Left Box
Alright campers, today's challenge is to find a reason to keep going. Credits to Evil Person for this template. I'm mostly using this to dump all my random thoughts that no longer fit into my monthly blog or the commonplace notebook. Look at my Posts. You clicked on the Page.
Right Box
Oct-Over
“They were careless people, Tom and Daisy- they smashed up things and creatures and then retreated back into their money or their vast carelessness or whatever it was that kept them together, and let other people clean up the mess they had made.” - The Great GatsbyGood news: I am almost complete with the side site. Only took how long... I got SICK of it, I'm doing the rest of the main site later.
They didn’t abandon new horizons They didn’t abandon it!! Eventually animal crossing sort of sucked out all the meanness of villagers during like, the transition of city folk onwards and now they’re just little NPCs that talk about how much they love their little town and not how much you as an individual are weird and they’d hope your house was struck by lightning if you missed an appointment. I miss their eccentricness when it was charming and not annoying to cycle through the dialogue to see if there’s anything new. I need to run this town better it’s been a year since some of these guys have even seen him
The template recycling bin website where I more or less throw templates at a wall for main and slightly reign it in for site 2 Sticking my hand under a vending machine covered in spiderwebs because I saw a few quarters and regretting it because why did I do that Neocities will be here longer than it takes for me to actually update, which is more than I can say for other social media sites that seem to be speedrunning to being even more unusable I can’t keep up with the fast pace and my brain got the switch of “you can say whatever you want on your site with zero vague posting or extreme post regret whenever you want” and now I just can’t imagine going back to a social media for like engagement and numbers With the UK banning both catbox and Imgur a huge portion of neocities sites that were dependent on them for storage will no longer work in those areas which is kind of insane to consider that the thing that’s going to topple a bunch of of infrastructure isn’t the sites expiring like tinyurl or photo bucket but just sheer incompetence Life of unpaid intern Rocks Way too many Technical difficulties Too much information about people’s life stories Awkward conversations Thunder wave Brazilian Tyranitar
writing categories: salvagable and publishable, just note the date dump that shit into the idea bin NOW
You get a used Chromebook and figure it out from there This thing sucks but it’s either this or a dead device I went to shop at a store and it was being used as a paperweight Receive chromebook Immediately switch to Linux Well I had to learn how to do it eventually… Beginning to understand why this thing was a paperweight, can’t do shit with it Even the Linux thing was literally TOO BIG for the storage size Glorified tablet for cloud gaming lmao Thing pisses me off because I mostly like working with apps that don’t require internet in case things happen and this is the premiere “stay connected machine” And it’s Google This is the part where a family member would insult me and call me a Luddite but this is an inconvenience machine to me
I was getting so mad and then I started doing the teio step and singing uma idol until I calmed down Unbelievable. This is as bad as the time I had to start looking at images of construction vehicles to avoid anxiety Tried to swat a spider off the ceiling but the freak started flying on its web Remembering how Elvis died and thinking “woah mama I just shit myself” and trying to not lose it Do you live in constant paranoia knowing that people probably talk about a version of yourself that is horribly outdated and will be forever immortalized as “that annoying asshole?” God, I think about that all the time. Past me was a goddamn mess. Things I have learned Delta does not work with z64 Tablet has become home console machine while phone has become portable machine Once I get my files sorted it’s over
Art Styles I want to study Retro Futurism Old Cartoons Schoolhouse Rock Robot Jones Alexander and Wind Up Mouse Mid Century Illustrations Hiro Suzuhira
Who made a devilish deal to ensure bubsy remains in the Public consciousness Speak up How can it be this hard to find some sort of phone photo compressing machine that can take a large amount and squish them We have the tech readily available for computers Gotta find a way to transfer everything off, convert back to a regular png, then transfer everything back in But that’s stupid If it works it works But it’ll be stupid for sure
Go to job interview Immediately sit at the park and stare at the lake and contemplate life while watching the geese There are many foods in life I have made that rwbge from inedible to incredible, and as I sit here contemplating this oatmeal I put in a blender with an Apple that has basically become liquid of reverse engineered baby food I’m not sure where to range it at all Oatmeal so finely mushed and spread that it’s become liquid.
Archie Megaman is getting a compilation rerelease Even now there is hope for man Protomen act 3 wasn’t just a meme dream HOPE RIDES ALONG
Never let me do a site update again, what the hell is this... Why did 65 pages for the spinoff site take you like the entire year to do Uhhhh Leave me beeeee Still gotta do a bunch of cleanup and stuff And add in more notes Yeah yeah yeah I’ll look at my scrapper and my tiny megatron and ultra magnus and Orion pax and imagine them going “can you lock in!” Moving files manually was so not happening so I downloaded something for it File juggler Occasionally you’ll see my raw unfiltered adhd unleashed upon the website Calamity. Since the update is TAKING TOO LONG, I've been setting up what I'll likely be doing for the next year to come, which is sorting through various notes I've had from... checks list... 2015 to 2025. Write it out! Inspired in part by my time on Gaia online writing little stories for a September writing thing and the fact I missed out on small web September this year I’m making my own thing up where I’m in part hoping to convert a lot of my old ass writing that I’ve been sorting for years into like, actual tangible stuff to ensure it doesn’t just turn into link rot on my computer. The thing is this might be WRONG, because smash 4 came out in 2014, meaning there’s probably WRITTEN notes out there I missed, so I have drafts for about a decade now. This is why sorting is always the occurrence and not actual publishing. I’m considering calling this part like “the thought process” or the brainstorming process or something. Just in case I never actually finish up stuff, I'd rather at least have the idea somewhere. How do people just outright inspect and copy paste people’s entire site code and not expect people who actually worked on the code to not get upset People don’t have to do that There are code snippets people make for free usage and templates you can customize to your liking by experimenting with the code Or you could also work on the code by hand With the UK banning both catbox and Imgur a huge portion of neocities sites that were dependent on them for storage will no longer work in those areas which is kind of insane to consider that the thing that’s going to topple a bunch of of infrastructure isn’t the sites expiring like tinyurl or photo bucket but just sheer incompetence
Positive Lamers!!
Holy shit I hate toxic positive people It could be worse Calvin It could be better too! Spineless people who can’t deal with other people having mental illnesses so instead they just start gaslighting you that you’re making shit up and that you should just be happy sweaty and putting the words you say into the realm of exaggeration where you desperately try to explain that you didn’t fucking say that and you wish they would listen but they’ve already made up their own mind “It’s all for a reason, it’s gods plan” IF YOUR CAR LOST ALL ITS TIRES WOULD YOU SAY THAT WAS GODS PLAN TOO “Don’t be such a downer” and such phrases make me want to rip off my ears and ohhh you’re just being sensitive at my jokes and critiques about how everyone sucks aside from me and “but you have so many things, why aren’t you happy with what you have and be grateful to the people who actively harassed you for your entire life who could pull the plug at any given moment” because maybe I’ve felt insecure my entire life and you should be happier like I don’t have depression and anxiety They just plug their heads in the ground and go lalala appreciate what you have, be happier, I won’t listen to you or acknowledge your feelings unless they make meee feel betterrrrr and you can’t confess shit to this person unless it suits their ego of how they’re such a nice person and everyone else is sooo mean, pity them “Everyone is struggling you’re not special” can you at least fucking acknowledge my problems instead of shutting them down and try doing reassurance or something “I feel like a burden and that I have no worth because of the overemphasis onto my day to day life of being jobless and causing money issues and complaints about my mental illnesses” “Have you tried not feeling like that dearie” Eat BRIIIICCKKKKSSSSSS These people suck both irl and online I hope a rock breaks your window I hope your AC doesn’t work and you’re sweaty all night Lowkey not sure if a talent show can salvage this or notDo you remember the 21st night?
Watching actually trending things
Watching an hour long documentary about cats in Istanbul
You already KNOW what I did
every day i wake up and wish for the ai bubble to pop it will by god it will
Some people have comfort shows and I have confront shows where I want to shake the writers on their shoulders to ask them why they thought any of this was a good idea
dedication to the youtube removal bit even if it means having to deal with a 135 mb gif because neocities hates videos It’ll be out when it’s out, I say, and spend 15 more days on file sorting And also my laptop battery decided to go kaput so I had to use on of my various storage units to drag everything like a possum carrying its young to my pile of junk that I sort and unsort ad nauseum You know my laptop refusing to live without plugging in life support is a literal TAKING TOO LONG moment
When there’s a will by mod there is a way because I figured out how to code with a mobile app AND allow it to use images and linking properly and its name is Koder I mean the laptops not 100% dead I don’t have to be doing this to myself Nah I’d code on my phone anyways it kind of sucks though because i cant move photos properly.
I do not want to work. I want to read books and drink tea and enjoy trying little snack treats and mochi. Born to yap, forced to trauma dump online Nobody irl wants to hear what I say at all Use a journal Having one of your journals forcibly read out loud as a child is a formative memory
Them: I’ve made such improvements in my life and look at the furniture, it’s all flashy and fancy, I’ve completely changed the way the house looks and it’ll be clean for years to come! Me: Been downloading the entire discography of king gizzard and the lizard wizard since it’s free on bandcamp
cautiously checking phoenix code oh, it's opt in, school and work only saying this she casually threw aside a rock I’m still not using it though. Third party yuckies.
I’m in RuneScape questing music with job hunting Staking the day out for cheapass sushi is truly the behavior I am exhibiting Driving is crazy. I can just go places. Freely.
metal gear solid 3 delta is the closest acknowledgment we're getting for ape escape in years Silksong REAL.
Parents will teach them lore about themselves against the will of everyone involved How much of my life is my parent’s unresolved trauma The answer is more than you’d think what am i doing with my life i need to put down an agender or something to make sure I have something to do so I don’t go insane offline games because the wifi sucks reading books watching shows with my ipad learning with online classes Have you considered draw a box freaking hate draw a box the agenda of the day is: working on my research essay/ learning excel I was about to stress about all the shit I had to sort from notion and then went "wait, I don't have to do that" so I outright just deleted the watchlist I don't want to bother testing it out but I wonder if notion template stuff would hypothetically work on neocities... probably, probably not.
There’s a quote from shadow Maya in p2 I can never quite remember but I always think about it where she goes “people say I’m sorry all the time and think it’s an instant win button because you have to accept it but it doesn’t mean anything if they keep doing the same thing over and over” and literally forgiveness is some sort of curse because I have to take a person treating me like a pin cushion and they don’t mean it, they just want to feel like the bigger person and if I rebuke them then I’m the asshole all of a sudden when my biggest crime was asking for personal space. Jerk.
This is really truly a fully produced hour long documentary about stray cats and their various personalities involving a guy being like "humans are the middlemen of god and cats know that" Since I'm reducing my carbon youtube footprint I'd like to give shoutouts to the internet archive for having vhs tapes of various things you'd otherwise have to go to some subscription service for now can copyright stop trying to explode it
What is a scrandle. That’s not real.
So are chiikawa and joke bear like distant relatives or something That yellow rabbits greed sickens me they are always eating They were fighting dragons and doing monster hunts Evil squirrel creature. Public nuisance. Blue cat loves photos. There was a scary otter drinking from the soup river. He just looks like that. Even chiikawa has a job labeling lemons. Theres some knight guys here too and they uh. They look kinda scary but they’re nice. I hope chiikawa gets to make friends with their coworker. There’s a little lion man. There was a floating pizza dough. There’s also a guy with a sword that drives a super cute car. Like meta knight.
Copy paste my beloved Brackets my beloathed Quote my friend quote Cave story So apparently Koder can just outright ERASE your code Bruh Yeah it’ll just erase itself sometimes on Koder That’s NOT GOOD is there any kind of mobile coder I can use that doesn’t just involve dumping all the code onto neocities as is because I’m trying to avoid that process
I was fighting so hard to try keeping one template only to go “this SUCKS” and I switched to a far easier one to edit and stuff. Power of not being stubborn I guess… It ticks me off now that the edit of the simpler template was so easy… Chances are you'll recognize it immediately and why it was such a hassle. Didn’t need all the other stuff. Junk.
Wishing dearly for it… the streaming service shuffle button. When you feel the long running interest escaping your soul and now you gotta find something new to get into lest you be talking about some random shit fuck from a decade ago
Dawg why couldn’t you be into glitchtechs or new anime like dandandan, what the fuck is turbo (turbo tastic!) Why are you getting back into watching WINX CLUB
You meet people online who seem insufferable and want to make everyone miserable with every thing they say and I go like “wow, you kind of seem like a jerk. I hope you aren’t like this IRL.” and then I wonder if that’s what I sound like to people who don’t know me.
Sometimes no matter where you go there will be some guy with a stick up their ass complaining about how everyone else sucks and how their vision is the only vision that works and everyone else is just a stupid idiot.
If I ever turn into the guy with a stick up my ass it would suck and I borderline always have to hold myself back from turning too much into that as a person.
Some things are not that serious and I have to like evaluate if a thing is really worth my time typing out an angry rant about. Like a lot of times I feel like I’m tossing a message in a bottle from animal crossing and it ends up at the bottom of the ocean. I don’t have like a 100% positive pretty site that has some sort of super passion because I’m like, half passionate some days and no motivation on others because I have chronic mental illness and I wish I could have the full motivation I had like, pre Covid. Sucks how much my life seems to revolve around years ago, but sometimes it feels like the clock really stopped then and everything else has been some sort of fever dream nightmare on the bad days.
