Journal 2!!

Template post baby!

Everything else might get spoiler texted but not my own diary entries, you gotta see these in all of their cringe power Eh, maybe the less recent ones might get this treatment, idk... I'm wishy washy.

Followup to a page located in my art notebook which was uhhh, here? Inspiration Gallery

Petty art grievance:

I love researching, I love being detailed about things that matter to like, a handful of people. I hate having art block. I like to make collages of stuff to inspire me, occasionally using Google or Pinterest.
I’m kinda annoyed at how whenever I’m trying to properly look for different shows to study from in the 90s anime section on pinterest the large majority of it is just sailor moon esque artwork based on the eyes or sailor moon AI generated content. I mean, there’s plenty of other 90s anime to work with but the “retro aesthetic” seems to be fixated on just one show and it’s a good show, but it makes me trying to make a good board annoying because even when I click on a different show the results of pins still end up being in the same art style. Like if I had to make a list of shows that I did see pop up, it would be stuff like golden boy, ranma and inuyasha and occasionally evangelion and cowboy bebop. But that was just screenshots of the show in the results versus people drawing in the show’s art style, which is what I’m being petty about. I understand it’s a popular show, but there are more shows to draw 90s based anime fanart on. My problem is that some things get picked up to become the aesthetic and then the actual results end up skewed onto the popular results and everything else just vanishes. So I’ve been making a list of shows with varying art styles to look at for study purposes because Pinterest is slacking. Plus sourcing..nonexistent. I’m in a desert looking for water. Hello? I could say the same problem has cropped up for “ghibli aesthetic” but that’s a seperate thing of people condensing down movies into gifs and then the gifs being spread across the internet while entirely losing the context of what was happening in the movies.

My current ongoing list for shows I’ve been looking at AKA shows I’ve been noting down:

Rayearth, Nadia, Slayers, Lodoss War, Macross, Kare Kano/His and Her Circumstances, Di Gi Charat, Future Big Conan, Excel Saga, Digimon, Big O, B-Daman, Corrector Yui, Yu yu Hakusho, Escaflowne, Captain Taylor, Trigun, You’re Under Arrest, Slam Dunk, Gunsmith Cats, Cardcaptor Sakura, Darkside Blues, Cutie Honey, Great Teacher Onizuka, ah my goddess, Medabots, Phantom Thief Jeanne, Nurse Angel Ririka, Marmalade Boy, Hime Chan’s Ribbon, Giant Robo, Saint Tail, Brave Series, Initial D, Ohomajo Doremi, Yokohama Shopping Log, Tekkaman, FunFun Pharmacy, Boys Over Flowers, Nadesico, Mary Bell, Please Save my Earth, Ghost Sweeper Mikami, Yaiba, Saber Marionette, Metal Fighter Miku, Tenchi Muyo/Pretty Sammy, Wedding Peach, Neighborhood Story

Everything in 98-99 feels like it should be with the 00s stuff, right… but that might just be because it released a bit later in other regions. You know, Pokemon and Yugioh both count here too…

Older (80s): Minky Momo, Hotouko no Ken/ Fist of the North Star, Vampire Hunter D, Bubblegum Crisis, Lily CAT, Patlabor, Angel Cop, Project Ako, Urusei Yatsura, Dr. Slump, Creamy Mami, World Masterpiece Theater, Cats eye, Saint Seiya/ Caballeros del Zodiaco, Akira, City Hunter, Kinnikuman, Maple Town, Orange Road, Star of Cottonland, Sherlock Hound, Gunbuster, Galactic Heroes, Captain Tsubasa, Tokemeki Tonight, Casshern

Even older (70s): Anne of Green Gables, Ashita no Joe, Leiji Matsumo’s works (Harlock, Galaxy Express 999, Battleship Yamoto), Getter Robo, Lupin, Future Boy Conan, Aim for the Ace/Ace wo nerae , Heidi, Cutie Honey, Gatchaman, Moomin, Mazinger, Candy Candy, Yatterman, Cyborg 009, Doraemon, Gundam, Rose of Versailles (started in 79 but counts I guess), Maya the Honey Bee, Gegege no Kitaro, Time Bokan, Sally the Witch, What’s Micheal
Note that some of this list also doubles as a “to watch” list. And ratings are all over the place. I don’t have every single example.

