Journal 2!!

Template post baby!

Everything else might get spoiler texted but not my own diary entries, you gotta see these in all of their cringe power Eh, maybe the less recent ones might get this treatment, idk... I'm wishy washy.

What happened! It broke?! I'm gonna uhhh... move the list and see what happens.

graffiti art knitting quilting model building (with what money to buy them lol) diy crafts photography comic books chess exercise class mahjong sudoku getting a qualification Pilates Tai Chi Dance Weight Lifting Kickball music production video editing museums audiobooks researching online cookbooks (sure, why not.) word games (wordle?) puzzles (probably on the last list.) gardening (i manage to kill succulents.) astrology (like ffxiv (person who only pays attention to astrology in ffxiv) tarot Running fantasy sports (is that with real or fake money…?) history article writing geoguesser (is different from geocaching) 3D modeling with blender game programming (without unity since that blows lmao) fashion design (modelling?) interior design

The problem is that I need more to do from just the house… secondary problem is my lack of morning motivation. Sure, I could do all this stuff, or I could just watch stuff in my bed and sleep in. I’m starting to guess my listlessness is an underlying problem.
I’m thinking I might write more short stories and get back into spriting. I haven’t done that (spriting) since I was a teenager but I have the tools to do it now so I might as well.
https://writtenkitten.co/ Maybe I’ll use this too for the short stuff. 100 words seems reasonable…

Not a big fan of my older journal entries for being all over the place so I've unlisted them.

Past me worked on a list for the notebook sort of post. Neat. I never did work on these lists... I wrote these in between graduating.

Working on Themed Lists Online Documentaries Learning through online websites (Stuff like CourseEra, right) New Music Drawing (I do this already.) Yoga (I used to do this…) Cards (Solitaire?) Reading Learn a Language The News (Read it.) Free Games Origami Web Surfing (I’m trying to be more Productive…?) (oh, stumpleUpon.) Sudoku Podcasts Programming Calligraphy Geocaching (Like Geoguesser?) Organizing Tea Drinking Learning History Baking/ Cooking (Been there, done that. Hated it.) Outfits. (Maybe if the weather was nice enough…) Learn an instrument (I used to be able to play piano…) Make videos (Pass. That’s already what I do for schoolwork.) Watch Old Movies Planning (…?) (Like, with a planner, I guess? My life is full of interruptions by other people so probably not.) Puzzles Crosswords I wish some of these had more of a physical interface but unfortunately my major medium for these things is electronic… unless I like, handdraw a sudoku board? website building (I’d do this more often if i had more places to make websites that weren’t expensive.) Revamp my Neocities Webpage/ Make a New One. Write a novel (I’ve been trying to do that for years.) Meditation Painting/ Coloring Online youtube tutorials Make a vision board (Like that poster board I made on campus at the midpoint of the semester?) Take on the book pile (I do have many books…) Bookmark Cleanup Coloring Figure Drawing Line Drawing Poetry Trivia Running (like with wii fit?) Radio Online Museums Current Events (like the news) Sports (watching them…?)

Now that I’ve written this down somewhere I’ll likely forget it.

Drawing Writing (I’m da ideas guy babyyyy) Gaming Coding I guess Watching TV Movies Listening to Music Reading Journaling Watching cooking videos Collage making Image editing Sprite edits …Pinterest? I really need more hobbies.

Commonplace Notebook Notes (maybe I'll do more research into this...)


Quotes and Book summaries
Well, I already have the library section…
Idea concepts That’s what the writing lounge is for.
Vocabulary Library.
Goals/To do lists That's the agenda page.
Affirmations and meditations No thanks.
I need to figure out what the heck I'm gonna add to this place that isn't already redundant. This would probably be something that was incorporated perfectly into a notion or evernote dashboard.
Tbh, maybe I'll just make like a summary list of stuff I did.
I completely forgot I even had Obsidian, who knows how many notes I had that were still on there... I moved onto Standard Notes. I can't ever show the standard notes or my phone notes because it's like 1000+ scattered notes, random machine translations of stuff, random diary entries from high school to college, random chains, and in general, represents my mess of a mind.
I think a big part of maintenance mode is still me procrastinating actually writing. Everything I do is procrastinating me either being a writer or artist becasue I have secondhand syndrome where I always look at my work and go "it SUCKS why can't I draw good" but like, in order to be good at art and writing I have to do art and write. I mean, all of the website content is on the site, but it's just not properly linked up. I should really be prioritizing being offline trying to do new stuff.
I haven't updated the big gallery yet but I haven't really made anything in a big quantity in october. More on me being like "for the love of god please help me" because I don't know how to update the melongallery updater thing either. I think I'd need to redownload the entire site again.