The clown country actively going through religious psychosis has gotta be the second weirdest thing that’s happened post 9/11 and simultaneously I missed out on the rapture because I was to busy watching toby fox gaslight people in an undertale stream Spamton was absolutely going HOG on a french fry “You guys aren’t really good at doing the whole loving the neighbor thing” says person who keeps putting off their Bible study
I feel like the measurement number getting overshot by covid casualties really puts into perspective a numbers sort of thing There is an entire generation that only knows of the aftermath and that’ll be every generation following
The government also added in an autism patch Can I not phrase it like that If they take away Tylenol I’m gonna have some stern cross words to say
Disney adults managing to cancel their things in record pace really makes the stance of H.Piss adults that still haven’t disconnected from the franchise become the most spineless people on Earth Unbelievable it was that breaking the back of tolerance and not like, boycotting because of the war
Summer Supercap
The Monthly Supercap from like, Summer to Now (September) Mood: Tired. Exhausted, Despondent. Eating Tuna from the can with some crackers because whatever. Highlights: If I ever get this update out anytime soon, it'll be that. I made a whole different website, and I've driven to slightly more different places. Apparently I missed the rapture because I was too busy watching spamton eating a French fry during the undertale 10th anniversary. I actually wrote things for once off a prompt list but it was on GaiaOnline and then I stopped so I can’t even stay consistent for a challenge. I also decided to transfer everything off my dead notion dashboard and then IMMEIDATELY recreated it except for job hunting so if anyone IRL says I don't do anything well I can show them the dashboard and prove em wrong (tm) Downers: Where do I even begin. Every day I wake up and feel like that youtube video of the drunk pig getting rolled down a hill and the farmer guy going "shit the bed almighty!". But find a way to watch it off youtube. There are so many factors of the world but the lowering attention spans and anti intellectualism and worship of social media as gospel is harrowing. Feels like the medieval times of ignorance sometimes. People really just say whatever nowadays. The US having conspiracy theorists when the actual government is just. like that. Like it’s not hidden, climate change is real, and all of the other things that people in charge will deny and say “nuh uh” but uh. I don’t even know where I was going with this. I got that roulette loaded in me that’ll tell me to be as stupid as possible at any given moment and it’s my job to make sure I shoot myself in the foot before I let my mouth open I’m tired, man. Been doing: Making a seperate site of Template hell that would obliterate web design spaces that do everything by hand because when I tried coding it was absolute shit. Music Listened to: Idk, mostly radio stuff, Jazz... Podcasts: well, there’s your problem , which is about engineering disasters Shows Watch(ing): Ninjago, Freakazoid, Haikyuu, some Cooking shows and some F1 show. Movies Watch(ed): Wreck it Ralph 1 and 2, Godzilla(s), KPOP Demon Hunters, Pacific Rim Books Read: Oh. Lmao. Games Played: I wish I could say I've been playing anything but it's mostly either been depression laying or watching shows or radio listenin like a zombie, if not that, fighting for my life trying to code on a damn tablet. Very slow work on forgotten land and a handful of RPGs Weather: Goddamn HOT. It's no time for sweater weather, I can't even get my small treats like local flavored coffees. TO Watch: It kind of feels like despite doing everything in my power to avoid it i've been slowly incorporating my dead notion from college onto my website. Anyways I've been looking at Winx Club, but not the Nick dub, nor the 4kids dub, but the RAI english dub, which I'm glad is slightly easier to find as opposed to everyone trying to bury it like the Sailor Moon Dic Dub. Dubbing sure has changed over time. The real energy of watching a beloved franchise from your childhood is realizing how much the main character completely SUCKS. Like winx club and Bloom, I did not realize how much she’s just kind of like lame. I’ve been wanting to watch other MG shows aside from doremi that one time but literally every time I try it feels like this. “Magical girl” show: Look inside Sailor moon Maybe if I’m lucky, Precure Real nice guys you just reinvented Madoka This isn’t even magical girls this is just Idols Then the lines became one with Idol Precure What about the third forbidden category, the parody ones Every magical girl parody show is just people looking at sailor moon and assuming it’s the whole genre Where does symphogear fall into my category area Mecha That doesn’t make sense There are some shoujo shows that basically hop the line and become shonen despite starring women To Do: I didn't even get to do small web september on DW because of how horribly hectic day to day has been solely because of my environment and it feels like day to day it gets worse. Links: nywolf.org https://traumbooks.itch.io/the-sad-bastard-cookbook https://kinoue64.bandcamp.com/album/--38 Never Ending Summer.gif)
List of things that have happened before my site updated again
Made an entirely separate website Made a friend Deltarune ch 3 +4 updated UK KOSA law (bad) The political shitfire of sharing a group chat with a news reporter again Itch.io ban A whole wedding Found Scrapper Toy New Pope was Elected after JD Vance’s horrible vibes got the other one No Kings Protest Uma Musume global release That Stupid ass Bill Made friends again but turns out the guy was already a guy I knew before so that doesn’t count Some guy got shot The virtual boy returned
Simple function over complex fashion
I need an easy gallery maker that isn’t the gallery templates I’ve already used I like them, but they are not easy to update sometimes
i want a less complicated gallery page but all the ones I find online are complex.... gotta find something slightly easier and simpler so I don't fight it every time that would also involve drawing more truuueee
Words of reassurance
you aren't insane you just live with your parents you aren't insane you just live with your parents
sometimes I feel like a peaked in high school loser but that's just the covid brain fog attempting to tell me that things were better before I got a therapist and realized that like, everyone in my immediate circle minus my friends all Suck in their own unique ways, including me
You never think about your reliance on something til it’s time to not use it anymore He ate without YouTube
You know, if all these companies want to replace jobs with AI, who exactly is going to be able to like. Buy stuff from the companies? Economy tanking 101, when the consumer can no longer afford the basic necessities and we backslide into a recession where the snack wrap returns but the value meal doesn’t and things suck on a global scale
The shonen bible I think at this point it’s necessary for me to have seen gundam, and also maybe like, ultraman and ultra seven so stuff from the 70s and 80s before the bubble pop/lost generation Thinking on demon slayer The demons aren’t really that much demons if their source is one guy The demons are basically vampires Get some weirder things in here Orochi Yeah I was thinking about orochi
The decline of how western animation basically allowed anime to overtake it so now the only market is towards nostalgia flavor of the week doesn’t even need to be studied since the sabotage of streaming and tax write offs and how no one takes cartoons seriously as a medium because it doesn’t matter how mature it’s made because some dumbass will still see it as garbage because it’s colorful and not 100% live action.
I wanted to talk about something, but then I realized I’m pretty isolated online and offline. Wait a minute, I don’t have anyone to talk to this about. That made me a bit sad, I guess.
browsing through the MOMG for random gifs instead of doing work, welcome back OG FF14 RP site development planning at least remember to rename the gifs this time okay yay I wish the door creak sound could be muted too, it sucked to try to listen to deltron 3030 without that big ass CREAK interrupting it the whole time
Somehow, bubsy returned.
Just watched through Kpop demon hunters and I think the concept of an evil demon band is kind of hysterical because it implies that they had to do the research of the trends of K-pop culture and Stan behavior in order to pull off the scam I love how the demons were cheering on their evil boy band like they also became Stans You can tell it’s fictional because the group isn’t being torn apart for controversy because of how aggressive the idol industry is irl
These guys on Wplace are cracked what do you mean Brazil is reconstructing the Pokedex They have a waiting line now Man, I’m not doing all that.
The way I was like “okay where would the transformers fans gather” and then thought idk… Detroit? Washington? I remembered that they land in mt. St Helen’s on episode 1 so I tried looking for that with zero geographical skills Kept getting it confused with st Helen’s in Oregon which is how you know I failed geometry class It’s not labeled on the map either so I had to do some damn sleuthing I found it and I was like “wow, transformers land….!” Big fan of the ultra magnus that is apparently like, a chungus. I enjoy all the abstract cat like creatures. Why did they have to do slingshot like that and call him bald I also called him bald tbh Basketball head mf.. the random button on wplace is impeccable because no matter where i press it i will see at least one deltarune related thing
I was getting close to like nearly 3 GB just of my own screenshots, and I was going to make a showcase page or collage or something but I got entirely overwhelmed by the sheer amount of stuff. And then they kind of also started to suck too like in real time. i fully believe if given enough incentive resources and motivation brazil would take over the earth based on their wplace output It was fun to scroll through and see where interests popped up all over the world, unity by memes It was not fun to see racism and facist symbols Well it was fun while it lasted but the things gotten overtaken by griefers and the web devs are big assholes behind the scenes so the ability to have nice things is lessened and my faith in humanity is dropped
Warning for remote job scams, some are too good to be true...
Note: I almost fell for this and I’m largely upset over it
I’m going to be mildly mean for a bit but some people have the energy of treating the internet like a confessional. Too much to say. So uh, I’ve definitely swung to a more normal stance, my college self I’d throw into a trash grinder if possible, and I’m going to continue developing my webbed site. Like normal. Because I don’t have to worry about like. Fitting in. “ You like D&D, Audrey Hepburn, Harry Houdini and croquet. You can't swim, you can't dance and you don't know karate. Face it, you're never gonna make it.”
The mid summer’s end journal
You gotta take the little enjoyment in life because otherwise you go absolutely nuts
I’m facing major doubt of hearing stuff like “I hate your website and your media notes and your stupid lame ass OCs” if I ever talk about them too much in my own brain
If I had a dollar for every character this year that was named Overlord where I went this guy is awesome I would have two which is funny because one is a super murder robot and the other is a horse Girl
There’s a BIG EVENT and you need to be prepared for BIG EVENT and now it’s to the point where I’m like “okay I’m sick of months of planning and stress and fighting, please just get it over with” which sucks! I want to be happy doing all this but i hate the drama!!
I wish my life wasn’t always playing constant catch up to be normal compared to other people and feeling guilty I was born wrong and can’t ever meet people’s expectations
Love the energy here of being lethargic in bed to almost hopping out the minute I learned I can just like… easily rescue my DS games from the perpetual cartridge rot.
Wild how there’s just like, cartoonishly evil villains who are complacent in their cruelty and actively happy to be cogs in a perpetual misery machine and society lets them do that because they have money. We’ve been in a perpetual state of “this is not fine” since 2016… I have not felt peace in years. An old man was judgmental of my driving skills.
I wish I had magic so I could yell at awful people “GROW UP” and turn them into turnips. I could solve problems. I’d be the turnip wizard.
The state of sharing stuff is so stupid because to watch a movie we both has to use a website and then download an extension and then both has to have subscription service accounts as opposed to just downloading the movie and sharing a discord room Lame!!
Line that is between “Super hyper ultra realistic blood gore violence” (perfectly fine) Vs Idk, like, the birth of Venus or something (Absolutely NOT)
It starts off with something that people inherently don’t like and will cheer on, and then as soon as that’s pushed out the same cheerers will be in horror as they snipe and take down stuff that conservatives want and especially stuff that harms them or doesn’t fit their image or they just don’t plain like. Do you, the person reading this, really want the current USA political system or any largely loud fundamentalist conservative group to be allowed to push what people are allowed to see on a global scale? Because if these companies get to stay as is and allow pulling based on their whims, hypothetically anything that moldy orange and the council of clowns will want removed WILL GET REMOVED. LGBT+ things will slowly get shoved back to being considered Not safe for Existence. This is not a slippery slope. THIS IS CAREENING OFF THE CLIFF. I might also just be insanely down spiraling as I do usually, I don’t like 18+ stuff anyways. They removed mouthwashing from itch.io. People could say the most bland neutral statement possible and people would accuse that person of intentionally posting rage bait and saying they’re playing the victim, which is something I already deal with in real life, so I’m good here.
Tumblr rap post was getting made fun of for having the take “Hamilton and the Zelda rap are fine art unlike Bad Rap about violence sex and drugs” as popular discourse and like, how did it become so painfully suburban over there past the mass exodus. Cartoon anvil to a head, why do you believe these are such prominent topics to talk about in a genre perpetuated by people who may have experienced these sorts of things? Cartoon anvil will lower if you happen to be a fan of a music genre that is just this but with a few things removed to be more “palatable” to you which is basically just a self report. If it is K-POP and you are aware of the exploitative issues then I’m not even listening, I’m just dropping the anvil on you bruh.
Medical racism is insane too man like the whole world has it OUT for black people and I learn a new and terrible thing every day. “Black people are naturally stronger” you have fallen for a racist statement.
I feel like even when I heard the tumblr rap thing get to my friend group I was like “man, whatever.” Dude we’re in the middle of a political financial crisis where the government has gone insane, people overseas are getting bombed for religious genocidal cleansing and people in the states are getting thrown into state funded prisons while they’re turning Europe into a survelliance state censoring all LGBT content alongside credit card companies careening into removing all games they think are bad with a shitty algorithm bot on top of myself having increasing anxiety because I’m on borrowed time, I don’t have time or energy to think about other things right now socially when I’m trying to finish my site pages before it might become too late to. Like internally I’m trying to be the this is fine dog but I’m thinking of the follow up page of this is not fine
The nightmare never ends I feel like with media you either choose to collectively remember the good parts or you just focus on the bad parts
Part of my brain is always going “what the hell am I doing” and the other part is going “trust the process” The process:
The heck happened here lol the tekken devs really just copy pasted woman face no 1. And called it a day
Shorter time per episode= more episodes. I wish streaming services had a shuffle episode button.
Watching a movie in the theatres for the first time in years but there was an entire gaggle of kids there and also wicked G’raha Tia returned He has other roles Sorry I know
Everything slowly becoming an investment rather than a hobby as people are outpriced and shoved away from enjoyment I got bit by a mosquito and it looks huge, like my knee started developing a smaller knee
6 hot dogs vs $140 dollars of cafe stuff Fight
What if the girls kissed Dreamworks has some fever dream ass movies
“What else did you get diagnosed with you keep alluding to” the shutting up disease of the too much y syndrome, I’m leaving the viewers with ADHD only and the other will be a mystery Driving so you can learn to get better at driving
Driving so you can leave the house and your stupid orange Wild how you can be sitting for 20 minutes and they still won’t start the movie yet
Dog don’t like nail polish remover I made a dog sneeze my bad The psychological reaction o get from eating Taco Bell makes my brain think of that one podcast I was definitely borderline getting a parasocial relationship with when I had no friends in college and makes my lonely brain “oooh is it time for gaming news about shit you’ll never play and never be able to afford?” And I tell my brain “no.”
What did you do for your site anniversary Nothing Took a nap There are many things I miss about college but I don’t miss that.