What about 2000s anime? That might be a different list.

Currently I’ve got uhhh… Shugo Chara, Zeteubou Senshi, Sugar Sugar Rune, Rozen Maiden, Tenjo Tenghe, Kino’s Journey, Nurse Witch Koumugi, Brigadoon, Snow Fairy, Ashita no Nadja, PPGZ, Tokyo mew mew, FLCL, pita ten, pandora hearts, spice and wolf, princess tutu, nanoha, dennou Webdiver, Digimon, Rozen Maiden, Special A, Mermaid Melody, Honey and Clover, Toradora, Hamtaro, Air Gear

Clearly a too small sample. Mostly shoujo. Ignoring the more popular such as the Big 3 in this whole thing of stating there are more art styles in more anime. I can’t really think of a largely defining 2000s anime art style, it absolutely varies, unless the really wide eyes some shoujo series had counts.

Kind of fascinating to see what survives in the internet cultural background, like, Lucky Star is still going strong with memes and relatability but other shows within the same time frame and era completely dropped and vanished.

Note: the sampler would be only the 2000s because getting closer to the 2010s makes me feel old.

“The Kirby anime is 20 years old” is a statement I do not like.
What about cartoons? Varies between flash or no flash or 3D animation versus tweening and other terms. Plus after a while it stops being UPA inspired or Disney esque and then becomes anime inspired.
Or not. Thing is the more I tried looking the more I grew entirely fearful of how stuff I watched as a kid is decades old now and also how some things I watched later in my life actually came around at the same time, such as how multiple generations of pokemon came and went by the time precure splash star was finishing up. Saying things like “megaman star force isn’t that old, the anime came out in… oh.” Some studios using stuff that makes their anime look older than it actually is… really mind boggling.

What happened! It broke?! I'm gonna uhhh... move the list and see what happens.

graffiti art knitting quilting model building (with what money to buy them lol) diy crafts photography comic books chess exercise class mahjong sudoku getting a qualification Pilates Tai Chi Dance Weight Lifting Kickball music production video editing museums audiobooks researching online cookbooks (sure, why not.) word games (wordle?) puzzles (probably on the last list.) gardening (i manage to kill succulents.) astrology (like ffxiv (person who only pays attention to astrology in ffxiv) tarot Running fantasy sports (is that with real or fake money…?) history article writing geoguesser (is different from geocaching) 3D modeling with blender game programming (without unity since that blows lmao) fashion design (modelling?) interior design

The problem is that I need more to do from just the house… secondary problem is my lack of morning motivation. Sure, I could do all this stuff, or I could just watch stuff in my bed and sleep in. I’m starting to guess my listlessness is an underlying problem.
I’m thinking I might write more short stories and get back into spriting. I haven’t done that (spriting) since I was a teenager but I have the tools to do it now so I might as well.
https://writtenkitten.co/ Maybe I’ll use this too for the short stuff. 100 words seems reasonable…

Not a big fan of my older journal entries for being all over the place so I've unlisted them.

Past me worked on a list for the notebook sort of post. Neat. I never did work on these lists... I wrote these in between graduating.

Working on Themed Lists Online Documentaries Learning through online websites (Stuff like CourseEra, right) New Music Drawing (I do this already.) Yoga (I used to do this…) Cards (Solitaire?) Reading Learn a Language The News (Read it.) Free Games Origami Web Surfing (I’m trying to be more Productive…?) (oh, stumpleUpon.) Sudoku Podcasts Programming Calligraphy Geocaching (Like Geoguesser?) Organizing Tea Drinking Learning History Baking/ Cooking (Been there, done that. Hated it.) Outfits. (Maybe if the weather was nice enough…) Learn an instrument (I used to be able to play piano…) Make videos (Pass. That’s already what I do for schoolwork.) Watch Old Movies Planning (…?) (Like, with a planner, I guess? My life is full of interruptions by other people so probably not.) Puzzles Crosswords I wish some of these had more of a physical interface but unfortunately my major medium for these things is electronic… unless I like, handdraw a sudoku board? website building (I’d do this more often if i had more places to make websites that weren’t expensive.) Revamp my Neocities Webpage/ Make a New One. Write a novel (I’ve been trying to do that for years.) Meditation Painting/ Coloring Online youtube tutorials Make a vision board (Like that poster board I made on campus at the midpoint of the semester?) Take on the book pile (I do have many books…) Bookmark Cleanup Coloring Figure Drawing Line Drawing Poetry Trivia Running (like with wii fit?) Radio Online Museums Current Events (like the news) Sports (watching them…?)

