A blog of sorts?

Microblog Monthly: Sure Jan!

Mood: Idk, Sleepy is how I feel most days.

Musings

Quote of the month- "My desire to be well-informed is currently at odds with my desire to remain sane." New York Times cartoon

Photo of the month-

Signing up for news emails. Every day I wake up and look for job email. Still nothing. Job hunting sucks because I get all these sites that say they're hiring but they aren't. Plus I still have the same asshole breathing down my neck and sending me on all these useless hunts based on things they see on TikTok which usually are scams and quite frankly, it's been the absolute worst living with this person seeing them fall into this absurd brainrot rabbit hole they refuse to get out of, growing more hostile to their family members and me, and my resolution for new year's is to stop taking their shit because they've been so many different words for years that I don't think it's possible to describe how much of a total nightmare they've been.

I should get a morning routine back into my life again. Maybe the radio? Note: I wish that Spotify wasn't the dominant service for this sort of thing. I should just start using my web findings page more often because a big chunk of it was just my bookmark links.

Lately I've been listening to Waltzes. Got a recommended playlist by a piano artist. I'm gonna be getting into audiobooks and podcasts is something I say every year. Working on that.

I really completely forgot how much time gets sucked away doing mindless mid tasks right until I started getting back into using the 20 to 5 minute ratio for pomodoro and now it's like my brain is wired to do task and then— time's up already? So turns out I got medicated and I'm like 100% on the spectrum, which does explain a lot about me. For years I just thought I was a weirdo and took every barbed insult my way as me being born wrong plus most quirks were physically and verbally beaten out of me to the point of my misery generating tendencies but it turns out my brain is literally wired in an entirely different way! Every single social interaction I've ever failed at has been explained by this and my isolation in general.

Sometimes I remember my singular professor who lived such an interesting life of selling zines and being a DJ and basically globe-trekking before getting plopped into university. Same thing with another guy who was a whole musician. I'm pretty sure they'd either love or hate this website. If university wasn't such a stressful existence I'd love to go back to it if I didn't have to pay money. The education system has totally failed when it makes people uninterested in learning anything. I need to learn other languages so badly, I'm out here being like "okay so I need to learn Spanish since I forgot all of it from academia and Korean and French and Latin and Mandarin and other Romance languages and figure out kanji and kana because I want to become a multilingual kind of person."

Food

I need a Japanese 7/11 konbini in my life. There's a regular 7/11 nearby and I think my life would change if they carried the stuff that I saw in JapanEats videos. Why does yogurt smell when it's opened so much? Normally my nose is nonexistent but it's like every time I open a yogurt it's stinky but it tastes fine. I keep trying to order this food thinking it'll be better maybe but like, it's time I give up and find another food or make it myself. They've changed the recipe so many times it barely resembles the original anymore and everytime I go "maybe it'll be good this time" nope, still mediocre.

Media

Switch 2!

There are so many anime's out in the world now that it would probably be impossible to see all of them, thankfully YouTube seems interested in showing me random openings. My interests fight each other in my brain for dominance all the time like it's some kind of pit arena. Pokemon's completely retired past last year and the only ones I'm focused on right now is the straggling X nuzlocke I started and this version of Emerald where everything's small. It's adorable. I haven't watched a precure since mahou tsukai, I thought tropical looked good, but honestly I think I might've just lost interest for the franchise and getting a trailer of the latest series just being an idol girl does not make me feel like I'd miss much if I keep not watching. Mirai Days looks good though.

Been listening to what a Mario world's released soundtrack and remixes on YouTube and honestly, Mario's a series I've completely neglected talking about on here. I think I've always been a far larger sonic person...also like, Mario's way more gameplay focused. What the heck would I talk about?

What have I been up to show wise? Juggling between smaller transformers shows while I still watch gen 1. The Machinima based show ...there's two of them and their name convention has Wars in it and honestly, I don't care, but it made it difficult to figure out which one I was actually watching. I fell asleep at one point but there was a giant blue robot speaking with a southern/cowboy accent and I was instantly enamored. Also watching Jem and the Batman. I have quite the weird lineup of long form shows whenever I don't instantly finish a show in one sitting. My favorite part of finishing a show was being able to reblog images like its a shiny badge on tumblr but I'm kind of already an image heavy hog here so I only have reaction images to use.

I was trying to find a show to watch like regularly on TV and you know what, streaming has really taken the fun out of just sitting and going onto a channel to watch stuff because there's so many shows but when you just want to watch a show while folding laundry then all of a sudden it's like "can't watch that because I'm binging it, can't watch that because it's a whole movie..." that could just be me though.

Energon Universe's latest issue came out, combiner vs combiner is so cool. Wish any of the 3D shows I watched before were this cool. I've been meaning to read through that one book that's still sitting in my library page as what I'm currently reading but it's so big. It's scaring me off. Plus there's the fact that my attention span's so shot. I'd probably half pay attention to it while looking for a playlist.

Online Stuff

Seeing that social media outlets are deciding to put in AI generated user bots full time makes me feel like I dodged a bullet when I deleted my twitter in November last year alongside other things. They were already full of bots but seeing companies admit to adding in them for artificial inflation of numbers makes me really wonder what we're doing here. Same with people making AI music flooding YouTube. I think the word content has hit my list of words that cause me pain and I miss when AI dungeon was the most anyone had even thought about generational content. I don't have a TikTok, I'll never get a TikTok, it's mildly ironic to me that the US government was spending all this time fearmongering about spyware from other countries only for the TikTok crowd to flee in masse to an app that literally only had the other country in mind and now they're in the process of a China to English mass cultural exchange. In the post tumblr phase I had two spots, one's dead, the other's just not my style, and neocities is taking more of an on ice break as I pursue other hobby related things. Unfortunately I have opinions on politics that if I said freely would likely get me put on a watchlist but I'm certainly stressed out thinking that these clowns are going to be in charge of the country and that their complete lunacy is going to spread to other countries plus affect our global communication and the internet at large! I hate living through historical events that will have an effect on me and my friends!

Site Plans:

Deciding the best way to minimize fretting over the site is by giving myself mitigation by a fortnight, then to monthly, then, eventually, site updates trickle to a slow descent. I'll probably still pop in only if theres like major site breaking errors. So the blog going forwards will be either a biweekly or just a monthly sort of thing. 12 updates is probably easier to do than 24 tbh, I'm trying to focus more on just doing stuff for myself that revolves around being online less. I'm doing good with cutting off the social media entirely, so the only thing I'm still trying to stop using is YouTube, which you think would be easier since I don't even use my account anymore. Going through random bookmarks for the web findings page so I don't just have a hoard of random bookmarks. That'll be a later update.

Could always just switch to other video formats tbh. More music playlists, just watched a documentary on killer whales. No more scrolling to find a video then going "why am i watching this?" Which is my usual.

It kind of sucks to be into a new thing and be like "thing!" But have no one to talk to about the thing or like, have any desire to go onto a community based around a thing. And also returning to old things sometimes is not worth it. Things suck because I can't enjoy the things I used to enjoy anymore because I no longer enjoy them. For various reasons.