“Oh we’re still relevant right?” “Ruby, we couldn’t even get into multiversus.” Multiversus being super dead is also adding to the experience of like Warner Bros being unable to keep any sort of relevancy because the previous CEO hated cartoons so he started bleeding the company dry for them
Hop on marvel transformers so I can have more people talk about shockwave wiping out the dinosaurs single-handedly Pac man is like the video game uncle that everyone knows somehow since what other old game is there with a mascot like, pong. Pong doesn’t have shooters. Tetris block? Megaman got brought out of the basement once, got sent to a gacha game, and then shoved right back into the basement because it’s been how many years since 11 There was legacy collection New things?!
I get insulted once and that switch moves from passively nihilistic to actively nihilistic and I consider blowing the whole place up to change the trajectory and bond of every family member in front of me I wish there was some better way to directly grab someone on the shoulders to let them know that they are a large source of my mental problems but unfortunately no one wants to take any responsibility so it’s my fault I was born in a way I can’t match up normally
Finally ending my YouTube problem by the website basically becoming unusable because I don't want my license and ID on the internet British passing of the online safety act Whatever else will happen within a month Well, I'll see you all never, guess I might just make my own server host and just stay on dreamwidth or something. YOUTUBE SUCKS, use VLC player or radio apps and just download your favorite songs and albums instead of getting slapped with recommends for AI SLOP playlists and fake remix albums
The way my food insecurity manifested after years of my mother descending like a vulture randomly now manifests as food aggression where I want to fistfight her
feeling like seperating media viewings by genre is basically me breaking up my website again for some ungodly reason a bee got into the house and I instantly swung the heaviest thing I could to get it off the window which was my wireless keyboard, incredibly glad it didn't break and also that i didn't use a heavier object and inevitably reenact the "greg gets hit with a brick" thing from diary of a wimpy kid but with a window
there was also a mosquito i forgot that summer season is bug season, but also, it's the end of august where the hell were you guys literally a month ago
the craziness of just realizing you can drive and leave wild! weird! unusual!!
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I’m not dead, I’ve just been buried in archeological link diving and I’ve gotten quite the haul but most time has been devoted to making a new site alt for RPG adventures.
im mixing old and new. random icons from livejournal too.+
The dreadful feature bloat appeared
There is now an journal for my evil blog
Downloaded ukagakas and a shimeji and they turned my cursor into an earlier one…
Something about summer seems to suck ass, can’t tell if it’s the heat or the fact some people get way too much free time to suck at home and be weird and it’s hot and the power goes out too often and my car battery dies. Sucks to suck. I have just been writing in my journal entries instead of coding a thing so I’m gonna pop my shoulder again shoving this all into a last minute sprint.
I got my new glasses and it’s like evil glasses that actually work and don’t fall off my face constantly and they make me look like my dad
I got so used to shitty ones now I feel disturbed
Also I need to return the sample ones
That one boss mini game from wrioware has an entire series
Was the update getting delayed because I’m being meticulous about the process or is it being delayed because if I don’t have something to wake up and do that isn’t having an existential crisis I’ll be miserable?
Both.
hey, why do magical girls and robots get a special page
because i like magical girls and robots. duh.
Hey Penelope, miss neocities mascot, will you protect our website from AI scrapers?
Hmmm, no!
And that’s why I also started working on making my dual sites 500 MB or less…
Me delaying having to juggle the work of actual coding of the pages like the bizzaro procrasinator that also had random bouts of perfectionism and also bouts of destruction. Plus somewhere along the line I just decided to double the work by making a second website even if I just did recycle most of the templates I already found online.
I hate shoe designs.
Why are you entrapping your foot into some kind of strap cage like it’s a beast
My dream told me to hurry up with my work…
Happy birthday sonic the hedgehog, bring out the tumblr post
Mephistopheles? I thought he died.
"in 2006, basically what happens is that everyone had like amnesia."
Throwing myself back into online learning and try not to be distracted challenge
How-did I manage to pull this off in Uni? Now it’s like my brain wants to be doing anything else. So much time but never enough to do stuff I actually want to do and that freaks me out.
How many shows do you think entirely faded from existence in between the time of streaming services becoming like number one.
Probably like a ton of web exclusives and I guess unpopular stuff from different countries with their own dubs.
Remembering when popular websites exploded and like, tumblr and Gaia online outlived them because they were just dead for a bit. I think they should do that to Twitter like when Minecraft Steve dropped in smash. I want to see what would happen. Where would they go. Instagram? Reddit? Maybe even like, outside? Touching grass and enjoying the splendors of nature?
Nah, they’d probably just hop onto a Twitter alternative that hasn’t died yet.
I’m reading parnatural again, they turned it into a book
Mecha
Toku
Mahou shoujo
All the same
Monster of the week
If you say the words robotech you get instantly obliterated by a macross fan
I keep moving thoughts from spot to spot like now I’ve got a
Transformers corner since that’s the only robot show I’ve watched so far and I have a saga of me trying to find a figurine
Robots and mecha might be similar but they aren’t the same
Robots have the robots be alive
Mecha has them not be except in distinct moments
Everything in ff14 is a gundam reference somehow
Mr Yoshi P is the echo just a newtype thing
"Will you watch OG gundam though"
Yeah
The compilation films were the only thing available to me on my service I use so I’ll just find them to watch elsewhere
Microsoft torching their entire division of company vets and developers for profit only to then realize they have no games
Nintendo winning by doing literally nothing even if the nothing in question is jacked prices
PlayStation has games. Maybe. They’re getting moved to steam and online so not really.
It really has been the era of indies and mobiles. Everything else is in the energy of gambling and maybe a game will be there
This could’ve been an email, text, or screenshot and did not have to be an in person lecture or TikTok link, FIGHT
Mecha,
Robots.
Stories based on robots and characters is not the same as stories about pilots in robots unless the robots are alive
Similar but divergent
Sort of like how a Mahou shoujo has parts of shoujo in it but not always
When you want to write but it’s just “the” scene from SpongeBob over and over.
It’s really just going “uh” for hours.
I think it’s kind of crazy that in life you’re considered a weirdo loser if you don’t want to do work that will either break your body or mind for a shitty wage and saying you’d rather be chilling will make people call you a lazy quitter but man I don’t want to do that shit I don’t want to give my 100 per cent to then go home and deal with bad vibes id rather be exploring and vibing in the woods or something
Identity theft club
Whether it be through evil magic, ghosts, literal disguise powers, or other tropes I have like, awareness of but not fully enough to label this specific trope thing, which pretty much sticks in my mind through its various forms.
I think I just like the inherent drama of a person being like “it wasn’t me who did that though” and everyone around them just not believing and then they have to clear their name
I once again tap the sign saying “if you don’t want pirates to exist you have to make the items they want accessible” but add in “easily accessible” because some companies will weasel out of full responsibility with drip feed content and limited time releases
Steam the best we’ve got not because of monopoly (which it pretty much has because the other competition sucks) but even they can’t do shit for de listings (I stare in wonder and wish the transformers games would return from the void so I can play them and spend my money but the licenses are gone to ashes)
July 4th I felt absolutely nothing.
USA’s foundation is rotten to the core built on the graves of the indigenous people erased by the “settlers” that overtook their land, killed them, forcibly assimilated them, and turned it into a giant parking lot.
This is a hellscape built upon lies and suffering of the people who were targeted and persecuted throughout its history and the many more that “history” books choose to omit to make people believe in the nightmare that is the American dream.
There’s no dreams here. Only the crushing iron grip of oppression.
Hard as fuck being a fan of a character nobody else gives a damn about and they’re not in a popular pairing either so you gotta go to the proverbial mines of one shot
compilations and dead forums and translations for a crumb and hope they’re even somewhat relatively still in character while meanwhile popular character who has had perception
so warped by fan characterization to the point of being an entirely different person gets 20 billion posts per day. Even worse if any of those characters is a woman or POC or ambigious gender where they'll just be headcanoned as a woman anyways.
Moving rooms again.
I think the most insane weird thing that could happen is finding the tamogatchis in the house like they’ve just been chilling for years since elementary
Miss living in a walkable area because what do you mean I have to walk all the way around these cars just to get food or drive.
Minamalism... I don’t think some people know what that word means.
I also spent money on my storage stuff so I don’t want to get rid of that either…
The category of random stuff I’m sifting through is…
Clothes I’ve never worn because the texture wasn’t good or they didn’t fit or they weren’t my style because they made me feel bad
Books I never read b/c with the amount of chaos generated by a single person I’ve never had a good moment
Random junk that was probably important but I’ve forgotten what for and there’s literally no room anymore
Socks from decades of collection.
I wish it was as easy to move furniture as it is in animal crossing
To make my life easier for coding, I’ve removed some more complicated looking templates and replaced them with easier to use ones.
Bulk transferring tablet notes to desktop is a hassle though since I have sub folders into sub folders so I have to like. Drag and drop and hope they stay in place.
Having bought a Bluetooth keyboard for my tablet is super awesome but now where the heck do i put it when im not using it
Back in the box, i guess?
Yeah.
JRPG Site dropping soonish
No money for steam summer sales this year so I hop onto steamdb every day to see what’s being given away for free
Lotta rogue lites…
Some MMOs… I’d tell you how I tried to replay MapleStory and steam wasn’t having it. Never seen a game more determined to not have people play it.
The greatest games of all time could be on sale on epic but I don’t use epic so I wouldn’t know
- Steam sales hell yeah
- No gift card
- Man
- I found one
- Yeah
- Okay, but can my shitty PC play these games
- Nah
- Man
- And so on
- The cards already been used
- Fuuuuu…
The way I bought that lap desk and now it’s no longer mine whatsoever
In this episode of “this could’ve been a text”, I’m considering Blocking you
It’s genuinely never been more over like how are you gonna call in the middle of the live show I will keep making genre pages for media I like aka robots and magic girls because I like them enough to have dedicated yap pages I might also just make it so I don’t have a single full of rambling overflowing Note. At this rate I might just end up making a big three page too…
Disappearing and being forgotten… I think it would truly be the worst kind of feeling.
I have an auditory processing disorder I live in a state of constant paranoia Keep forgetting I have the spectrum disorder Yeah. I made a friend through by random happenstance so now I have someone to relate to
The fog is coming There were many dogs.and children. Watching from the house is way better than dealing with fog of war
Not a big fan of iframes, will not be using them aside from off site widgets.
No ambitions! No talent! No jobs! No girls! Hit with the unemployed debuff!
Wish my life wasn’t just the “we’re so back it’s so over” meme stretched out for decades
The combination of being undiagnosed plus a POC plus a marginalized gender with parents in a failing relationship from the get go and one that lost their job during the recession and were also both on the varied ends of being totally awful at parenting and being a witness to multiple political disasters via the news would likely make a person very irate. Which is why I swing from rapid joy to extreme cynicism and nihilism like, at a constant.
The energy has hit an all time low because what’s the point, even if I short all my ideas and notes into a coherent timeline for ideas chances are I probably won’t live long enough to see them completed: I hate how lopsided my life can get because people decide their the ultimate main character of life and everything should be dictated by their will
Really do not want people to target me for my mental illness when ghouls are currently aiming to obliterate medical care thanks I don’t want to be more of a target then I already am “I never thought the leopards would eat my face” says people who voted for face eating leopards party I’m so tired of politics being decided by old people who probably won’t be in power long enough to see it executed until they’re already out The type of people to make up something to be mad about and then pretend they’re not mad and drag the mood down and blame other people for getting upset and basically a micro version of what I deal with is the macro ruler of the country.
Trying to watch free lecture videos with no alternative of reading notes and I can feel my soul withering especially in an open area where everyone sees it as a reason to talk at me this is hard enough already so shutttt it I’m reading parnatural again, they turned it into a book
Sometimes people say dumb shit Why would I want a phone app for the oven I want LESS smart invasive appliances
Dragon ball super is 10 years old That doesn’t feel right. It’s that old…?
I was in the middle of taking my walk, twirling my hat, then I remembered I didn’t have my wallet or ID and thought about all the stuff happening with ICE and thought “I don’t feel safe on my walk anymore.” I walked right back home and it’s a shame I even thought that. But realistically the thought of “well, those types of people will never come here in my area so I should be safe” is the same exact rhetoric used during WW2.
I bought a box online in the hopes it would fit all the random junk I’ve collected over time from college and what not… It was SO tiny They wanted to charge me 10 bucks for a teeny box! The photos always lie.
The Scooby doo gang will really be doing whatever Psychologically attacking a man I can see them reusing the frames per scene The animation cels were going crazy
This is my Scooby doo head canon
Shaggy smokes weed He’s always getting the munchies The mystery shack is hotboxed
DVDs not existing anymore and our poor gutted computers make me sad
The commercialization of squid games is the most tone deaf way to see that show tbh
Don’t build the torture complex we made to critique capitalism Hey guys we commercialized the torture complex made to critique capitalism! Many such cases, it happened with the hunger games too
One of my offsite acquaintances started doing simpler stuff and like, you know having cool templates is nice and all, but not when I fundamentally have zero clue how to use them. Hence why some templates are getting removed and replaced with simpler ones. Considering that I was supposed to update in March and it is almost August, I would definitely not recommend making a second website based on the skeleton remains of the first because the dreaded feature creep meant what was supposed to be a small project basically just turned into another massive site overhaul.
Note. The funniest part though is now my main site is actually SMALLER because of how much got removed. Watching a detective show and shaking my head the entire time so people know I’m not a big fan of the system Some things are so old that they basically become like a cultural milestone bible of all sorts of other medias like how basically everything is influenced by the Bible somehow
I hate summer bro Why does god deliver the plague A bee flew into my car so I had to open the doors to get it out and then it chased me around Watching an episode of an investigate show and then for 40 minutes it’s nothing and then in 3 minutes the most insane plot twists all happen at once consecutively. Always close your brackets. OR ELSE.
Nostalgia is a Capatalist Drug
Looking at people’s GaiaOnline profiles and that’s the real litmus test as to how many dead photobucket links and stolen fanart are casual time capsules to the actual era I browsed the internet on
No one has nostalgia for the 00s internet because a lot of it was absolutely rose tinted perspective. I had no friends online then and I sure have no online presence now either. A child of the internet absolutely alienated by it on all shots. Anyone who says “this is what was taken from you” should get their shit kicked in. And you know, going back to things as an adult versus the view of a child just shows a lot of the flaws.
