuz I write it in one sitting.
Trying to keep writing and stories up to date when there’s like almost 1000+ of the guys sounds pretty nuts. I don’t think I’d attempt that because that sounds really hard. What's my cutoff point then... idk, I think I'd write them as is based on their gen, like things from generations that were added retroactively like regional forms or new lore or stuff wouldn't show up.
I don't think pokemon is this largely complex kind of writing thing unless the writer makes it that, but I'm just a person who gets too busy looking at individual leaves instead of like the whole tree.
What about the masters lore thing...
That's more of a side thing because I had free time, which is starting to dwindle.
The pokemon masters depictions is like canon accurate, so I might take those personality traits for some characters and spin them with a fork like spaghetti tbh
I could just explain "oh something happened differently so they act like this now." The joy of fanfic is not overthinking, and I am definitely overthinking.

9.25.24
I'm really glad that things like soundcloud wrapped don't exist because I know I'd get the greatest roasting like "I see you like listening to trash ass beats" and generally like a lot less things could do with spyware installed. Twitter wrapped would probably be funny as hell though especially if it was a tweet like "I don't even remember making this."

9.25.24
Kinda crazy I’ve been living with someone who’s brain has been so fried by the internet that I feel like I’ve been living longer with them with their internet brain than what was normal. Like I’ve mentioned it before but this person was just absorbed into doing nothing but watching Facebook group chats and what’s app and TikTok’s all day during the pandemic and like their brain completely melted to the point that even when they’re working from home I can still hear them doing nothing but Facebook reels while they’re supposed to be working. They always got mad whenever I pointed out like “is that actually true” because why in the world would you wash fruit with soap, or other absurd stuff that people were just posting on the fly. Trying to hold a conversation is impossible because they’re so busy trying to impose stuff from the things they’ve watched or making us watch the videos and try to explain them and it’s so funny to them, laugh, why aren’t you laughing. In terms of that person, we have absolutely nothing in common. There’s no overlap, they have no interest in what I’m doing and I dont want to engage with someone who makes fun of what I do and is just generally largely the opposite of how I am to the point we mostly end up fighting or they unprovoked start things.
I'm gonna be honest though my brain is also fried but in the opposite direction where I’m like “booo social media bad I hate videos being the default way to learn things I hate algorithms I hate AI.”

9.24.24 Forbidden glitch users lore, the only reason Ragon and Ultimus and Myo exist is because I was lazy in New Leaf and wanted 3 characters to be able to buy redd's paintings as well and I didn't want to use preexisting characters like abandoned leaf or blue or blake/gold .
The very funny part is that Ketsuban was like an independent character and everyone else of the cast was made solely for just Ketsuban, glitch users is such a funny concept where I was like "domain expansion, glitch city". The funnier part is that everyone is horribly overpowered cast wise to the point that glitch May can stop time and it doesn't matter because like, the strongest glitch users can ignore time or can also control time.
There's multiple stories in the "glitchverse/rumorsverse" that run with each other in some kind of bizzare contrast and my favorite one is "normal girl gets involved with glitches and rumors but is greatly inconvinienced to the point the genre forcibly changes to comedy" and the other one is also "normal girl gets involved with glitches and rumors but it ends in horror and tragedy" and both of them are working terrible jobs but in wildly different circumstances (one is an archaelogist, the other is an actual glitch hunter.)

9.24.24
Kind of sick of the way I’m living. It got to a point where there was another fight this week so I basically left and went on a walk for like an hour, no glasses, no keys, no phone. I’m sick of screaming. I found a rock and threw it in some water and it made a plunk sound. Pretty much the only good thing that’s happened so far this week. I’m not sure how much longer I can take of this mentally and it hasn’t even been a year since graduation. I feel like sometimes my life is a bizzare bunch of bubbles and I’m floating in the ocean and then people just show up to pop all the bubbles and reduce me to nothing but water in the ocean. It certainly doesn’t feel like I’m “real” sometimes. Brazil got unbanned from Twitter.

9.23.24
I recently changed my pfp to be the show I'm currently watching and one of my friends was like "not a fan of that show because the jokes didn't land and it was hard to take it serious" and I was like in response "I was supposed to take it seriously...?" Like the show's premise seemed to be less about taking it seriously and more of "look at these cool fight scenes."

9.23.24
In terms of nostalgia, I’m probably not going to lean heavily towards a thing that I wasn’t even born in the time frame for and therefore have largely internet tinted glasses of what other people have told me, so therefore it must’ve been true. I try not to have rose tinted glasses because a lot of things I enjoyed probably do not hold up. I like webcore, but not so much "nostalgiacore" despite the fact they're basically in the same sphere. Like pandemic summer I got into mallsoft and stuff and like things that kind of resembled like, windows enduntainment type of things but like I'd rather focus on both old AND new things.
I was mostly just looking through like, gif repositories of geocities like 99 GIF shop, and there's a lot of stuff that's still posted now. I’m sure there were either shows that existed in that ethereal period that I did not live in but they did not survive to have as many sites and Geocities gifts dedicated to them like cardcaptor sakura or inuyasha or sailor moon or EVA or DBZ or naruto or pokemon which like… pokemania was a thing. It was a huge thing.
A lot of what was popular then still applies to now but I’m sure there are plenty of anime that just got completely dumped off the face of the earth and are now referred to as hidden gems. Like in terms of lost photobucket signatures and tinypic and things that have been washed away like grains of sand… they did go hard as hell though.

9.23.24
I always wonder what the point is of being diligent or hard working in a world that doesn’t care regardless. I wonder how people can look forward to the future because all I see is being stuck with this person for the rest of my life because they think I’m too irregular to function. Nothing I do to explain or comply works.

9.22.24
Getting myself off YouTube in the summer was great for my mental concentration because videos were also no longer a 24/7 thing and my front page is no longer full of people being like “THE NEXT GEN IS DOOMED, These tips to help you get a job using ChatGPT, why going to college ruined my life, How AI is going to ruin our lives” and absolutely uncharacteristic things because normally I’d just watch anime clips and silent longplays and long music playlists. Anyways, here’s a sample of another reason why I decided to get off youtube pre-summer

"can you beat this game with" yes, it's a game, if you didn't beat the challenge, you wouldn't make the video. “I played this game so you don’t have to” “How i beat the hardest challenge” “How we FIXED this game” Live reaction to “insert thing you were looking up where you DIDN’T want a reaction” "the game where you" SAY THE NAME Fun facts about a thing that are actually commonly known things Theory that has no basis and is generally absurd but people believe it's true anyways why this thing you like sucks but it’s my opinion disguised as facts that will be repeated ad nauseaum because people absorb the opinion of YouTubers as their own Analysis of thing that is actually a summary