Here’s the current to do that won’t just be sitting on my agenda
Fix all links navigation wise (Sitemap, Shrines, any spot I missed)
Writing Winter (off site, DW and Ao3, probably PF as well)
Fix images (mostly for the cohost recreation)
Fix spacing (I’ve been pretty lazy doing that)
Figure out what I’m doing with the Pokemon Articles Page (lack of crossposting to Cohost since it’s dead)

Well, somehow I pulled off shrine October before Halloween. The thing is with every single project I’ve ever made I only get everything done at like, the very last minute within a single day when I just lock in. I don’t know how to describe some pages are clearly more shrine like than others and the rest are retrospectives. And now… I dunno. I guess I keep up with the microblog and media log but that’s pretty much it for the site right now? Even the microblog is starting to get a bit all over the place so it might be retired after the year's over.
I’m getting to that point where I’m like “man, remember when this was fun and not pressuring” when I was looking through the MOMG because gifcities was down so I’m definitely hitting that point where I’m not having fun anymore and it’s turning into a massive time sink that dragged on way too long since I’ve been at this since like, July or August.
So it’s like I said, shrine October would probably be my last big project for the year since writing November got preemptively cancelled because of the brief AI…problem, stint, borderline tumblr callout energy that was on neocities. I’m not a big fan of machine learning if you check my microblog, it’s one of those things I don’t like on principle due to online and offline issues like everything attempting to integrate it like crypto and my entire family falling for the scam of it and being like, in college while it was booming and thinking “oh, this is gonna be a problem.” Not to mention like how all my hobbies are threatened by it because everyone goes “just use an AI generator site to do it instead.”’ Unfortunately I already have a gallery page up on here and I don’t really have it in me to take it down even though there’s probably like 2 people who have ever even seen that part of the site but I’m hoping my scribble art will poison the well. I draw for fun, and a lot of internet energy surrounding art makes it very unfun sometimes.
Not much happening in my IRL either to have to have more updates journal wise. Isn’t it kind of nuts how I’ve always complained about a person giving me issues and then they continue to create the same issues and start making new ones. I feel like it’s not healthy to have this daily friction and opposition from a singular person. So naturally my childishness is my brain simply refusing to engage because if I stick too much in reality I’d probably just go nuts. I’m considering converting this full time to a commonplace notebook. It used to be a bullet journal, then it turned into a thought dump. It’s probably better as the notebook than the journal because I have an IRL journal which is pretty much replacing the journal because my whole internet notebook idea pretty much turned into the bumper below.

I’ll probably have sporadic updates but for now catch me on like, pillowfort doing a few reblogs to remind people I’m alive and on dreamwidth posting stuff I’m too critical of myself of to post anywhere else.

To be edited in.

1) Reflect on this year. What have you achieved so far and what is left to achieve? How can you progress towards the remaining goals in the remainder of the year?
I've achieved... uh.. not much aside from graduating and site restructuring.
2) What goals are you setting for the upcoming new year and why? How can you start taking baby steps towards these goals now?
Getting a job.
3) What are you looking forward to doing this fall? What plans do you have for this fall?
Not much aside from watching shows, playing games, the plan is getting a job.
4) How is this fall different from last year’s fall for you? How is your life different now compared to then?
I am no longer in college and am living at home. Without a job.
5) During Fall, nature transforms and changes. What changes have you experienced personally?
No money.
6) What are your favorite fall books, movies, music, foods, and activities?
Pumpkin spice related things, cinnamon, stuffing.
7) What specific memories do you cherish from previous falls?
Being on campus.
8) What are you grateful for this year?
My intact sanity somehow.
9) What makes fall cozy for you?
Being able to wear thick blankets and be warm, hot chocolate I guess.
10) Which holiday is your favorite and why?
Halloween, because it's not an insane holiday where I have to worry about cooking or buying presents for people who say my gift giving is bad.

Not much to see here.

Well, the miniblog is pretty useful and I haven’t been really doing anything aside from shrine October and ignoring my writing pile of work to do and taking my IRL problems and putting them on an actual notebook instead of on the internet which can be liberating like a message in a bottle but also incredibly judgemental so this spot has served its purpose well enough. I've been pretty chill. The icons will eventually change to be animal crossing instead of Pokémon. What do I call this part of my life now that pokemon summer is over? Adjective Fall? I think that’s what it’s like in life to be fixated on something and then move onto something else.
I mean, I might as well call it transformers fall since I dove headfirst into watching through that now. I’ve got a lot of stuff I want to pursue hobby wise but barely any time these days. I talked about that but that’s just what adulting is like.
Maybe instead of this being like a vent thing like it used to be I’ll turn it into a commonplace notebook? I used to have a section for it on my notion which I’ve mostly stopped using for my actual writing and instead it’s just a place where my old school notes and job hunting stuff is now.
I first learned about commonplace notebooks off tumblr from Isbah Studio. I think I still have a note on it so I’ll just copy paste highlight stuff I’ll probably be doing. It’s really been almost half a year now since I graduated….