And the undiagnosed mental problems. So true.
The thing is nostalgia is inherently a trap to make fake idealism of the childhood or the past and if you’re not careful about it the rose tinted glasses become a window of a capitalistic trap of Plato’s cave. I’m not aiming for an aesthetic here, but I’m just customizing an experience of stuff that is sort of like an ideal but I sure as hell wouldn’t go back to it. I want new stuff, not chewed up regurgitated meals of old things. The ship of Theseus is literally what it feels like with every single reboot that tries to rewrite the original or promises it’s a reboot only for it to be a rewrite or a sequel. The false marketing aspect also annoys me because you attempt to sell something one way only for it to be something else, just be straight forward, you know? And also, I feel like picking and choosing what highlights from the OG are allowed to exist and be marketable and take out the contextual bits so you can make them enhances and revamped to sell back and then sell this new version of a character as a funko or whatever and make it nearly impossible to find any of the older stuff because the new version is superimposed onto the public conscious and people won’t ever revisit the original is agsin, the cycle of Plato. I don’t want the aesthetic, I want to feel. I want to have meaningful discussion with the media, not just consume it mindlessly and go “there’s the thing (tm)”. Not the spectacle, the artists intention rather than the market’s personally targeted remix that’s more or less just the OG song but slightly slowed down with a new beat in between to copyright strike the OG song like what they did to that Touhou song with the Omae wa shinderu remix.
Was this just a long winded rant that was basically the elaboration of “don’t think, just consume product?” A little bit, yeah. I’m always haunted by that class that was about the classist bridge lesson.
And you know what? Companies are too afraid to make new ideas so they end up banking on nostalgia anyways, which ends up creatively bankrupting the entire process because sure, new thing, but I can still watch the old one and probably get the same amount of enjoyment. I like practical effects. I like seeing what developers were able to do with their limits at the time. When everything is hyperrealistic CGI bloom with green screen perfect writing and being afraid to be corny or genuine because the audience will make it into a meme or god forbid the setup is torn apart by grifters so they get pandered to, that just shows to me that the executives are cowards chasing after the bag.
Consumer culture is a cyclical ouroboros when you consider popular animal movies and how much damage was caused to said animals like with Jaws, Finding Nemo, or Rio. Inherently there is a contextual bubble utilized to profit on things that are happening like how jaws was made to capitalize the fear of sharks during that time period. My favorite example was probably this radio show made for an alien invasion where people in their cars genuinenly believed it was happening. It’s somewhat biased, like the movies that depicted racist caricatures or just like, you know, tall tales about those types of things. Nothing is inherently in a bubble unless you are privileged or ignorant enough to be disconnected from reality. Okay, here’s a good example, like, in a video game, when you’re fighting bandits, are the bandits a. White, or b. A person of color? Why do you think that is the case? Did the creator intentionally or unintentionally do this based on if they saw a video game in which the bandits were that color? When a certain race or type of character is always typecast as the villain then in real life there could be a depicted type of subconscious bias? Do you think that by making a group of people “the enemy” in a game, that could lead to dehumanization? Hell, just consider the heavy amount of us military propoganda that has still persisted to today in the post 9/11 cultural bubble which turned a lot of entertainment into like, gritty and realistic takes. How many movies have you watched that have been funded by the pentagon? Hint. It’s a LOT, actually!
If like, 25% of energy put into daily internet arguments was put into arguing for tangible government civil rights we would have an entirely different society. Oh well.
Chill with the modern prohibition?
The current feeling is: hopeless!
The current weather is: too hot!
Credit card companies being bullied by a gang of religious conservative groups being allowed to say what people can purchase is going to lead
to some extreme 1984 stuff but no one wants to bat for ick stuff so people are just watching like a digital erasure of things. NSFW Probibition.
I'm sure the alarm bells will ring once the companies start going after stuff people actually like though, but a few have probably already been
taken out because the banlist is apparently Algorithmic. Violence is more accepted than seeing something sexual and it's been like this for decades.
I might not like most NSFW stuff but I think scrubbing it off the face of the earth is also not the greatest option to be taking because I think things
should be allowed to exist. Like obviously younger audiences shouldn't be forced to look at it or accidentally wander into a space where it exists but as
an adult I don't think credit card companies should be like "you can't look at that 18+ media because we said you can't."
And it's not ending at NSFW because if they were why would they target wikipedia, or youtube, or spotify to try and force everyone to use an ID?
What about people who only use that stuff for their hobbies that might be for everyone and not just children? Gonna lump them in there too?
It's not about younger people fully, it's about controlling what everyone can see in concept.
Can we as a society focus more on properly educating the kids for internet safety alongside finding meaningful ways to protect them from seeing harmful content that doesn’t
involve effectively gate keeping the entire internet and turning it into an Identity data collecting situation or is the concept of having the
internet as a third place where I don’t have to consider my every word being evaluated by IRLs too difficult of a concept to grasp
Everything circles back to the goddamn tumblr ban where money was prioritized over the concept of people existing. And also the hammer car incident.
Edit: I wrote this when it was just steam affected, but they've also hit itch.io now.
It's not like they're targeting just NSFW adjacent games either, because these are the same types to hem and haw at GTA and Detroit become human.
I wouldn't be surprised if they were also xenophobic. Grab what you can because it feels like every day the internet is more under threat by old politicians
and conservatives wanting to turn it into a squeaky clean advertisement. Because even the stuff you think is safe might be pulled out because a single person
might find it offensive. And these are the types that will target the LGBT+ community. If you look under the hood it's textbook facism.
Everything in my life revolves around that sociological class where it’s like everythint is all connected through context of politics, ethical, and social context and like movies and books were created to reflect societal things at the time and the culture for possible exploration when pointing to something like the 70s and the rise of blaxploitation movies that had to be held in grindhouse theatres because “higher up” theatres wouldn’t take them which points to the historical divide within the film era at the time but no one online understands nuance and they’d say I yap too much so it’s the equivalent of the brick wall meme.
Sorry but nothing exists in a separate bubble and everyone wants something whether it be your time, your money, or your brain cells because they want you actively thinking about a thing and telling people about the thing because the thing itself is a message.
Like it's genuinenly misery inducing to imagine how the original, historical World Wide Web started off as a communication thing and built up natural communities
for fans and people with hobbies to unite and argue all over about pendantic things and then corporations and capitalism both for years envisioned making it the
ultimate ad and now with the European installed laws it will become even more of the ultimate surveillance tool. Feels bad man, we're basically entering the digital dystopia.
Nah, we're basically in it already, only thing left is some tool accidentally wiping everything off the net like that one AI tool accidentally deleted an
entire database and then apologized for it.
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How do people drive
Aren’t you just inherently afraid of other people in their cars or yourself screwing up?
I was going “agggh, fuck”, and when I parked I parked next to a guy and his dog and they heard me say out loud I parked terribly. Embarrassing.
You ever type shit that reminds you of the Walter white “Jesse what the fuck are you talking about” and then immediately start untyping it lmao SO excited was I at the prospect of leaving the house and driving that I forgot the goddamn plug For the device
There’s a lot of things I’d like to say about politics but right now my only hope is “well, maybe all the shitty old people will wither away like turnips of being old disease before they can put in their shit policies” on a global scale. Being older and raised a certain way just seems to turn you into the worst person possible. I don’t have much experience with old people that hasn’t turned badly, a lot of them have had cruelty simply ingrained into them. Minus my grandma. I kind of miss her. With the way people are so anti-NSFW sometimes they’d make animal crossing remove all the Greek statues and ancient paintings.
I want walkable cities I want less car usage I want better services for people who don’t have money I want better hospital treatment that won’t get me billed for a tummy ache I want a better Internet that isn’t under threat of corporations trying to turn it into a perpetual advertising service I wish the us had bullet trains I wish this country wasn’t so car dependent
Sometimes music helps me lock in though You have the executive dysfunction You have the disorder Oh. Yeah! I forgot.
Clair de lune sleeper agent that starts making me think about Kaede
Culture shouldn’t exist only to those who can afford it
And your brain wants to put down like words and stuff and draw things and other time it’s doing this on loop https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyAP6PpAzK8
The character and the plot a the role and the author intent versus “wow this is so cool, AGENDA” are battling like a shonen. They should kiss.
Making an Reader OC so I don’t always go “I would not say that” whenever I put myself through reading those kind of stories to get a crumb Blue eyes black haired white person
How Milquetoast. How creative.
And why exactly was my default for a normal person a white person
Brown eyes black haired black person
Loud and proud!!
They are besties now. 
Add the images later.
Dragging my old Sonic OCs out of their vanished mind purgatory that have likely been seen on the gallery page for when I finally play forces
Okay here she is, this is Sola the Cat girl, she had cheek marks of a star and heart, she has fire powers, and she was born in knothole but didn’t join the freedom fighters because she ran away instead and lived in a different city entirely.
Archie sonic would’ve been perfect for sonic forces and it sucks the comic died before they could do that because their entire story was initially centric on the concept of eggman taking over the world Planet robobot does the whole evil mechanizing an entire planet concept way better than forces
We need more games that are new franchises and not just sequels or remakes/remasters or rereleases but the industry is afraid of losing money so they just shove ideas that could’ve been for their own game into preexisting franchises to turn them into eventual shambling corpses of themselves.
Writer's Blog Revenge
I've created an ideas page for some of my writing ideas so they don't just sit on my computer. Only stuff I've had on my tablet for now and others will drop later and uh.... hmm.When the words. And the character. And they do stuff. Yeah. And there’s notes but they’ve been around since middle school. Why did I say those things in that order. And um. The idea, but no execution.
And the discord radiation poisoning incident of Covid where I got hit with posting clarity and like. I’d like to ignore I did that. But there’s receipts. So I can’t ever write for that fandom ever again unless I’d like to explain that I only now got a diagnosis and I was not coping well for like. Years prior.
I think I like the concept of making ideas more than actually writing. My thing is I feel like I'm writing original stories masquerading as fanfiction which is why I tend to focus more on worldbuilding and OCs over actual canonical basis, throw in that I'm working with a game franchise which is built for customization and it's a combo, all right. But I think I like creating more than actually writing it out... my bad. So naturally I had to spend either time merging them all by hand or finding a program to do it. Sounds simple, right? The end result was a random txt file collector that hasn't been updated since 2011 with the site not being updated since 2019
Did it work? Yes. Sometimes it really is the most random things that get you the end results. Reading through these older notes I saved on my desktop is giving me years of secondhand unmediated cringe I really did just unhinge off rails from High School all the way til graduation huh.
Should start part 2/shippuden soon...
Coding my website and meanwhile the Naruto kids are fighting for their lives in the Chunin exams canonically since it’s July.
I keep moving thoughts from spot to spot like now I’ve got a
Transformers corner since that’s the only robot show I’ve watched so far and I have a saga of me trying to find a figurine. It's here right now but eventually I'll edit it off the page. Maybe I'll also make a big 3 page.
When watching shonen there are two brain cells battling, one that mindlessly sees everything as given by the story and helplessly absorbs all the cool fighting stuff to then glaze it later in useless meathead fight discussions, and the other that relentlessly analyzes everything about the plot and character and author intent and keeps going “wait that’s messed up”. You must never let the two accidentally cross in different communities.
I’m sure if I watched Naruto as a kid I’d be like “wow everyone’s so cool, I’d love to be. Ninja too” but as an adult I’m here like “Naruto was twelveee stop being MEAN to him (and his isolation reflects on his attitude on how sometimes he’s just openly hostile to people for no reason) and someone please get Sasuke a support network instead of leaving him ALONE IN HIS HOUSE WHERE HE WATCHED Everyone DIE”. Sakura is also there. I like her but that girl is going to be stressed out for the rest of her life or start drinking and gambling like Tsunade. I think she should manifest her inner self like a stand but I digress. Everything goes back to Haku and Zabuza somehow because those two have been dead longer than alive in the series but they are haunting the narrative. To me. Like it’s all going back to “I don’t think human beings should be treated as tools and weapons for selfish gain and especially not CHILDREN.” And then it’s all centered around like, politics and power and economics.
I still need to start part 2 though. I’m sure my literary analysis of part 1 will probably not match up to part 2 at all though. Judging by my watching of other shows and games alike there will be some sort of magical embodiment of the problems in the world that everyone will seemingly unite to defeat and then the problems of the systematic abuse upheld by the world will not be addressed, which continues to Boruto because Naruto didn’t abolish the ninja hierarchy. Naruto’s time technology thing gets to me sometimes because I’m pretty sure they just get trains and stuff later on and like, in another world Naruto could’ve had a filler episode about him needing a driver’s license.
Geocities Dive guest starring gifcities 
Going onto the anime web turnpike to see what anime were in and popular to get more gifs
The gifs are
Giving me the wrong impression as to what evangelion is actually about
You could get me to believe this is a comedy robot show.
Some of the time capsule energy I feel is insane like I’ll innocently bookmark a gif through a link to check the source later and meanwhile the source will mention criminals got caught
Also while I was in the middle of the bookmarks and searches, gifcities updated and changed the way their search works which caused a bit of a delay I guess
Look up cats on gif cities to see friends
Taste is the exact same no matter the decade
The language barrier doesn't matter when everyone is on the same media
Pokemon, everyone knows missingno, everyone knows ff7, everyone knows sailor moon
The energy of “oh, there’s less gifs of later pokemon gens because the OG audience literally aged out of pokemon”
Gen 1 and 2 were the gens of Geocities
Gen 4 barely exists there
There are sites that haven’t updated out there where Gen 2 was still the Spaceworld demo
Fans are literally the same because people have been arguing over tifa and aerith for decades
If the internet archive exploded I would be sad
I use it for various things aside for I’m just looking at gifs… the way back machine is valuable for preserving internet history
Too bad that big companies could care less
Stumbling onto a fighting game for visual novels was not on my checklist tbh
Discovering the source of the Madoka sprites from grief syndrome and they’re not just stolen fanart is also not expected to be on my checklist
Someone there had 126 pages of adoptions
Talk about dedication!