Now that I’ve written this down somewhere I’ll likely forget it.

Drawing Writing (I’m da ideas guy babyyyy) Gaming Coding I guess Watching TV Movies Listening to Music Reading Journaling Watching cooking videos Collage making Image editing Sprite edits …Pinterest? I really need more hobbies.

Commonplace Notebook Notes (maybe I'll do more research into this...)


Quotes and Book summaries
Well, I already have the library section…
Idea concepts That’s what the writing lounge is for.
Vocabulary Library.
Goals/To do lists That's the agenda page.
Affirmations and meditations No thanks.
I need to figure out what the heck I'm gonna add to this place that isn't already redundant. This would probably be something that was incorporated perfectly into a notion or evernote dashboard.
Tbh, maybe I'll just make like a summary list of stuff I did.
I completely forgot I even had Obsidian, who knows how many notes I had that were still on there... I moved onto Standard Notes. I can't ever show the standard notes or my phone notes because it's like 1000+ scattered notes, random machine translations of stuff, random diary entries from high school to college, random chains, and in general, represents my mess of a mind.
I think a big part of maintenance mode is still me procrastinating actually writing. Everything I do is procrastinating me either being a writer or artist becasue I have secondhand syndrome where I always look at my work and go "it SUCKS why can't I draw good" but like, in order to be good at art and writing I have to do art and write. I mean, all of the website content is on the site, but it's just not properly linked up. I should really be prioritizing being offline trying to do new stuff.
I haven't updated the big gallery yet but I haven't really made anything in a big quantity in october. More on me being like "for the love of god please help me" because I don't know how to update the melongallery updater thing either. I think I'd need to redownload the entire site again.

Not much to see here.

Well, the miniblog is pretty useful and I haven’t been really doing anything aside from shrine October and ignoring my writing pile of work to do and taking my IRL problems and putting them on an actual notebook instead of on the internet which can be liberating like a message in a bottle but also incredibly judgemental so this spot has served its purpose well enough. I've been pretty chill.
I’ve got a lot of stuff I want to pursue hobby wise but barely any time these days. I talked about that but that’s just what adulting is like.
Maybe instead of this being like a vent thing like it used to be I’ll turn it into a commonplace notebook? I used to have a section for it on my notion which I’ve mostly stopped using for my actual writing and instead it’s just a place where my old school notes and job hunting stuff is now.
I first learned about commonplace notebooks off tumblr from Isbah Studio. I think I still have a note on it so I’ll just copy paste highlight stuff I’ll probably be doing.

To be edited in.

1) Reflect on this year. What have you achieved so far and what is left to achieve? How can you progress towards the remaining goals in the remainder of the year?
I've achieved... uh.. not much aside from graduating and site restructuring.
2) What goals are you setting for the upcoming new year and why? How can you start taking baby steps towards these goals now?
Getting a job.
3) What are you looking forward to doing this fall? What plans do you have for this fall?
Not much aside from watching shows, playing games, the plan is getting a job.
4) How is this fall different from last year’s fall for you? How is your life different now compared to then?
I am no longer in college and am living at home. Without a job.
5) During Fall, nature transforms and changes. What changes have you experienced personally?
No money.
6) What are your favorite fall books, movies, music, foods, and activities?
Pumpkin spice related things, cinnamon, stuffing.
7) What specific memories do you cherish from previous falls?
Being on campus.
8) What are you grateful for this year?
My intact sanity somehow.
9) What makes fall cozy for you?
Being able to wear thick blankets and be warm, hot chocolate I guess.
10) Which holiday is your favorite and why?
Halloween, because it's not an insane holiday where I have to worry about cooking or buying presents for people who say my gift giving is bad.

For a while I had removed the link to the older journal because I wasn't sure what I was going to do with it. Since the microblog kind of took it over, this page turned into a commonplace notebook.

Here's the link for the old journal entries that had dates. The links are spelled weirdly becasue the OG journal page was just misc. thoughts I had about pokemon. Warning you in advance the page is a hot mess because I was not medicated.
Old Journal