It’s little things like this I like to see.
- https://web.archive.org/web/20001008104336/http://www.geocities.com/EnchantedForest/Glade/9060/index.html
Misc thought corner 
Originally a disorganized spot on my muse page, moved back to a new blog page for the sake of consistency
Also not in any sort of readable or chronological order, kind of screwed that up.
I can’t even form full sentences some days for writing bro, I might not finish my works in the year even though it was a goal
Go smaller in scope
Your body for real will try to kill you if you don’t treat it properly
Eat enough food or you will wake up in the middle of the night violently ill
It’s wild how your body can just develop new allergies to try and kill you
No gluten or seafood
I would not be able to give up fried tempura sushi bro..
US breakfast is so boring I wish I could have my nacho leftovers without being judged
The glorious shakshuka vs the cringe cereal
Me trying to mine my brain and pick through my old notes to try making something readable and the only thing I can seem to do is code like “lalala wheee”
They brought back Ecco the dolphin???
Ough time to play tubes of Medusa genesis rip
People who play with mods and only use it for their character are sometimes funny because it’ll be like the hottie’s next to a plain ass NPC and get some eyeshadow on him or something you look like a collab character
People who like Oersted: [20 billion mile long paragraph length essay]
People who like Cube: Cube.
Been considering making a digital scrapbook of sorts with weather and nature photos but my worry is someone being able to geolocate me based on some buildings or something wild
Trying to do research into other mythology like overseas fairy tales and the AI got to it too like my niche topics have been RUINED
Supper Mario broth already covers enough for the entire ecosystem of niche Mario topics so it’s up to me to find some sort of hyper niche to get fixated on that isn’t pokemon anymore, I cannot dedicate more MB to that
being in the tumblr soup for a decade straight from my teenage years to a fully grown adult has probably completely altered my sense of humor and normal conversation skills for decades to come
man i wish i was into splatoon at any given point, thing looked like mad fun but i never had a wii u and i could never justify purchasing the game so i just watched playthroughs instead and splatfest streams
Watching Batman
There’s a lot of detectives and law guys
DC stands for detective comics.
Huh.
Man I miss sprite hotels
Reactionaries suck and I hate how they’re just a normal part of internet now by being big stinkers
Real stress test of finding out what is load bearing to the websites structure begins with moving out folders I’m flinging to the void
The Lord X got a musical career subplot is kind of hilarious like if you told me the scary sonic creepypasta I was terrified of as a child would be chill like that I’d be baffled
some fans will be like "we didn't get an announcement this direct" versus some fans who haven't had their franchise acknowledged in decades and celebrate an NSO release
Always will be thinking of that TBFP post of
Ravenous Beasts who would not be satisfied with all the riches of heaven in versus Beaten to death and silence tier
Not every show and movie and book has to be perfect. Some things are basically the equivalent of junk food where you know it’s not great and that’s why you’re watching it. Comfort shows.
Very unfortunate that “being an undefinable thing of servant/maid/purse dog for family member who considers you to be born for them to use as emotional and praising soundbox and agreeing with them at all times or else and formerly physical punching bag who refuses to see hitting as being physical who loses it on the daily you are absolutely sick of that” does not fit onto a resume cleanly unless it’s something like “professional ass kisser” and I’m sick of that so. The unemployed stink needs to turn into something productive or something soon.
Why exactly is my worth as a person connected to the amount of labor I can do and the amount of money I’ll get. Stop that.
It’s faster for me to actually use a random image viewer I grabbed (fast stone) versus using my computers native file explorer because it’s a laggy POS
Increased suffering of the work force — > direct ability to focus on creative projects as way of procrastination
Free time to work creatively —> absolutely no output
My brain is wired to be most creative when I need to be productive, and becomes least creative when I’m not productive. Built different or built stupid?
Not only are your experiences not universal but due to the rapid growth of everything your memories can easily dupe you and no one is around to validate them. Alienation forever.
WHERES THE SCRAPPER FIGURE
What do you MEAN there was only ONE in the whole toy store
The thing is now this has turned from a curiosity of "oh maybe I'll spot the new figure out while I'm doing other things" to "you're doing some cocomelon shit to me. you're lying to me."
they won't even let me order him online
My work cycle only works in misery?
I was like a dog chained to a fence finally off the leash and all I did was play around and pass out and be filled with joy and whimsy (I didn’t do any job hunting)
Still on Geocities diving
Some right click messages are kind of incredible
Click this message 50 times to say you’re sorry for right clicking but in Spanish
The regi quest
I didn’t even need to know the language to know the struggle
My favorite types of fighting game artwork are less of the super cool epic fights and more of just seeing the guys hanging out
Brawl fanart was pretty good with this, the smash mansion thing sort of dissipated after a while
Capcom’s got plenty of art like that for their fighting games
I wish I was good at fighting games, but I watch more than playing.
Watching Kong Vs Godzilla
Me when I watch the monster movie and there are monsters: YES! YESSSSS!
Me as soon as I see a human being speak: NO! NOOOOO!
I bet if King Kong got like a grill and started grilling some of the monsters would taste crazy good
Tiamat would be like hella fishy
I am thinking of dungeon meshi
Post show clarity when you finish a show and you have no clue what to do
Not me going “yeah she’s like one of them tsunderes” and the immediate reply was “buttercup?”
I guess?
I love making accounts to apply for jobs I won’t get
Gritting my teeth:
- I will not crash out over being harassed over unemployment
I will NOT crash out over unemployment
I can drive and leave any time I want
I can drive and leave any time I want
Cleaned up so much I found my yarn Yoshi amiibo
It’s called sonic cross worlds because it’s crossing over worlds
Disney absolutely hates lilo and stitch the OG and that’s why every spinoff after ignores lilo and her perspective of being a native in Hawaii harassing tourists and makes stitch into a marketable critter and gives a new girl to hang out with and pretty much pretend lilo sucked. So they can market stitch instead.
The live action remake spoilers cementing this by going “Nani gives up lilo to a nice family so she can pursue her dreams in America and there are no problems of colonization because we turned the tourists into actual Hawaiians” is like the most radical defanging and it doesn’t even matter if the movie bombs because Disney will make the money back through the stitch merchandise by itself.
I go onto the cookie run wiki to look at sprites They drafted gingerbrave
YouTubers will be going on side quests and plots and shit
- If every single year is a season of a tv show this post graduate saga season 2 has been real boring as fuck
- The mid season wedding is a plot though
- No abandoned friendship subplots or diagnosis subplots or sudden death subplots or divorce subplots
- Maybe it’s going for like a psychological type of beat
And then Sonic team said “release the sonic advance sprites” and we honestly never peaked from there they still hold up
Me when I’m reading a book and the ride goes from “this is ass and mid” to “this is the greatest thing I’ve ever seen” (there is no in between)
Drank corn juice. It had cloves.
Listening to Sonic music while I browse the internet for coding and it makes me feel so nice Thank you Sonic music
Silksong isn’t real, they made it up
Mortis ghosts vs Johnny Galvatron
There is considerable overlap between the intelligence of the smartest bears and the dumbest tourists Trying to make a bear proof garbage can also sometimes makes it tourist proof too It’s apparently just a common trope of things I’ve been watching this year to start off a bit grounded and then turn into “they will gain superpowers and they will spread amongst everyone else” as if this is a basic thing that probably came from some super popular story that has been installed into every story since.
The Pair Up paradox theorem: why in a show aimed for men are there a subset of people who really pair up the guys
- misogynist behavior of writers leading to women getting sidelined and drained of all personality and ambition (see, like, most dbz women)
- General focus on male rivalries and personalities where girls end up more subdued and less weird and usually as props to be rescued
- Usually a single woman/girl in the cast while most of the cast is male (see, sakura from naruto)
Wild how transformers just casually has an insane amount of fanservice not for any humans aside from stuff that was immediately sent to the bowels of hell but for the robots yeah, yeah, the megatron decepticon booty stamp, i've seen it
I don’t like what they do to the women though
Saga of Tumblr Downloading 
The saga of “I might as well go look at my entire blog collection of my downloaded tumblrs from years ago
just to see what’s going on there that’s potentially transferable to a personal site”
The answer was so much fanart, years of stuff I forgot I was into, I forgot to turn off the video function so I had so much GB to parse, and my main which was a decade old was so big I couldn’t properly download it because it was over 100 GB and had to use tumblr three and it still was huge.
How am I gonna get it under 1 GB? Magic.
Some of these memes are carbon dated
Extinct
People really forget that it was the premier homestuck Danganronpa frozen attack on titan Yuri on ice Steven universe ouran high school website until you look through the archives of a blog you downloaded through tumblr three and it’s just there out in the open because that was what was popular a decade or so ago
The ACNL blogs I had looked through I forgot how vitriolic they were to ugly villagers and how the market trade stuff and all the habits from ACNH were all there but less noticeable
The only one to survive was Undertale out of all of those
In a way this is sort of just a reflection of the same thing I was doing with gifcities minus the factor that it was just stuff from my follower list I had bookmarked for years to look through but then I got lazy and used a compiler instead and then severely screwed up because gifs are big and I downloaded an embarrassing size that I then proceeded to need to use an image file viewer for lest I spend more months on this already ballooned project.
I’ve hopped from so many different websites and yet somehow I’m returning to the place where it all began… tumblr.gov
The gov stands for goncharov
And I made my tumblr when exactly
According to the dates on these photos from the very bottom
Nearly a decade ago
Why
Impulse? I was probably just bored and awake
I was the equivalent of the modern day shitpost blogger before that was even made
When you hunt down the source of origin only to see sometime down the line they rebranded off an animal crossing blog to other franchises
These posts have an honest and sincere expiration date
The lays chip memes
Memes were just closed captions… dude…
Note: I am officially never doing this type of thing again I think between the tumblr backup and then redemption and the gifcities dives I have scoured far too long for an almost unhealthy amount of time
And I haven’t even coded the pages bruh
My deadline I’m projecting is maybe like, June 23rd (sonics bday) or August 1st (digimon movie)
Originally I was also going to add in a QR code page for various images of acnl that I downloaded from the tumblr backup but the compression was so miserably bad I vetoed against it
datemodified: YYYY I’m so glad that exists and I found that by looking it up because the way I was sorting beforehand was clownery and total fart energy
The “my mama” post on tumblr literally crossed a wire in my brain and I can’t stop applying it to day to day situations
My sleepy mama.
If I had a nickel for every tumblr edit blog I tried to find again that rebranded to a K-pop blog and deleted all their edits… why do I have this many nickels?
Image edits will be normal and
Then the boiled one and vhs Godzilla showed up and all I could do was go… oh my, that’s scary…
The tumblr follower list goes from “blogs that haven’t updated in decades” to “sudden influx of FF14 blogs” which really shows how that game took over my life for a hot 3 ish years or so
When I get a better computer (or if mobile comes out in the US) I’m going right back into it
Really went “I’m tired of this I don’t wanna do it anymore” and this is only like. Step 1.
People offline , driven to madness 
The power being out means that my brain rot relative is losing their mind over not being able to be online... oh my.
What an absolutely weird timeline where the aged adult is the most dependent, shouldn't it be opposite?
You know, back in the day the printer just needed a plug; why does the printer need WiFi
The tried and true “just take the plug out and plug it in again”
I don’t want a digital assistant just give me an actual employee
The enshittification of customer calls needs to be studied because it’s been getting worse
I honestly thought the power being out would be the end of it
Instead I got woken up at the ass crack of dawn to wait for 4 hours between different calls to the internet provider only for the call to go through and the guy to go “yeah shits broke”
Lack of WiFi is great when you don’t have someone bitching for 4 hours about how they can’t use Facebook or insta or whatever the fuck
I was ready too I was fully prepped up for an offline day with my books I was sorting through and delta which I just thought about and files to use to make offline site edits but instead I had to play makeshift electrician since I woke up
And the most ass part about it was that i kept getting snippy remarks and yelling that it was somehow my fault like im sorry if i had weather powers I would’ve been using them to do weather based crime and call myself the coming of global warming, not kill the wifi
Like goddamn I have low tolerance for the type of shit I have to put up with on a daily basis and people have free will to do research themselves and find out information instead of going with rhetoric spat out by ChatGPT and meta Facebook summaries, but I live with people who are the type of people you’d see in satire comics about Pokemon go when it came out a decade ago and people started up the Pokemon is evil thing by saying it controlled you through your phone
That electric reliance is really hitting everything
The WiFi dependent tantrum baby behavior is the behavior of the same person that forced us all to play board games during a hurricane when none of us wanted to play so generally if this is the behavior they pull after a day of no WiFi the turnover is insane
I was dragged off to do job applications and the application site had some real madcap energy
The maintenance guy that was there had the behavior of a broken man because the power went out and it was like that for days
Also I ate a chicken wrap and it felt like school lunch food with some mystery meat aspect
It looked so nasty, tasted like mush
But I didn’t get sick so I guess it was okay
The traffic lights were off
Literally everything was going wrong because of the outage
No power signs everywhere
Even the post office box didn’t work
It didn’t open
This was literally a Megaman battle network scenario years ago
Tl;dr, people are stupid and becoming willingly stupider, somehow it is my fault as per usual for things I can’t control, and if I did, I’d be doing crime
Old People are Difficult 
It’s so hard dealing with old people sometimes
And it’s difficult, right, because they’re old, and they’re stuck in their ways, and with the way I write about them I make them sound like the spawn of hell but they’re just so different from me and they don’t get me and they make it so difficult to care about them sometimes because of all the differences but they’re literally all I’ve got. It’s complex. Some days I wish it would be easier. This doesn’t even get into the other issues like the incident that made news and people randomly getting sick and financial problems and general day to day annoying issues.
Edit: simultaneously I wish the uncle ruckus theme wouldn’t play sometimes when interacting with these people though
Misc Thought Corner .gif)
My favorite game in February:
Actual precure leak or just balala the fairies or some other unknown magical girl anime or just some fanart?
Toei has not learned how to prevent their toys from being hacked with the voice actor and character design being immediately datamined as soon as any adult gets their hands on it
I miss trademark speculations
Hop on Precure
Hasn’t watched Precure in years
There’s too many shows to watch bro
Also it’s circling back to my problem of I can say “I like it” but there’s nowhere I can talk about it to other people aside from my site and like, I’m good with groups.
And also the only group I was in I never really posted because the precure LJ sucked that place got rancid during Mahou and Kira
And it’s way too late for me because I’ve been away so long that I don’t have any of the language in mind anymore
I have no clue what people are talking about majority of the time online and quite frankly I think I’m gonna keep it that way, I’m gonna be over in my corner and some can join.
That’s scary, I don’t know.
I’ve turned into Oscar the grouch and had a few social interactions where I flubbed and burned the bridge so badly I decided to ban myself from social media for the good of myself and others
Unfortunately my brain hasn’t found a good dopamine substitute hit and I can’t make it working on my website long time and I need something more offline aside from watching media and taking notes
If RWBY was a magical girl show this would’ve been a far different show
I need to watch more magical girl shows but like I’ve completely dropped off
Truly do wish that Madoka didn’t have a monkey paw situation on the magical girl genre where the takeaway was “girls should suffer” when the actual story was like “we need to break the system that exploits young women and teach them there is hope in this world at the end of their suffering but even Madoka spinoffs barely get that sometimes
The whimsy and wonder sometimes drops off of magical girl shows but I think Madoka being less episodes made people think “oh, we just need to do that like, episode 2” but they forgot the hope
They always forget the hope
You have to romanticize the mundane lest you feel like passively mental
Where would I be without internet archive
Probably an entirely different website tbh
Like YouTube or something idk
I’m literally on YouTube though
lol
Wild to consider one of the best internet archiving systems outside of Internet archive is tumblr blogs that haven’t deactivated that have decades of deleted fanart. I’ve been going through files of a backup of my old blogs.
Sometimes things are so outrageous that it breaks my limit and stuns me for a moment and shut it down. I didn’t see that.
Luffy he is my friend and he likes eating meat
Which makes me wonder how is one piece the originator of the agenda memes
Like I’ve only watched a few episodes and the live action and luffy is just some pirate guy who liked eating so how is this where fraud and slander came from
They’ve even got a stock market for their agendas. Wild behavior.
Jokes and memes are the deepest lore
Some of the character designs legit made me recoil
Why do women look like that
I have no money and am lowkey a dependent and at the age I am I still feel like an overgrown high schooler and never realized life would be so weirdly aimless
Me eating a custard bun and seeing them restock it at the buffet with the confusion of
Why is it purple now
What would I name my rpg centric site if I made it for real though
Idk
We’ve got cuphead shooters and cartoon RPGs and wariolikes, who’s gonna make a fighting game where a bunch of different animation genres punch each other
Rakuga kids and skullgirls did that already
Shush
I want slapstick sound effects and Ed Edd n eddy sfx
KOF/FF in smash was hilarious because I was like “oh, there’s probably gonna be a new remix of Esaka and a Mii costume for Kyo or an assist for Athena ” and Sakurai went “who gives a shit about Kyo, Iori is the coolest thing I’ve seen in my life” which is so true
Saxophone under the moon
Cool Jam
What’s it like enjoying fighting games but not being able to play them
Image of squidward by the window
Same thing happened with multiplayer games like my skills evaporated after college and graduation
What the hell is aura farming
Looking tough in the tightest fits to look cool
Piccolo without a doubt is the #1 aura farmer because there was a whole interview about how piccolo showed up in movies just to look cool then get cooked
I mean eventually it did work since he got orange
Live with people who have the traits of cats that go from endearing to “please god why are you challenging me on the daily”
Sometimes nostalgia just dies unceremoniously.
My sibling and I both tried watching maggie and the ferocious beast and its like we gained consciousness and could no longer watch the show without thinking about the beast's human face
Life sized 6 foot Unicron and 4 foot metroplex they’re calling them divorce classes lmaoooo
This is a demographic thing but there’s a lot of “Nintendo-only” type of people (sort of like Disney onlies) who also end up being the forefronts of leading discussions on things which is in turn, a perpetual ouroboros. Like the sheer amount of RPG hating fans popping up whenever smash bros came around was quite a bit of a mess, especially since Japan literally has a day where they have a day off for when the latest dragon quest releases so it doesn’t screw up with their schedules while in the West they were battling over which platformer character “deserved” to be in smash more.
Sora truly was the funniest outcome for the final guy though.
Vibes so bad a man died from being next to a politician
A good show will have people say it’s good and probably not think about it, a potential amateur show lives rent free in people’s minds because it would be so good if… which then spirals into a million never ending hypotheticals.
Been thinking about the future of my site lately
Like for example, if neocities suddenly exploded within the next few months, it’d be really hard for me to move onto nekoweb or tea cake because I’m currently hitting the 500 MB limit so I’d need to get rid of something like an anchor to make sure some part of the site can be cut off, and what would be the easiest part to cut out without affecting the rest of the site
Idk, if I did the math, probably the Pokemon stuff.
If i made a Pokemon centric site I probably wouldn’t give it the Pokemon tag mostly because I think people who have the tag really like Pokemon and sometimes my opinion on the franchise flip flop and go tipsy turvy
So not the best look for a centric site to be so ambivalent, right? I should make it have pokemon, but maybe other stuff too.
Like an RPG site so I update it less since RPGs take longer to play on average.
Good idea.
Me seeing a character collapse: diva down!
Manifesting politicians chasing each other like playing tag or something because I think they'd be god awful at even playing hide and seek without lying
it feels like kindergarten but with racist old people
Ohhhh you want to tag each other so bad and sabotage each other and get the public masses to realize you all suck
I wish they’d be more interested in actually helping the public instead of stroking their egos
Like remember when (insert president here) was just chilling at a park and playing basketball
current president would be like "we need to get rid of the basketball parks, because they have the bad people there. we have to get rid of the bad people."
I think Sonic’s friends should get their own spinoffs like the Mario cast does if they’re not gonna make any more adventures (ignoring frontiers dlc)
I’d love to play a rogue spy game or like a big fishing game or an egg man robot building game
For future reference, don’t use two blow dryers at once if you don’t want to knock out the electrical grid
I warned them in advance to not do that
breaking news: person supposed to be working on various activities reportedly seen playing "burger game" instead of working
in other news,
clown spotted in circus
water is wet
Be me: I can’t wait to look at so and so franchise
- Racism jumpscare
Racism jumpscare
Stereotype
I didn’t even know that was a derogatory term
Sexism jumpscare
Ableism jumpscare
Bad romance jumpscare (rah rah ooh la la)
I hope your franchise withers into dust and irrelevancy, yeah that’s happened. I hope your franchise gets a new entry which gets a bunch of fans that act hostile towards older material and refuse to engage with it and say it all sucks compared to their work, horrible, it’s happened to me multiple times. I bet I’ve already said this on this page before.
Maybe someone with sanity and basic human decency can hopefully put things back on track only for the morons to come back and derail things again. That’s politics.
People will force you to do everything they want for their lives and then wonder why there’s zero will and freedom to make your own decisions becuase you’ve been always forced to do what they want because they’ll throw a tantrum after if you slightly disagree
Lychee jelly is only good in drinks for me
I feel so annoyed by such simple things that people have decided need to be connected to the internet and phone apps now as if battle network didn’t prep me to be wary of the concept of a smart doorbell.
Clippy this clippy that Give me back my dog
Anime inspired western made cartoons have now gained a new term in my lexicon: hamburger anime.
that stupid map is 20 MB and I compressed it IMMEDIATELY the evil is defeated if i took an image compressor and compressed every image on the site i'd probably reduce it to an absurd amount but the quality would nosedive and i'd have to reconstruct it all images are big, gifs are tiny, i hate webp.
Sucks to be a hater these days because you’ll get weirdos crawling out of their hell hole to go “yesss we hate this too because buzzword” only for me to have to go “I HATE THIS IN A DIFFERENT WAY FROM YOU, GET OUT”
I don’t know a lick of Japanese, which means any gals that do have words on them is essentially just that one scene in the English dub of bobobo-bobo : “get those words off of me.” I do want to learn it though.
I think the most fun in college I had sometimes was when I would mess around with MS office and make html pages with it and a few of my backgrounds and gifs were actually lifted from those days There’s layers of backstory to it all
yeah there is definitely a problem in life even when you're sitting here going "come on, DO something" and you can't even bring yourself to do work or slack off and instead just sit there watching time slip by as if people aren't going to yell at you but I can't even bring myself to do what I need to do or what I want to do so I'm just. sitting here doing nothing. And this is with medicine!
Recession indicated by snack wrap making a comeback Wild to consider last recession was the DS and Wii and the next one will be the switch 2 Weird
The incredibizzare feeling you get from helping a resident vacationeer pack where the whole place goes from tornado to clean back to tornado and they go “I heart vacations, don’t you want to go too?” But every single vacation experienced from childhood to adulthood has been so disaster prone you’re glad when you just go local. It’s a matter of perspective, but I feel like I save a lot more money just checking out places in the area versus out of area or in another country.
How come streaming services have so many shows but when you want to watch something with another person all of a sudden there’s nothing or it’s pulling up the most random things you’ve never seen in your life
Maplestory Classic server has been announced and the full temptation of the mushroom devil is whispering in my ear ooooh you want to waste time grinding oooohh Artale on Worlds is COOKED
The OG plan was to update in April, specifically April 2nd, with a big old rickroll stamp for April fools but I got lazy and never coded lmao
I asked a guy at a resturaunt if he could make a small bowl of ramen so I could try it and he gave me a little cup and I genuinenly thought for a few minutes he was somehow going to make the ramen fit into that cup
Questing for scrapper figurine When I get my hands on YOU
If I had a nickel I’d have a whole quarter Learning that a resturaunt closed not because of the pandemic but because it set on fire
Banished from doing research until I take notes on what I’ve already gathered to incorporate into things (more and less fun than you’d imagine)
I’m like a scholar putting together a story from my whack episodic notes.
Misc Thought Corner
Misc thoughts corner
The vocaloid music stays on until morale improves
Me: Damn, March sucked, I hope aprils better
April:
Tomodachi life, rhythm heaven, and Kirby air ride are all back to the switch 2
And deltarune
Me: yo, let me check my wallet
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Never mind
Why are we going back to SNES cartridge prices
The backlog’s looking real nice RN
And that’s just the US of A prices if you live anywhere else with import prices the rates are astronomical
DONT LET SNK COOK WITH GUEST FIGHTERS THE CROWD IS CONFUSED
Woagh
Nintendo 64…
The bar is so low for video game adaptions to other mediums that it clips through the ground. Especially when you get a team of people who don’t even like the games or their stories or have even played the game.
Flint and Steel.
Trying to find new artists to be inspired by and feeling like looking for water in the desert. Burnout's got me gripped!
Currently at the moment though I've been looking at stuff like:
Baron Ueda
Sarah Mills
Ezra Jack Keats
Mid Century Illustration as a whole (relates to UPA)
What do I even want my art style to be?
So far it’s just cute, I cannot for the life of me draw realistically
At this point my style is cartoons and chibi and I should lean into that way more
To the simple styled books!
pixel web aesthetic being held up by sayclub and decome and cyworld like atlas
I wish that there that one YouTube extension that gets rid of comments and recommended videos and just replaces them with bunnies worked on mobile
It would make my YouTube brainrot cut by 70%
For anyone wondering about the full album listening, it’s been moved to the interests page.
NaNoWriMo is completely dead!
Yeah, that’s kind of what tends to happen if you sell out to GenAI.
Anyways, word sprints on the daily are absolutely not my style, I ended up just filling out a word count versus actually making anything useful.
FF14,
Arcadion Theory
The funniest thing I still think can happen is the entire plot being kayfabe wrestling as the greatest raid jape with the fights being staged
The guy turning into a gundam was real and so was the undertaker brute bomber ( that hasn’t happened yet but since every tier has had him in expecting him to come back like “here comes the brute bomber with a steel chair!” Keeping his heel status.Shhh. )
Not following YouTubers heavily and some of them are just doing sidequests and shit
The funniest thing happening in pokemon has probably gotta be the normal YouTubers finding showdown and deciding to start random streamer battles and putting down snipe lists and calling competitive players washed when chances are they’re gonna be obliterated, some of them don’t even know the type chart yet
Posts from my Writer's blog
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I got sick of the actual page so I removed it.
Genres I think I write in mostly:
Urban fantasy, epistolary format, prompting
Talking bout Concepts
I feel like a lot of people here either set up their site with sadgirl templates or with repth, meanwhile I've got a mix of both lol.
It’s very funny that two of my prompts about the horrors of being chosen with a role you’re forcibly defined by earlier is just the definition of functionism in IDW transformers alongside the matrix of leadership in general for transformers. The horrors of being *checks notes*: Rodimus Prime.
Hot rod might be the weirdest character out of context to have such a large role in the grand scheme of transformers mythos but also simultaneously appear like maybe once or twice in a cartoon past G1 in a minor role not counting his successor characters because it’s like day 3 of getting his new job and he’s already punched Satan into a coma, people outside of canon (AKA IRL) hate him for becoming allegorical Jesus because he’s blamed for killing Jesus 1 (Optimus Prime, he gets better though), he wasn’t even the first pick for Jesus to begin with, he does not want the divine rights of the god king power, God remade him into his image because of nepotism in one of the non IDW comics apparently , he’s been both a sleeper agent and vessel for the aforementioned Satan because the writers didn’t want to explain the mirror dimension in one of their cartoons and he gets a stupid ass goatee , he has multiple evil clones , Weird Al is there, all he wanted to do was go fishing with his little human guy and relax and he’s been put into the wringer ever since. I know nothing about MTMTE/IDW so who knows what happens to him there either. I think they should make another cartoon where he’s the main character again, Optimus needs to take a nap and retire.
Tbh functionism is also just Megaman, they literally talk about being shut down because they can’t fulfill their function of killing Megaman in the Archie comics to explain the robot museum. I was a Megaman fan longer than transformers but I’ve been so busy with transformers that I forgot.
So what do I want to write for anyways?
Uh, currently it’s between transformers and pokemon if you can’t tell. I have plenty of story concepts I’ve got for other stuff like Precure, Miitopia, Megaman, Sonic, biggest one I’m still working on is Kirby since I had a fan OC comic concept when I was a teenager. Plus if you check chat rooms and the OC page, I’ve got plenty of weird sub story worlds.
My major thing is I only ever make fanfic ideas versus executing full stories unless they’re one shots because I feel the need to plan out everything with little scrabble notes like I’m making the worlds largest puzzle.
Well, I have plenty of drafts (mostly bullet points), but I got completely sidetracked by trying to make a digital portfolio with my college assignments. I did finally find a proper writing app in ellipsus, and my major goal is just to have fun at this point. Maybe I’ll make stories for myself instead of making stories for the sake of it. I think there’s plenty of ways to write stories instead of me trying to slam myself into a long form format because that’s just not how my brain wants to make stories happen.
Idk what my writing niche is (never writing, always note sorting is not what I want to be) but in theory I probably prefer stuff like shorter stories, character studies, slices of life, multiple formats…
The concept I want is epistolary format. That’s what it is. So far the only thing I’ve got though is sheets of scrap. It’s up to me to make that somehow
coherent rather than snippets, but the process is so sloooowwwww.. At this rate I'd probably be faster making like, a recycling bin of ideas versus writing it all out. But I want to
write, not just put out ideas!
New edit: Most of the stuff from college? Absolute Garbo, trash, rubbish, never leaving my hard drive, BEGONE. Going to the recycling BIN.
Motivation
What is my writing motivation? Usually it’s external rather than internal. I like reading other people’s things rather than my own.
I feel like I probably give off a more pretentious secular view of not enjoying the general state of things on my other writing spot in spite of knowing that my work isn’t that great either but a lot of times to be inspired you have to either motivate yourself or be motivated by something else to write and so far there hasn’t really been a “something else” to make me want to write anything interesting aside from the fact I’ve had files sitting on my hard drive that I don’t want to have die on my hard drive. I’ll admit it too, I’m not so different about the things I complain about either. I think ultimately that any idea that is put down can be good, it’s just the way that the idea is executed that can lead to it being all over the place. This isn’t just a fanfic thing because I’ve felt like that over published books or video game stories as well.
I find my own writing style and art style to both be rather average but in terms of like literary analysis I can kind of do that since I'm primarily an English major with a degree that is aimed towards the art of language (I was originally supposed to be a game developer but it fell flat when it was discovered I couldn't code for a fig.)
And ultimately this whole lack of a writing style or motivation is primarily my fault for not reading anything since graduation aside from manga and fanfic, but the thing is now I’m no longer in college slacker mode but like this vaguely described “adult world” where I have adult responsibilities and things like books are ultimately frivolous and anything I’m invested in will be easily interrupted because in adult world I am reduced to a subordinate lackey who lives only to serve other people. No time for reading when you’re mentally exhausted, so I end up going with the easier route of watching a show because that is easier for the brain to parse. Doesn’t really help with the writing style outside of dialogue though.
I feel like primarily being an artist means I can be more motivated by images and memes and random things I see in my day to day life versus writing where if I need to write something that isn’t just a joke post or for something like my cohost (RIP) or neocities I simply only write down notes for an idea which I will fill out later. I’ve only got notes.
So I’ve decided to go back to basics. I’ll be trying to look through books I already have saved that would make me “tick” as a writer. Why did I save or buy these books? What do I want to write? Why do I want to write it? When do I want to write it?
If I can’t really answer that soon then maybe I just admit my fate is that I’m better off as an ideas person and that most of my writing would be better off for like, drawing material or something.
Chosen Choices
The concept of a chosen one in my personal preference is a lot cooler when it’s played for horror.
Because it’s like I know some people would love to be like told they have a grander purpose and destiny and like a lot of times “chosen one” defaults to being the paragon of virtue and goodness and going on a wonderful adventure based on the whims of fate deciding that you are the most important person in the world! You now have a Purpose and you will be defined by it.
What if the chosen one thing is a scam?
What if it’s all made up and there’s no chosen one at all?
Or you know, what if the chosen one’s role was actually being a sacrificial lamb. Being the chosen one for evil and watching as your actions only makes things worse. Having the people around you know your fate and purpose in life but not tell you anything as to not derail the world’s purpose. You are chosen for the sake of the world! Put aside how you ultimately feel about leaving everything you’ve known behind, put aside the fact that people you might have trusted might not have told you the truth of the matter, put aside your morals, this person has to die because they’re trying to defy fate, which has guided us here. You were chosen, and you will change, and you will suffer.
You’re the chosen one! You don’t have a choice.
Tools 2?
A basic kind of question. I used to mostly write on on wordpad or MS Word before going to libreOffice,
then I switched to google docs right up until their AI integration thing, then I moved to Notion
for notes until they ALSO started doing AI integration,
I tried out Obsidian but I kind of like being able to cross write between devices without payment, and standard notes is alright,
but I have to constantly be sorting through all my notes to make sure that they're in the right spot and category.
(I’m not paying $120 for the premium plan though, that’s nuts.) Then if this couldn't get anymore confusing,
I sort all of those notes back onto my libreOffice documents. I do not want AI integration near any of my stuff,
it's very simple, which sucks, because Notion was my best app and then they started pulling that shit. I want a crossposting
app I don’t have to pay money for. Then Evernote did too, and I really did want to transfer there at one point...
oh well. But as you can tell by the end result, it's a very stupid system. Better than handwriting though, my handwriting is unreadable.
For drawing, it used to be tayasui sketches, but now I’ve been attempting ibis Paint X. Idk how that works. Mostly i just use pencil and pen and paper but I need to use those more often because I have years of blank sketchbooks I never drew in. And stickers. Love sticking stickers onto sketchbooks.
Music wise, I use VLC on my desktop with various songs I’ve found, YouTube for long playlists and being annoyed by ads, and Spotify, but it doesnt really work out much. I have radio apps, but I don’t really use them that frequently. I tend to try to write depending on what I think works best like some pumped up rock music but honestly my best ideas tend to come when I’m not trying to write, so, when I’m bored as shit trying to learn or do job hunting. Lately I've been using Azali and M2U music to imagine cool fight scenes. I think maybe I'll look up sprite animations and see if they have their music sources saved as a playlist so I can spend more time imagining scenes to embody the stories.
My work is normally wrapped around a single image or concept that encompasses the story and then the rest of the story is getting to executing that concept or image.
"Couldn't you just write the scene instead of buildup"
Well, it wouldn't be that much of a story if it was just the one fight without context. It's like that time in one club where they showed us
a random episode of HxH to go "see it's good" and no one knew anything about the show so we were like "what's that? who's that? why's he doing that?"
Original Stories...
Writing original stories instead of established franchises is a difficulty onto itself based on what you decide to take as your influence. This is kinda like the lesson log thing from week 8 where you consider that the reader will be familiar with some terms based on the franchise which is why they clicked on the story to begin with. But if it’s OCs and OC Lore and an entirely original setting within a franchise, you have to write basically an entirely original story.
The level of OG writing and fanfiction is that franchises already have everything set up for the writer to use like characters and the world and setting and timeline and most importantly. The plot, or lack thereof if you’re doing something like a rewrite or AU or fixit or Isekai fixit or OC/SI or something. The rules of the world or franchise, in order to ensure the readers willing suspension of disbelief or just go full Gurren Lagann and go beyond the limits. Note: this may have the effect of making yourself go “this is so stupid.” (I write my stories for myself first, readers second so most of my stories hit the stupid thing from the get go.)
I’d say there are franchises with stories that have lore but its never brought up too much to make entryway impossible in terms of all ages media: stuff like ,
sonic, Kirby, and RWBY. I say RWBY because it has lore (it sure does) but there’s a chance you can plop your character pre season/volume 3
and they can do whatever they want because the maiden relic stuff only came later. As long as they’re related to a fairy tale, got a color name,
and some cool semblance you can do whatever!
Same for Madoka, there’s a mobile game with lore, but you can just make your OC live in an area outside of the
main city and things can still work out. (I realize this can apply to many anime and comics that have power level systems and will no longer have examples.)
Sonic has so many different branching franchise points with their own various canons and casts and even then you can throw out all preestablished characterization
for the sake of parody or crossover, which was the case for many sprite comics I saw on smackjeeves.
Megaman also has this because bob and George pretty much was the setup for this but it's also pretty easy because you can just go with "this is my new robot master OC GUN MAN".
I guess MHA can be considered with quirks but really you can apply that to any already established world with an easy breakdown of how powers work and the structure of the world.
Consider how many historical figures can be used for a franchise like Fate (but then Fate lore as I mentioned is all over the place.)
Mario is so minimal in plot you can do whatever you want, even with the RPGs you can plop Mario in something like fire emblem or
undertale but as long as you play it completely straight with your characterization it’ll work. Kingdom hearts would’ve been considered for being
a Disney/FF crossover with its own universe and rule set as long as you ignore the main plot and just make up your own disney worlds to visit but it’s got a hit for the whole “lore important stuff is in a gacha game spinoff that shut down and then it's done again.”
Kirby is there because there is lore but two different paths and one is the anime and the other is the games and do not conflate anime lore and game lore because you will
be poked with pitchforks. Like he’s not a star warrior or whatever, nowadays he is like a being of infinite power (like Shadow.) Kirby could beat shadow.
There is one franchise I could use as a far better example of “everyone knows it and the readers would get whatever the writer is saying” because of its popularity but the author completely sucks as a human being so I’ll just use the next best example and say “a Percy Jackson AU where you write about him having a sister or something and she dates an OC from the Hermes Cabin.” Harmless, easy to parse. “A Percy Jackson AU about a person from another camp that is the Norse gods and they’re trying to stop Ragnarok.” Slow down, pal.
I haven’t read any Rick riordan book since the one about the Egyptian gods. I hope that one’s not real or I’m gonna look silly.
I feel like most of my original stories branched off from whatever I was into at the time which I mentioned before as an effect of “writing fanfiction but with the names changed.” I guess in that way my heart was on my sleeve… Maybe I’d make a lot more stuff if I went into making sprite comics instead… thing is I’d make a few and then immediately drop it after getting bored. Cucumber quest is a comic I used to read online but that got wrapped up in a Google doc… that doesn't have to do with my work though. I'd probably never make a comic because I look at my art and go "auuugh, I want to draw more!" But whenever I do draw nothing comes to mind. I stare at a blank sheet going "DRAW" and nothing happens.
Music
I've finally properly linked this page to the writing directory. It's called fanfics but I'm considering renaming it even though I know a ton of links will end up broken by that... Oh well, I did that already when I decided to rename the site to not be FF14 related anymore, right?
Music is pretty nice, right?
I mostly just ended up listening to artists I usually used for studying back on campus.
Stuff like re:plus, DJ okawari, July, Yiruma, Blazo, Raujika, Nujabes (RIP), Kondor. So maybe just a mix of jazz and lofi beats…?
I learned about them from this playlist on Spotify called “Maplestory.” I feel like the significance that game had on my life can’t be ignored, but honestly, I could do without the gambling aspect, and the daily grinding and boss leveling and legions where the more characters you had the bigger stats so it was a big timesink. At that point I went “this is a JOB, not a game!” and I ended up switching to FF14 a bit after. That and despite the name “Maplestory” there were only a significant amount of places and quests that actually had good stories and half the time they ended up removed from the game or “revamped” in a way that made them worse. Ellinia, Ludibrium, El Nath, and Orbis were probably my favorite spots aesthetic wise. It's a game that also inspired me to write because of watching sprite battles and whatnot and going "I want to do that too!"
The more they tried going out to different planets and dimensions and shit I started mentally checking out. Friendstory was a little spinoff that never got expanded outside of one character, which made me think maybe that would be significant, but it was not. I thought Shade/Eunwol’s story was pretty sad because no one would ever remember him. They kept retconning a bunch of things and adding in revamped stories to old class stories which makes stuff pretty jarring when old NPCs still have their quests from years ago still in the game with the same exp pool.
No one actually plays Maplestory for the story so it’s just an aspect of the games age from 20+ years. Once I realized that they weren’t gonna stop after the black mage and kept increasing level caps to 300 I kinda thought “eh? I thought we’d downsize, not just introduce a new villain as being the real mastermind behind everything…” and them pushing this new direction of the player being the super chosen one instead of a select few classes being the significant game changers also took me out.
I miss old explorer because they were free to wander with only a smidgeon of story with the RED revamp that introduced the more important characters but I’ve heard the newer one has to do like an hour long story tutorial which is a supercut of that revamp where everything revolves around a bunch of text dumps and barely any gameplay. If I played something like that when I was my age playing Maplestory I’d probably never play again.
(When did I start playing again…? Tempest was 2012, but I played a bit before that I think? Maybe at 10? …so I really did play this now 20 year old game for almost 12 years on and off again? Sheesh.)
I guess I like some stories more when you aren’t the center of existence where everyone is constantly praising you just for breathing. These are my personal gripes though. The real gripe was the gambling where if you fucked up a piece of equipment it would explode and you’d have to go refight a boss and hope it had the right stats. GAMBLING WITH REAL MONEY BY THE WAY. Nexon also got under fire for rigging the stats on the gambling cubes. The only thing you should buy with money in an MMO for me should’ve been cosmetics.
I do use Maplestory ost for writing and creativity sometimes, but it gets me fuming like above because buried under that thing are the vestiges of a game I used to enjoy and now thinking back on it it was just a huge chore and a waste of time.
Lessons
I apparently downloaded a bunch of lessons from a writing class so I'm gonna try breaking them down for a better reading since chances are I'm never gonna actually use these otherwise... never said my writing was good though, I just like writing.
Let's see how well I can write notes and condense the weeks!
Week 1
Simile, Metaphor, and Symbol
Simile: comparing two unrelated words with like, as, than, appears, seems
Metaphor: same thing but doesn't use those words.
Symbol: comparing two things but not having the abstract object be named
Writer mention: T. S. Eliot
Week 2
Image and character:
Assign an image for the character based on diction (word choice) and dialect (language variations) to nail a person to place, time, gender, economic class, or social state. Depends on the author's ear.
Pyhsical detail for an intro can be for definition and plot device.
Writer mention: Alice Walker, Emily Bronte, Samuel Taylor Colderidge
Week 3
Framing Time
There is Real time--explicit or implicit
There is narrative time to tell past events, fragments of history, or sections of plot info
Mythic time frame represents the real cause for the narrative truth.
Week 4
Setting has several functions: the concrete location, but also painting a scene in a self contained world. Not every detail has to be there.
Writer mention: Katherine Mansfield
Week 5
Writing is a process of sorting priorities.
How does style work?
I guess it's like fashion, you can be fancy or minimalist.
Authors are normally recognized by their style.
Writing outside of a comfort zone isn't really a thing I do. (but I don't even know what my style IS.)
Writer mention: Matthew Arnold, Ambrose Bierce, Gabriel Garcia-Marquez
Week 6
The Theme: Don't let default themes overtake our thinking, it should be more abtract.
Write instead of the greater truth, the thing the character learns as a whole.
What is the greater truth and when do I need to know it?
Any created world holds within itself the "greater truth."
Writer mention: William Wordsorth
Week 7
POVs: I is first person, you is 2nd person, he or they or she is third person. third person is shifting characters. Sometimes they aren't concrete defined, like there will be "I' coming from a third person narrative.
Writer mention: Stephen Crane, Franz Kafka
Week 8
It helps to visualize the Author sitting in a chair, writing or typing the story. Clearly, that individual, both in time and in space, is not really the Narrator, since, first, writing the story or the book takes days, weeks, whatever, and the Narrator's time frame is always different. We first want to note that the Author and the Narrator will have a different experience of Time. If your First Person writing seems like it is coming from the Author in the chair, you have, in an important sense, not really created a Narrator.
There are many different types of Narrators, so they aren't omniscient and all knowing of the narrative.
Unless you make it so...
You can also make multiple narrators appear for the story.
Writer mention: Edgar Allen Poe, Charlotte Perkins Gillman
Week 9
Writer Mentions stop after this point. Some weeks have less info.
Week 11
Reading Theory advances the notion that every piece of writing depends 20% on what the writer has written down and 80% on what the reader brings to the exchange. The theory maintains that, for any reader to get new information from a piece of writing, the reader has to be able to supply this 80%. So info is split into two ways: familiar, which readers should know, and unfamiliar, which writers should teach.
The most reliable way to set up a situation where the default assumptions are going to seem confirmed by the Reader is to 1. start with images that the Reader does have and 2. use descriptive language that includes sensory experiences the Reader is likely to have experienced.
Week 12
Plotting
Character and plot summarized in the process is a bit much... You need to have an idea of the direction of the plot.
What the audience finds out is more important than the discovery.
"The whole trick of Plotting is not knowing the plot, per se, nor inventing one,
it is in figuring out when to tell the reader who knows what."
The plot is the revelations that are given.
Writer Mentions: Alice Munroe, Annie Dillard, Arundhati Roy, Richard Ford, VS Naipaul, John Irving, Joan Didion
Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Week 13
Beginnings and Endings
First/last lines that are truly excellent do more than present a stylish flourist - they often characterize the scope, setting, direction, and even "greater truth" of a piece of writing.
so they're really important to establish the EVERYTHING of the plot.
There is no Week 14.
Week 15
Dialog should move the plot. (Note: this means it is not primarily a tool to illustrate character - if what your character is saying is not moving the story ahead, you don't need it.) Dialect is when the writer uses a non-standard version of language to distinguish a character.
There are more sensory things than just seeing-- what about hear, feel, smell, and thinking...
NY Qs
Grabbed from tumblr during my move but never properly posted.
rather than try to write things that aren’t getting me interested to write, i’d like to go back to trying out daily writing again. Like drabbles, I guess.
but I’ll always be introducing new ideas instead of old ones… I don’t think my system of just working on old ideas is working though.
I also filled out a q and a.
I copy pasted the questions but I forgot to grab the source so now I just have a list of answers with no author to the original.
Do you have a word-count goal for the upcoming year?
No.
Will you participate in any fandom exchanges or fic challenges, etc?
Not exactly, no. I’m not social enough to do that and I kinda let my ask blog die because I lost interest.
Do you anticipate writing for a new fandom this year? Which one?
It’s not new, but it’s more or less new fics for an old fandom, Kirby.
Do you think you’ll stop writing for a fandom this year? Which one?
Probably FFXIV once I finish the vampire story. My brain has been Pokemon fixated for a while.
If I finish that though, I’ll write a new fic with my XIV inspired stuff.
Which WIP is first on your list to complete this year? Will you post a snippet?
It’s finishing up Chio Hall. I have like, a rudimentary plan for chapter 2 but not much. I liked the chat room I had in the previous chapter interlude so I want to continue that.
Which yet-to-be-started fic is first on your list?
Kirby’s Back to Basics. It’s a fic covering dreamland 1 but with a twist to introducing characters.
Will you change anything about the way you interact with other writers?
No. Well, I’ve been considering exiting this discord for fandom writers since I’m losing interest in the fandom but I don’t really have anyone else to talk to so I just stay and lurk.
Is there a story idea in your mental vault that you’ve never been brave enough to try writing? Is this the year? Can you tell us about it?
The XIV 8 man MSQ, mostly because no one has finished the MSQ yet. And also, juggling 8 characters seems difficult when one of them continues to be flat as a board. (I just can’t get Lily to be interesting to me no matter how much I try.)
Short term goals… what do you hope to complete this week or in January?
I want to get back into writing 500 word drabbles every week or so.
Will you keep a record of all the fics you write and/or post this year?
Probably on Notion, it’s where I transferred all of my notes and stuff. I do have a desktop backup when I post them onto tumblr but so far everything is still just HTML.
Note: It is no longer notion.
Would you like to try any new fanfic genres or tropes this year?
Not really.
Will you change anything about the way you edit or rewrite this year?
Try to come up with something more consistent with my posting/writing. I just write down whatever and only when I’m struck by inspiration do I make something and then post it.
Aside from fanfic, are there any other fan works you’d like to try creating? Fanart, or fanvids, gifsets, or podfic?
I like drawing but I don’t draw specific fanart. If I had the patience I’d draw for my own stories, but I’m kinda mediocre, so I rely on Piccrew and memes for context.
Have you ever lost large chunks of your work in the past, due to not backing up your work? Will you change your methods this year?
The only chunks of work I’ve lost are the original works I purposefully wiped from my hard drive out of embarrassment that I’d never become a published author and because of family pressure of always wanting to read my works. I did have them physically printed out, which thinking about it now seems worse. Now I just write whatever and post it on my tumblr.
Do you foresee any personal or professional obstacles this year, that would keep you from creating fanworks?
Familial pressure and my inattentiveness.
Do you have that one fanfic that you wrote a ton for, ages ago, but never posted? Will this be the year, come hell or high water, that it WILL get finished and posted?
I guess it would again be my XIV works but they’ve been scattered notes for years. Not very readable. I don’t think it’ll be this year because my interest has kinda dwindled for the game and fandom, I still love my characters I made for it though.
Do you typically post multi-chapters as you write, or finish it all and then start posting? Would you like to change your posting method?
I post multi chapters as I finish them. The only thing I’d like to change about my posting method is the frequency.
Would you consider non-fandom writing events, like NaNoWriMo or writing contests?
No. Last time I tried NaNo I got burnt out. Its better for me to not be competitive. There’s a 7 day writing game I’ve been wanting to try out but I’m unsure of when I’d get the free time to do so.
Any plans to work on original fiction this year?
Possibly denizens of dreams, which is just a Kirby story with the names changed and the lore is made up. Otherwise maybe I’ll go find my original works and go make them readable instead of just bullets.
Will you try writing software, like Scrivener or those programs that won’t let you stop writing?
I should, but iPad notes have served me well enough as something that’s easy to access when I want to write something down. I did use a dungeon fighting game one time but my issue is that I get brain farts about the word count versus the content.
Do you plan to take writing classes this year?
I could always use one on courseera.
Would you like to go on a writing retreat?
No.
By the end of this year, you want your fandom to think of you as “that author who _______.”
Uhh, no fandom engagement. I’m mostly just here to post stuff.
If you answered questions from this list last year, find your answers and compare your goals to your results. How’d you do?
I didn’t do this last year.
January 4th, 2024 3:14pm
New Edit: Apparently NaNo got some kind of AI integration thing. Damn, can't have anything these days. I was considering actually signing up too...
Look, I'll admit I am a mediocre writer. I'm mostly all talk and no productivitiy. But I'd rather post absolutely nothing than just getting a generator to do it for me.
Remember when AI dungeon was all the rage? I think that's as far as this thing should've gone because it's
really discouraging to want to write and then people around me go "well, just get an AI to do it for you!" No thanks.
Tools 1
Writing Log: Things I've collected and my own anecdotes... A few of these will definitely be pulled from my no longer used writing tumblr. New edit: I just combined stuff into my misc. diary page to reduce the amount of pages.
The pomodoro timer:
I'm really bad at getting time to write anything so I'm making this roadmaps project to sort through all my notes like how I did it for stuff I printed out years ago
Note to self: I will probably regret this
My notes personally shuffle between obsidian, standard notes, and LibreOffice. I downloaded FocusWriter but not much there yet.
(embarrassingly literally the best thing I type on the most is notepad (not even PLUS), wordpad, or my actual phone notes... get it together.) (not even PLUS)
Motivation wise: Written, Kitten! There was this one where there was like, RPG battles but Idk the name.
Art Wise: I normally make characters through either doll divine dress up games, Picrew (minus black characters because Whooooo it's whack there), and Maplestory.Design (when the site decides to work), maybe I'll also draw them (HAHA)
I make a music playlist of like themes that I can imagine fight scenes to
What is prose lmao.
No pen or paper yet.
Instead of trying to rewrite my tumblr HTML I'm just gonna take the fics from there and repost them to Neocities as is...? It's already code.
- Have a brainstorming session and an idea log for ideas that distract you from your plot
- make an outline/map of plot points beforehand instead of free writing, define parts you want to happen
- A lot of people have a daily word count but most of the time I just ended up writing nonsense to fill out a quota like I did with NaNo...
FF14
Old Posts: 2022 and 2023 Era of an Old now deleted tumblr blog
(It's either memes about not writing or piccrews of my FF14 chars.)
Maybe flash fiction would work out for me to write because longer things are still something I need to build up. Here I am talking about it as if it’s a skill tree or something…
I really am more of a “cool concept” person versus a full on writer… maybe writing out scripts again would help. Or drawing it out. I used to try drawing a lot but honestly that just feels like excuses for me to distract myself to not write stuff.
Unfortunately I’ve discovered that I don’t have any dedication to having designated writing time, only that I’m struck randomly by inspiration and if I don’t write everything down at that instant I’ll just sit on concepts for months. Then once I’m done doing that I just post them to tumblr without checking for anything else. That’s why I’m the one shot wonder, I guess…
But, because of this, I’m still nowhere near with the part timers story or reopening their blog because my interest in 14 wanes and waxes. I haven’t even finished the fall guys event yet, that’s how much my interest has flatlined. I might write for Decembhyur but that’ll be kinda funny if Pepper is the character I’ve written the most months for consistently.
Updates are still the most relevant way of figuring out what I’m working on WIP wise, but ever since I queued up the entirety of what was the initial plan for prog rock its sort of opened up a floodgate where I realize i can just post whatever i want even if it’s not finished or readable because I have a problem where I just hoard concepts and ideas and do nothing with them. Also…. I wonder how these posts end up being found. I don’t tag them, so does tumblr just lump them in with keywords anyways?
In my newest Pokémon fic I will describe Pokémon as both a sports anime and dog competition anime Not the Chio one. The one after it.
Musing. If i had a fic planned out for a franchise I’m no longer paying attention to, and said fic has been a radical departure from what the rest of the franchise wants, do I even consider it a fandom fic? I could always just label it as an original work, I suppose.
The franchise in question was cookie run, specifically oven break, before Kingdom came and basically invalidated all of the plot along with oven break not having a plot, that’s why I started making it to begin with…
August
Break’s over! Sadly, I gotta get back to work too, but I got a
great new idea that I basically made as a daydream to entertain me on a flight.
Halloween centric storyline! …which I’m pretty sure was based on an idea I had for last year I never finished.
It was a pretty large daydream, like, I had put down Rene as a vampire living in the haukke manor, M’ari /Ira as some sort of wizard with the kids as his familiars in their own stories, Lily was still a researcher though, lol. She had zero fear of all the crazy supernatural stuff around her.
I don’t really have an ending for it since the daydream ended on a cliffhanger with the manor burning.
Much to my dismay, I completely forgot where I found these images of a fan made encyclopedia Eorzea entry.
I can say though that I found the font of FFXIV through google and one was located through Locke Rinnanis’s blog whereas the readable font is just Cambria.
Writer's Log: October 2nd Edition 400 words is the count for Nano, I think? 500 words is the amount that's needed for a flash fiction, which might be my style.
To Do then! (New Edition.)
I've got this stimluwrite thing I downloaded that I've been typing with and it seems to be working so far. Wish I could change the resolutiion but whatever.
To do then! (For Real.)
Continue Neocities descriptions for the FFXIV Gang Which involves learning CSS and HTML for real... wow, that was really 2 years ago. Get back into drawing Read more after the sorting of books vs research Oh my god, the flash drives.
NaNo in 2023...
Why am I not doing XIVwrite?
because I’ll only do like 4 days straight of it and then forget to finish it up/ stay consistent.
Will I do NaNo?
last time I did NaNo I did it through an XIV related discord but all I did was write the equivalent of hot air. I don’t know how people sort through their notes to make anything written and at this rate the only way I’ll ever post is if I launch it into the stratosphere without ever looking back and then I’ll reread it and somehow wipe it off the face of the earth. I try not to do that these days
but if I ever feel that I’ll likely just stop posting on one of these many blogs.
